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As I quiet my body, strengthen my spirit.

As I deny my flesh, sharpen my discipline.

Create in me a mind that is steady, clear, and anchored in truth.

Remove confusion, remove fear, remove emotional noise.

Teach me to govern my thoughts.

Teach me to pause before reacting.

Teach me to choose peace over impulse.

When temptation rises, let my spirit rise higher.

When weakness whispers, let wisdom speak louder.

Strengthen my will.

Strengthen my discernment.

Strengthen my emotional control.

Purify my intentions.

Align my desires with Your will.

If there is anything in me that is not of You, expose it and remove it gently.

Guard my mind from anxiety.

Guard my heart from resentment.

Guard my spirit from distraction.

Let this moment build me — not break me.

Let it refine me — not exhaust me.

Let it deepen my connection to You.

I choose discipline.

I choose clarity.

I choose growth.

I was laid off twice this year and tryna figure this shit out behind on bills, and struggling to keep my head on straight. I am not happy when i am not secured financially, money struggles fuck with my energy. And i am not the person to just sit back and not give a fuck about my stability/security, nigga i care. I care about keeping my head above water. And i have askes family or friends for help cause i know everyone is going through shit in life its not just me, but during times like this it reminds me of my childhood when my mom didn’t wanna work and depended on niggas and cause she wasn’t working when they left she was on her ass, and that made my life hard. So now as an adult i try to ALWAYS keep a income to cover my overhead and its not easy. I don’t have hella help, i am not a married woman so i have to remain self sufficient. And i landed a new job but that doesn’t start until dec 15 but until then I’m on my own i feel like. I am tired asf, all i want is good stable income so i can handle my business.