things i want out of fem!karma
because no, itās not just a female version of karma, itās so much more. things are not the same for you when youāre a girl. life is not the same.
karma hating her teachers not just because they only care about her grades, but because they wonāt believe what she says, tell her that sheās wrong becauseĀ āgirls are so emotional, they overreact to everythingā
karma being violent af and everyone scolding her for not being ladylike and proper but when itās a boy somehow thatās badass and hot
karma runs around everywhere when sheās a little girl and she loves to explore, climb trees and jump across roofs and play games in the woods with her friends, and her mother scolds her for tearing her dresses and getting dirt on her knees
karma is easily bored, sorry if she doesnāt want to listen to some dude in hisĀ ā40s prattle on about lawnmowers or how shitty millennials are, sheād rather be playing video games or reading books or exploring the outdoors instead. she jiggles her knees a lot and never stays still and she canāt understand the problem with that.
whenever karma asserts herself as a leader she gets called bossy by the boys sheās working with and thatās why she so often hides her ability as a leader. itās better to work alone, anyway, no annoying boys who try to assert their dominance or doubt her abilities when sheās clearly the smartest one here.
karma beats the shit out of boys who try to kiss her without her consent and sheās told you should be flattered that he likes you and she has to pretend to be sorry for what she did but sheās not, not ever
karmaās mom telling her not to be out alone after dark and after karma finds out why, thatās how she becomes so good at fighting, because sheās scared and she has to learn how to defend herself. (she starts using her fighting techniques in other ways later)
karma is quick to anger and quick to violence, and people always complain about how emotional she is, how she needs to learn to be politer and milder and more patient. eventually karma stops getting angry and learns to hide it beneath a mask of cool aloofness because no sheās not angry, she just finds you fucking pathetic and she thinks itās hilarious.
karmaās mom is worried because that girlās so sure of herself and itās off-putting, how is she ever going to get a boyfriend with that cocky attitude? (karma doesnāt give a shit though, why the fuck should she care about boys? she has okuda and sheās really cute, and she has nagisa who definitely doesnāt care if karmaās cocky, + plenty of other options)
speaking of that: karma meeting nagisa
nagisa explains that yeah, he doesnāt like being forced to look like a girl but thereās nothing wrong with it in and of itself, and karma feeling relieved because she feels like everyone would be so much more okay with her in general if she was a boy
karma being brilliant and violent and talented and used to boys getting jealous because a girl canāt be better than me, i have to be better, but nagisa doesnāt care ā admires it, even ā and karma appreciates that so much
bonus: nagisa thinks itās great that karma likes superhero movies. sheās not a fake geek girl to him.
she comes to class 3-E and her faith in the one teacher she trusted has been shattered ā sheās just an overreacting teenage girl all over again, not a serious student ā and her eyes are hard and her smile is playful but not alluring, not seductive, because sheās tired of being a pleasure to be consumed and she hates korosensei the moment she sees him because another authority figure who sees himself as so much more powerful than she is
but ā heās not so bad after all. he takes karma seriously, he cares about her as a student, and she decides sheās willing to trust him, just a little bit.
nagisa is friends with her again, and that means something, although sheās not sure where their friendship is at
karma places 4th on the first midterms, and everyone gapes at her. no one cares that sheās a girl; they just all care that sheās staying. that she beat the kids in the main building, and sheās staying with 3-E.
okajima dares to crack a joke about karmaās appearance, and karma punches him in the face. no one really scolds her.
rio talks about how she just wanted to be like everyone else and thatās why she tried to seem less smart than she really was. karma relates to that a little more than she should. when rio scores first in english, karma hates herself for how badly she did, but she still stops by rioās desk to give her a high-five.
when she fucks up in the first finals, she hates korosensei for a while. she thinks, another guy whoās smug about getting to prove me wrong, about putting me in my place. but she gets over it. she takes his advice, she springs back up again, and itās so worth it to look at a wide-eyed gakushuu asano and his cronies and give them a glittering sharp fuck-you smirk because yeah, sheās definitely in her place now: first place.
karma wants to fight grip and the assassinās scoff turns up the corners of his lips as he surveys her, and this time, itās not just because sheās a teenager. she makes sure to hit him extra hard, just for that.
in the civil war arc, sheās the leader and everyone actually listens to her for once and she realises how important that is to her. and thatās why, in the end, she finally listens to nagisa.
when korosensei dies, the boys cry too. everyoneās emotional.
when korosensei dies, a little bit of her shatters into pieces, but the friends sheās made are there for her. friends she can trust, not boys who try to kiss her because āiām a boy and youāre a girl so doesnāt that mean weāre supposed to be in love?ā okuda. nagisa. rio. and so many more.
when karma grows up and becomes a bureaucrat, she isnāt taken as seriously at her workplace because sheās a woman. she proves them wrong so, so fast.
