beleza esperta

on choosing kindness. again and again.

Pink Pantheress (2021)

Winter Evening - Squirrel in Flight

The solution for the eternal child’s desperation is simply to do. Make art, write, clean without thinking, get off the phone [in a word create things and learn to sit with the mistakes, by doing this you accept death by dwelling in the world instead of dwelling in the postponement of fantasy (“i’ll do that when i grow up”)]. Consumption harkens back to life in the womb when everything was provided. We must assert to the subconscious that we are capable of existing in the world by doing things. It’s incredibly difficult, painful, and circuitous but I’m realizing that it’s the only way, because there is no parent who’s going to take care of me anymore.

The Toad, Mary Oliver

How I’m trying to be in 2026…

PinkPantheress, Evening Standard Magazine, 2021

this is the wisdom of bell hooks: daily rituals of meaning and resistance and solidarity are part of slowly building a future where you can make the change you really need. and only alive people can do that. every step you take towards change and power is another step away from death.

2026 Olympic Winter Games Exhibition Gala (Stateside)

Alysa Liu, the 2026 Olympic Champion in Women's Singles Skating

Tourist, Sonia Feldman

I actually have to build the life I want to live.