marijo

pic: endofthelifee

The dog slept folded up like a deck chair, the sun went down and up again. Peeled myself out of the comfortable blanket and caught my early train. I feel mocked by myself that I can get up at any time if public transport is involved but not just because I want to. Now I have a journey of a couple of hours ahead of me to not only try stay awake but also revise for my exam. Fingers crossed something will stick this early in the day!

“I'm fighting alone, every day. I fight with the hell that I survived. I fight with the fact of my own humanity. I fight with the idea that death is the only way of escaping this fact.” - Han Kang, Human Acts

I have so many copies ahahah. I understand that I might be on a lot of “people to rob” lists now. Well worth the risk

It is the dead of winter and this past month I have been so incredibly lonely. Truly Allah answered my prayers this weekend. I met one of my high school besties a few days ago, and then this today. Alhamdulillah for everything💖I really feel like a plant that has been watered.

(c'est un piano que j'ai trouvé dans l'aire de restauration d'un centre commercial????)

03.09.2024 [🐣]

—Franz Kafka, from a diary entry wr. c. January 1917 featured in “Diaries,”

currently reading: memory piece by lisa ko. it’s so good!!!! very easy to read yet very charged.

🎧 - the wolf by siamés

Almost time to go home and I am really looking forward to it. Vacation is nice but I also love being at home. My garden is waiting for me and my books and paints and everything.

I've been reading about hauntings, grief, trauma, healing and restorative justice. amidst my own hopelessness, reading such literature gives me some optimism. but there's so much unlearning I have to do, which is certainly not easy. so much of my sensibilities are dominated and influenced by Eurocentrism.

Decided to keep track of some themes because putting tabs helps me stay focused on the reading somehow, let's see how my copy ends up looking!

i was thinking about making some posts about subjects that pertain to my thesis - revising the materials in a way. but i think i may do it after getting some work done first…

Remember to hydrate and rest when needed.