BitBoy04

Art was and is always an act of rebellion.

I feel so alone lately, I just want a break from people and from life... I also want to vent my emotions but I don’t want to bother anyone... not like they care or understand either. If my psychiatrist didn’t get it, why would they? I just wish I could stop time for a second so I could catch up with life for a bit

Hey, im 21 now. I’m in my second year of college. I’m majoring in chemistry and I finally have a group of friends where I actually belong. I moved away, I mostly get along with my mom now and she apologized for years of abuse and has changed. I’ve been clean of self harm for 2 years now. I am still dealing with my eating disorder but it’s much more manageable. I’m no longer depressed, and every time I feel like stopping I’m finally strong enough to keep going. I’m strong enough to defend myself now. I am able to go out now without being scared, I’m able to drive kinda and I keep trying every day. I don’t think anyone will read this, I don’t think anyone remembers my account, but if anyone gets to see this, things do get better. Things can improve and I can finally say I’m glad my attempts didn’t work. Thank you to the people that supported me online, thank you for caring for a scared 16 year old me. Things get better, life gets easier. I am proof of it. Logging out for the near future. Good luck everyone<33.

being a kid and hearing adults say stuff like "woah 2011 was 4 years ago haha" didn't really convey the fucking horror of a youtube video crossing my recommended labelled "9 years ago" and it's from 2017. that's not true. 9 years ago is 2010 or something. don't lie.