Something my therapist taught me
So I’m not sure if I have made this public knowledge yet or not, but I am in a relationship. This is truly the happiest I have ever been. I have found, who I believe to be, the love of my life. Despite my overwhelming happiness, I have been experiencing quite a bit of anxiety. Because of this new and thriving relationship, I have been thinking about things that I never would have considered in my past. I have been thinking about engagement, marriage, and even motherhood. It terrifies me to think that another human being can influence me this greatly and make me consider things that I thought I NEVER wanted. I fear that I am losing myself to my partner. I am losing my identity. I discussed this fear with my therapist. I told her that despite never wanting to have children, I have now entertained the idea of becoming a parent and it may be something that I could want in the future. I told her that I am horrified that my partner may be influencing me too heavily and I am losing my true identity. My therapist then explained to me the concept of self-evolution. She explained to me that I am not changing my identity, rather I am simply evolving. She reminded me that I may not like the same music, food, or even people that I did when I was younger, but that does not mean that my identity has changed. I have evolved. I am evolving into someone who isn’t afraid to love or be loved. After talking to my therapist, I am no longer anxious about the future of my relationship. Instead, I am excited.
fast forward four years and I’m engaged to this person 💕💍 time flieeees
fast forward three more years we broke off the engagement and I came out as a lesbian!!!!
