ella

callum highway + ptsd

+bonus

‎★★★ 

if you can’t cope i will dry your eyes, i will fight your fight and i will hold you tight by robbosugden/@benthighway rating: teen and up status: complete length: 4k summary: five times callum helps ben +1 time ben helps callum. 

‎★★★

like only lovers could by kay_okay/@kay-okays rating: explicit status: complete length: 4k summary: ben sighs gratefully into his delicate kisses, opens his mouth and tastes callum against his tongue, caramel and lager and peppermint lip balm, and his heart rate slows. with the cool sheets sliding across his bare skin he feels more naked than ever in callum’s bed, and not just physically. like he’s been sliced open, nowhere to hide, with everything he feels deep inside spilling out for callum to see.

‎★★★

old wounds by yasi/@yasisworld rating: teen and up status: complete length: 17k summary: ben and callum meet during training in the army. it’s not love at first sight.

‎★★★

four months, two weeks and five days by heythereromeo_xo/@ballum-schmallum rating: general audiences status: complete length: 6k summary: ben mitchell was just your cocky average working man in walford and was getting on with his life how he normally does, however since the moment callum highway, a soldier from the army entered his world, it had changed forever and they both found themselves writing each other letters and counting down the days until they are reunited again.

‎★★★

someone to watch over me by juguitos/@juguitos rating: general audiences status: complete length: 2k summary: it was phil. it should have always been phil. this was phil’s problem and it should have never been up to ben to deal with keanu, but that mentality that was ingrained into his head since he was a child “you protect your family” is what has driven him to do the unimaginable. and now? he’s suffering the consequences of that mantra.

‎★★★

a piece of you by oceandawn/@oceandawning rating: general audiences status: complete length: 3k summary: callum comes home from a late shift to find ben wearing his hoodie, and soon learns it means a lot more to him than just a piece of clothing. 

‎★★★

i’ll be out there somewhere by dingletragedy/@dingletragedy rating: teen and up status: complete length: 5k summary: winter’s sun has risen, and ben is still beneath the sheets when he blinks his heavy lids open. there’s no sound, the usual soft breathing beside him absent, and the warmth replaced with a coolness that sinks so deep it’s chilling. london’s soft light is spilling in across the sheets, slanting into his eyes, stinging, enhancing the tiredness he feels. it takes him a moment to come to himself, still halfway stuck in the darkness of his troubled dreams.

when he does manage to blink himself awake, he’s wet-eyed and hazy, and registers nothing but the empty half of the bed bedside him. he lays entirely still and swallows against the feeling of his skin curling, against the feeling of his body trying to turn itself inside-out. 

three days in a row.

‎★★★

something i gotta face by artistmow/@maryatthecomiccon rating: teen and up status: complete length: 4k summary: ben finally finds callum, and their reunion lays bare all emotions, including the one that ben can no longer ignore. 

‎★★★

glass hearts by withoutwords/@thefancyspin rating: mature status: complete length: 962 words summary: it comes back to him in moments, and flashes, like an old video reel that keeps skipping. bad, worse, and terrible, most of it. except thinking of ben. imagining him there, and smiling, telling him, “don’t you give up, highway. stay with me, yeah?”

‎★★★ 

you know you’re the one i dream about by dinglesugdendinglesugden/@callumsmitchells rating: general audiences status: complete length: 4k  summary: it’s valentine’s day, the most romantic day of the year, and ben is head over heels in love with callum. or, the one in which callum is oblivious to how ben feels, and ben wants to tell him via notes. 

‎★★★ 

hey anon! welcome to the dark side, you’ll love it here!!! here’s some of my favourite blogs (i’ve put them in little categories for you so it’s easier to find what kind of blogs you’re looking for etc - but they are all brilliant all-round blogs!)  

gifs/edits/artwork: @lolapearce @weloveweird @drewsbarrymcre @bencallum @isabellaofparma @halfsway @ashpanesars @noonano @permetstu @josephgraham @maxbowdens @merriell @whitdean @demauryeliotts @mitchellsben @smugfacebitchell @callumsoftway @lucres @starsdah-b

fics: @benthighway @thefancyspin @oceandawning @halfwayinit @mitchellandhighway @callumsmitchells @ballum-schmallum @juguitos @softlofty @some-mad-lunge @smugdensmitchell @yasisworld @kay-okays @anxious-apple @sunsetsover @ballym @they-call-me-halfway

lovely, brilliant people: @ballumory @cqllumhighway @sugdensmrdingle @howellobrien @littlelooneyluna @beetlebum79 @callumitchells @ben-mitchells @tkandbuck @eastendies @songforabarricade @highwaybowden @hclfway @vinnypanesars @albertsquarev @babygaycal @isaketeven @menbitchell @shoutdontwhisper @danrdarrenc