he hates that they donât react. hates the monotone voice, the lack of any and all flicker in magenta hues. wolf needs a reaction, needs to know that heâs being listened to - yet ren responds and he can feel nothing but that unbridled rage threatening to boil over. he doesnât care what they think - doesnât care what they want because this isnât his fight. he is no more a part of this than they are - no more a willing participant than a child is in their parentâs arguments or a civilian is in their leaderâs vendettas. mercury black is only here because he needed to be, and now he has no obligation. no ties or loyalty. all he has is himself. except, ren is right - arenât they? lip curls and nose wrinkles in a barely contained snarl as the assassin bristles where he sits. marcus black was nothing but a washed up old man who hated the child he ended up with, mercury black is nothing but a waste of space who thought he could play the world into giving him more than he deserved. yet here he is. broken and useless with nothing but a stubborn pride that he shouldnât possess. here he is, staring down ren as if staying silent was an option. he doesnât want to work with them. doesnât want to admit that the kid is right, that mercury doesnât have any other option but to eat and tend to his injuries even where his fractured aura refused to.Â
     mercury has half a mind to kick out at the bowl between them, to send it flying right back at the other as if it would serve in place of an actual, verbal response. he hates this. hates being cornered, being weak and vulnerable. it doesnât matter that ren isnât actively threatening him - that really their words could be seen as something of an encouragement. get up, spit your mouthful of blood, move move moveâ it doesnât matter because mercury doesnât want to listen. even if he knows itâs the path with the least resistance, the path that means he gets away quicker and with less resistanceâ
      âwhy should i listen ta anythinâ you have ta say, anyway? iâm out, i got out - it donât matter ta me if yâ get the info youâre lookinâ for cus it ainât my fight no more - you get that?! i donât care where allâve you go from here, donât you get that? my legs are fucked, sure - i ainât goinâ nowhere fast but that donât mean i wanna help you.â he doesnât look away, doesnât dare break the glare that he has aimed at their features, he can feel blood staining his skin - feel the way his aura struggles to heal anything before itâs all used up again. can feel the way his prosthetics donât seem to register anymore, can feel that theyâre damaged and useless. that heâs defenceless unless ren tried to perhaps cross the room and slap him rather than anything else the student could do. âi donât want your food and i donât want your bartering, i ainât choosinâ a side - doesnât matter how much you try ta get me on side, it ainât happening. cinder picked me up when i killed pa - iâm sure yâ know who he is, right? yâ always did seem the prying type. cinder did nothinâ but use me like he did. i. donât. trust. you.â
     his voice is smaller then, bitter and distant. âyou all just wanna use me.â
it was ironic that the role of interrogator fell to the lotus, ren with a voice that was as clear as it was soft, with the capability for the most gentle eyes, whose food was made with such love and care that it often brought forth a feeling of homesick nostalgia. but one supposed that didnât really work for someone who hadnât had a home, not in a real sense, not for someone who had just been trapped in a house with a monster. gone had been the quiet affection, the awe in which they regarded mercuryâs strength, the good natured smile whenever they took mercuryâs sparring invitations with more enthusiasm than one thought ren was capable of. they tried so hard to avoid weakness in front of the enemy, but even then this was exhausting, wasnât it ? it took almost everything ren had not to grit draconic teeth and snarl. already, when they spoke, little wisps of smoke left their mouth, the little clouds appearing only when they felt an urge to bite. it was such an obvious tell, despite renâs precise control over their facial expressions, but that perfect mask, too, was breaking.
â  it wasnât very difficult to find.  i lived here once too.  â  years spent in the mistral underground, and one still couldnât shake the old habits no matter how hard they tried to change their image.
you all just wanna use me.
â  ...  it wasnât always like that.  â  a splinter, a crack, the more mercury spoke. ren couldnât do this. they werenât cut out for acting unfeeling and bitter, despite how much they desperately wanted to. they felt so much and they just werenât strong enough to contain these emotions, even with the use of their semblance. they thought about how beacon had proved to advance them, and yet ren had left the grounds feeling so much weaker than before.  â  my semblance allows me to feel what you do,  and yet i canât see past this seething rage over loosing my teammate,  my friends,  and watching my home being decimated.  what you did  â  â  agitation rises, renâs voice spit out as a reverberating growl. and then, they caught themselves, because despite whatever mercury assumed, ren had been listening.  â  what cinder ordered you to do is driving a lot of good people to make bad decisions.  â  ren exhaled then, a cloud of smoke as they broke what had been a seething glare to look down, expression pensive and conflicted instead of stoic.  â  this is one of them.  we donât want to keep you here against your will.  at least  ...  i donât want to.  â
â  i really thought it could have been different a year ago.  â  ren let that exhaustion over their situation take root, expression tired and wistful as they smiled, somewhat bittersweet.  â  i enjoyed spending time with you.  i looked up to you.  i wanted to be your friend,  mercury.  â  ren could make mercury trust him. that was the convenient piece of their semblance they were leaving out, the ability to manipulate someoneâs emotions. all human feelings were a concoction, brain signals, chemicals, and trust was an easy one to mix. but ... ren didnât want to. they didnât want to take away someoneâs ability to choose what they were feeling. it was the path of most resistance. to be good, and kind, and just was difficult, but they wanted to tread that path as long as they could.  â  one of the cruelest things i could wish on you is the hope that you find someone you love as much as we did her,  then maybe you could see how much it changed us to have her taken away,  and how much we want cinder to pay for what they did.  â