Go Away.

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“If you need help carrying all of that, why wouldn’t you just say so?” Charity raised her eyebrow, entertained by the sight of the student in front of her. “I can almost make out your face behind all of those.” She reached for the top of the pile and took the first four away. “There, now I can see your nice visage. Why are you carrying these around anyway?”

。·:✧:· SHE WOULDN’T ADMIT she needed all these books, because Bellatrix wouldn’t admit a lot of these things. In fact, she hated the idea of anyone knowing that for once second she cared about anything other than darkness and pranking people, aside from the one girl that made her life worthwhile. “I don’t really, but if you’re insisting,” she mumbled under her breath. Watching as the girl took the books off the top, she raised her eyebrows, looking over at her. “I have to return them all to the library. Half of them aren’t even mine, my bloody friends apparently lost the use of their damn legs and arms,” Bellatrix explained, grumbling. 

          WITH A SCOFF, Sirius just crossed his arms. “Now, that’s not fair,” he said with an over dramatic pout. He raised an eyebrow as she answered his question. “In order to completely forget about it, right?” he teased, chuckling slightly as he allowed his body to relax. He’d never get tired of this friendship that they had. She was one of the few people that he felt he could still get away with this around. Her next words caused his eyebrow to raise in pure judgement. “That is the absolute lamest thing I have ever heard come out of your mouth,” he told her, shaking his head. 

。·:✧:· SMIRKING, BELLATRIX WAS incredibly appreciative of the relationship she and Sirius had, especially because at this point, everyone would’ve expected any interaction they had to be rocky at best. But she wouldn’t let him go, not just yet. “Of course,” she stated, winking back at him. “He’ll trick everyone into thinking he’s cute,” she explained, knowing he was one of the few people who would tease her about it without actually making her upset in any way. Not that she was upset. She just felt some strange connection to this giraffe and she couldn’t explain exactly what it was. Crossing her arms over her chest, she made sure the small giraffe was still facing him. “Keith is upset with you for saying our bond is lame. Don’t get mad at me when he haunts your dreams and steals your socks and underwear,” Bellatrix explained, trying not to laugh.

OPEN

“oi! don’t look at me like that. I’m jus’ bumming a smoke,” fabian interjected as he sat perched near a grand oak tree that bordered the lake. it was his spot but someone just happened to come upon it and he was not amused. 

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。·:✧:· PUTTING HER HANDS up in defense, Bellatrix shook her head. “Not tryin’, but do you have to do it right here?” she asked, as she walked towards him. The grand oak tree was always peaceful and at the present moment, she hadn’t really wanted to speak to anyone. People were being particularly frustrating that morning. “Can’t you find a more secluded spot?”

“ this is pointless, i give up. “ michael let out a more than frustrated groan as he slumped back into the adequately comfortable, worn-out sofa in the back of the library. with dismay, he looked down at the stack of books on the table in front of him, as well as the mess of crumpled up papers, notebooks, pens and quills spread out next to it. “ i mean, what’s the sense of it anyway? what’s it good for, i just-  “, sighing, he paused for a moment to rub his eyes. mike ran a hand through his already messy hair before letting his body fully fall back against the backrest, eyes fixed on some random spot on the stone ceiling. .

“  i just dont know what devil posessed me when i chose to take arithmancy as an elective, i really don’t know.”

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。·:✧:· BOOKS PILED UP in her arms, Bellatrix finally found herself with a little quiet time, a day to read a book and spend time with herself. That was how she found herself curled up in a chair in the library, incredibly comfy, something she hadn’t felt in a while. Her book placed in her lap, the curly haired Slytherin was incredibly content, knowing full well this wouldn’t happen again for quite some time. While she knew it wouldn’t last very long, she tried to enjoy the time she had. As she heard someone next to her speak, she rolled her eyes. Of course it wasn’t going to last long. “There’s no good in any of it,” she stated, placing her hand in her book. Tilting her head to the side, she looked over at what he was doing and scrunched up her nose. “I can try and help you, if you promise not to tell anyone.”

@bellblack​

marlene knew it was stupid, it was childish, it was petty, and she was fully aware. but that didn’t stop her from finding bella and dragging her into the room of requirement, thankful it had shown up. it was all timing really, she was starting to feel like she couldn’t talk to anyone about much and she knew that evan wouldn’t understand. but bella, like the saving grace she was, was a neutral third party. she knew rabastan and she knew marlene, but she wasn’t directly in the line of fire. there was a lack of explanation as marlene pulled her away, the shorter girl still fuming as she held onto the slytherin’s hand. 

once the door was shut behind them, she turned to face the older girl, huffing slightly. “i’m sorry, but i just needed someone who wasn’t directly involved to just let me rant.” marlene’s explanation was vague, but if anyone had been around the quidditch pitch that day, she’s sure they would’ve heard. 

。·:✧:· FEELING A HAND grab hers, Bellatrix lifted her head up to be met with Marlene’s eyes, watching her in a mood, the kind of mood that she knew would result in a rant. Quite honestly, she wouldn’t object to anything that involved this girl. It was a feeling and a relationship she wouldn’t let anyone know about. When she’d needed her, Marlene was there to make Bellatrix feel like she was special. There was a kind of bond that she would never let disappear. They didn’t know everything about each other’s lives, but that was the way she liked it. For each other, there was always a neutral advice free judgement zone. And Bellatrix admired Marlene for everything about her, which was one of the reasons she couldn’t get herself away from her.

As the door shut and she watched her huff, Bellatrix sat down on the couch and pushed her curly hair out of her face. Shaking her head, she put her hands up. “I’m never going to stop you from doing just that. Go ahead. I’ll talk and give you advice when you’re ready for me to. Rant away, love.”

He just listened to what she was saying, half interested as he didn’t have much hope when it came to Narcissa ever wanting him back. It was pretty obvious who she wanted at the end of the day and it wasn’t him. No matter how perfect you tried to be, no matter how attractive you looked. If your heart is not in it, you just have to accept your fate. “At the end of the day only time will tell how me and Narcissa will be in a few years. We are still kids”

。·:✧:· AS THE BOY in front of her spoke, Bellatrix couldn’t help but smile. That’s what she’d wanted to hear and most definitely what she’d wanted to know. While yes, she knew that he’d wanted to marry her sister, she appreciated the fact that he was taking his time with it, and that he wasn’t trying to force anything. “And that, Lucius, I appreciate. You’re a good guy, you know. I can see why my parents picked you for her. I think you will be good for her, honestly.”

Elsie, honestly hadn’t really known what to do with herself so far this term. Not that she particularly knew what to do with herself during any school term, but ever since her, well, her ‘outburst’, over Christmas, people had been treating her, differently. She was still mostly on the fence on whether or not it was a good or bad different, but the last person she would have thought to really have her leaning towards the latter was Bellatrix Black herself.

“…You’re oddly quiet.”

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。·:✧:· PURSING HER LIPS, Bella shrugged her shoulders, wondering how to word this properly. “Processing,” she explained, before turning back to face Elsie. She’d known about the outburst, known about how everyone treated her. “Am I not allowed to process?” she asked, looking her up and down, curious as to where her head was going now. With everything that’d been happening, Bellatrix’s opinions could go either way, and lately, she found herself second guessing everything anyway. “Why are you worried that I’m quiet?”

bellatrix’s enthusiasm spreads a warmth throughout andromeda’s chest. it’s only away from their parents that the black sisters can really express their emotions, no matter how positive or negative they may be. being at hogwarts was their opportunity to be themselves wholly, and andromeda was now taking advantage of that. “ i’m with peter again. ” she admits after a moment, eyes trained on the wood of the table. despite her happiness, she knows that the decision to publicly date someone other than her betrothed was one that their parents wouldn’t favour –– and she was still unsure whether or not bellatrix would take their side. 

。·:✧:· WATCHING HER SISTER, Bellatrix wondered what was going through her head. She’d taken a moment to respond, something that the eldest sister always took as a hesitation or a worry, or something they should’ve have been doing. As she finally responded, Bellatrix just sat there for a moment, watching her, knowing full well that her sister’s decision to date someone other than her betrothed wouldn’t go over well in their parents’ eyes. But she couldn’t just sit there and not watch over her. That wasn’t what sisters did. It was a frustrating decision, because she knew the rules and she knew what was expected, but here she was, ruining everything as well. “Andie,” she started, trying to get her sister to look back up at her. “Does he make you happy?” Bellatrix asked, because in that moment, nothing else mattered. She didn’t care what the rules were or what was expected, because her sister looked worried that her own sister wouldn’t approve. And hell, Bellatrix couldn’t have that. 

it was odd, feeling so at ease with someone like bellatrix black. millicent was solid in her beliefs, and she’d heard that bellatrix was solid in hers ––– though they were opposite to millicent’s values. even so, she gets up to follow after her, the easy smile on bellatrix’s face inviting. “ this is exciting. ” she quips, grin wide on her face. did she particularly care about the outcome of their escapade? not really. but the act is thrilling in itself. 

。·:✧:· CHUCKLING, BELLATRIX GRINNED excitedly, glad that she was exciting for the girl, because flirting was one of the rare things that made the girl excited. Flirting gave her some control in her life, in times that she didn’t necessarily have control. To help someone else land a date, well that was just amusing. “I’m glad you think that way. Just keep an eye on where his eyes go. If they go to your chest and refuse to meet your gaze, well, dear, you’ve got yourself a hook up buddy. There are ways to turn that around if you really want, but I generally don’t.”

“I am not gonna run after someone who doesn’t want me, Bellatrix. I understand that you want what is best for your sister, I want that too. But I also need to focus on myself. It’s not fair for me to run after someone who has their eyes set on someone else” he shrugged as he studied her. “And if that makes me selfish. If that makes me cold hearted then so be it. But it’s pointless as she already had made her mind up”

。·:✧:· SHRUGGING HER SHOULDERS, she looked up at him. “Hey, you don’t know that she doesn’t. I just know that the idea of an arranged marriage can be difficult. But all I’m trying to say is that you’ve got to show her that you care, so she sees you’re not just in it because your parents told you as well, but that you actually want her. It’ll make her feel good and perhaps even like you back,” she explained. Bellatrix wondered how she could explain it without sounding offensive in any way. “Our parents picked you for her. We’ve all grown up. She’s just got to get to know you again, who knows how she’ll feel.” While Bellatrix wanted Narcissa happy, she did know that Lucius would be a good match for her, should she accept it. He was everything their parents wanted in a husband for their daughters, besides, he was handsome too. Why couldn’t her sister be happy with him? 

he listened to everything she said, remaining quiet and attentive as possible. his frustration churned in his gut but that wasn’t what bella needed right now. even so, could he always meet the needs of everyone else and not himself? wasn’t lily telling him he was important too? still, what was the difference between self consideration and self indulgence? “do you believe in it, the cause that wants to see you become a death eater?” he had never wanted that despite the prodding and insistence he take the mark as soon as possible ever since his fourth year. and now he felt even more strongly repelled and repulsed by the idea, unable to keep that out of his voice. “honestly i don’t know that it’d be so difficult. i’ve uhh– learned a lot in the last few days even and i think it’s a lot more possible than you think, than i thought.” dorcas had accepted him, she had said he had people who would support him and it meant a lot to him, it meant everything to him. he had to pause when she turned the questioning on him, a familiar tactic when the heat got too high. “nothing’s alright. in the last week my ex girlfriend told me she was with my best mate, i punched vincent goyle in the face, stunned lucius malfoy into unconsciousness and  —- “ the last part was the most important perhaps. “ i won’t be taking the mark bella, ever. it’s wrong, everything that mark represents and stands for is wrong, it’s evil and i’m not going to be slave to a man who plans to eradicate people for blood status, for no reason.” she was the first of his friends to hear it and maybe she’d make him regret it but maybe not. it still didn’t feel safe to say it but if bella loved ellie, if that was real, then bella might have some of the same doubts that were plaguing him. “it’s impossible not to think about it though, because it changes the fate of your entire life. how could you — how could i ignore it?”

。·:✧:· LISTENING TO RABASTAN talk, Bellatrix stood there, completely confused about what to do now. She thought she had everything under control and thought she’d made up her mind about what to do. But the more and more she talked about it to others, the more and more she found herself regretting her decision. She’d done it, she’d taken the mark because her parents told her to and that girl, the eldest Black daughter wanted to be everything her parents wanted to be. Because Bellatrix thought that was the right thing to do, but now, having fallen for Ellie, her entire world flipped upside down. “I thought so, I thought I really did. But now, everything’s changing and I really don’t know if I can stand it anymore,” she started, fiddling with her fingernails, picking at them, hoping by some miracle it would give her a solution.

But it was too late, that much she knew. She’d already done it and now, she’d have to find a way to make things right. Bellatrix knew Ellie was worth it, she knew the girl meant more to her than almost anything else in her life. “If my family knew what I’ve done, and what I’m thinking, no, no, I can’t even think about that. What would my mother and father do? You know what they’re like, Bas. I’m terrified.”

believe it or not, andromeda had run through half of her happiness in the week after she’d persuaded peter to take her back –– and these were simply the leftovers. seeing her sister smile only served to nuture andromeda’s own, remaining on her lips as she sipped her juice with a shrug. “ i don’t know. i just feel like things are going right. ” it was a vague statement, sure –– but it was applicable, the blanket of general joy that’d settled over andromeda’s life being nothing if not effective. she couldn’t see her parents’ disapproval and expectations through the veil of it, which made it a lot easier for her to keep her spirits up. 

。·:✧:· SEEING HER SISTER smile again made her feel good. To know that something was finally going right in her life was inspiring. It proved that maybe everything could work out the way she wanted it to as well. “Andie, I’m so happy for you! I don’t know what’s going on, but I love it. This is exactly what I wanted for you, to see you this happy,” she explained, clapping excitedly. Bellatrix had no idea what made her sister so happy, but whatever it was, it was good. Whether or not their parents would approve of what made her like this, she wasn’t sure, but they didn’t have to deal with that now. Their opinion always hung in the back of her head, wondering if anything she did anymore would be accepted. But to know that Andromeda was happy, despite the rules, it made things seem alright. “Want to share some of that with me?”

Just humming as he listened to what she was saying, the question caused the man to frown. It wasn’t a question he had been expecting, truth be told. It did catch him by surprise. “I want to marry her. I care about her deeply.. love her even. So yes, I do want to marry her” he nodded as he crossed his arms over his chest. “But the question is not if I want to marry her. It’s more of if she wants to truly marry me. And I don’t really.. want to hear the answer”

。·:✧:· LISTENING CAREFULLY FOR the clue words of a solid answer, Bellatrix hoped that he actually wanted to be with her for good reasons or if it was just because both their families insisted on it. “Oh really now?” she teased, narrowing her eyes as she kept her gaze on him. It was almost weird to hear this, weird to know that Lucius actually cared about her sister. Quite honestly, she hadn’t expected it, but she didn’t really know what she was expecting. “I have to admit, I was not expecting that. I have talked to her and I know what she wants, but you’ll have to show her you care. Don’t spoil her with silly gifts or material things. Show her that she actually matters to you. Learn some things about her and impress her.”

he knew better, alright, he definitely fucking knew better. this was bellatrix, and bellatrix had never taken even half as much of his shit as other people had - but amycus was in a bad way, and the little voice that reminded him (occasionally) who he shouldn’t lay hands on had been silent just long enough for him to fuck this up royally. so, when bella threw him off, he let it happen keeping his hands visible in front of her for half a moment before they went to his head; rubbing over his face and into his hair, framing his head with his arms like a cage to hold in the anger still threatening to burst out of him at any possible point of exit. his teeth were gritted, and it was so clear how hard he was trying to contain it, contain the outburst before it got even worse, when he dropped his arms and repeated himself. “just tell me what you said, ella. i can’t - civil is - i can’t - i can’t fucking do this today, so just tell me what you said. go on, just do it. say it loud enough to rip me to pieces, that’s what you fuckin wanted, isn’t it? to pile on? make it worse? go ahead. can’t get much lower, can i? just say it.” 

。·:✧:· ANGER BUILT UP inside her as she finally threw Amycus off her. As he backed up with his hands up to protect his face. Bellatrix moved toward him, knowing she was significantly smaller than him. But damn, that girl could fight, there was no doubt in her mind. And with that, she pushed him over, climbed over him in a straddle and grabbed his wrists, pinning him down. “YOU HAVE LOST YOUR MIND!” She screamed at him as she looked into his eyes. Bella didn’t know what set him off, but this was a little excessive. As he spoke, she shook her head, and pinned his wrists down onto the ground again. “I’m not going to fight you, Ace. I’m not. And you’re not going to fight me. Look,” she started, sighing. “Usually, I’m all for violence, pranks and all of that, but this... snapping at someone because they mumbled something you don’t like, COME ON, you’re better than that. I know you, and I know what you stand for, and this needs to stop. This is NOT how we win, at all. Stop acting LIKE A CHILD.” 

Letting go of his wrists, she sat back on his stomach, knowing she couldn’t actually hurt him like that. Her arms crossed over her chest as she refused to take her eyes off of him. “What the HELL is your problem? Huh? What’s got you all ready to fight everyone?” she asked, leaning forward a little, her hands resting on his chest. “I’m not moving from here until you talk to me. So, what’s got you acting like a child, huh?”

millicent’s smirk erupts into a wide grin, eyes brightening with bellatrix’s official offer of a valentine’s day scheme. “ my every day conversations are riddled with flirting. ” she admits, shaking her head ever so slightly. “ it’s my opinion that charm is the best and only way to get your desired results in any situation. flirting is just another way of saying being charismatic. and charismatic people all but run the world, bellatrix black. ”

。·:✧:· SMIRKING, BELLATRIX KNEW this would be a good idea and most definitely quite fun. It was good to know that the girl knew how to flirt already, because she quite honestly wasn’t sure if she was ready to teach that. “Then, sweet girl, you and I are going to have a lot of fun. There are plenty of men here that’ll fall for the charm, especially your eyes,” she explained as she gestured for her to follow her. “I know where he usually hangs out. We’ll start with the simple laugh and hair flip. It’ll get his attention and we’ll follow where his eyes go from there,” she explained, finding herself incredibly excited. It’d been quite a while since Bellatrix had just flirted for the sake of flirting and she was so ready for it. 

          HIS SMILE TWISTED into one of confusion as he just nodded at her. “Uh-huh,” he muttered, taking a step closer so he could eye the creature a bit more easily. “I don’t understand muggle creatures to tell you the truth,” he admitted with a sigh before shrugging his shoulders. “Oh, I’ll judge you for the rest of your life,” he replied with a bit of a chuckle. “What are you going to do with one of those things anyway?” he asked curiously.

。·:✧:· HER EYES MOVED down to the small giraffe in her hands, knowing part of her felt the same way too. She didn’t truly understand what the purpose of it was, but it wouldn’t stop her from holding onto it, wondering if it could in some way make things a little less stressful. “That’s fine, I’ve got plenty to judge you for,” she explained. Holding it close to her heart, she fiddled with the tuft of hair on top of the giraffe. Could she even tell him that she planned on keeping it for reassurance if she ever needed it? No, that would be incredibly silly. “Keep it. Put it on my dresser.” A small laugh left her mouth as she thought of the perfect reason. “You ever look at something or someone and think ‘they’re too cute, there’s got to be something dark or wrong about them’? That’s what this is. It’ll fuel my dark desires,” Bella explained, hoping he’d believe her. He probably wouldn’t, but that wouldn’t stop her from trying.