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Hey, I'm Eddie! Any pronouns work for me and I don't mind answering questions. My posting schedule is shit so bear with me on the actual media. I will live forever through my art and I love to live.

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PARIS IS BURNING and other related pieces of queer black history (yes, I'm still adding media to this masterpost)

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Beauty in the Serpent's Eden (BITSE) - TMNT band au

THAT'S RIGHT! The au is finally official AND has an actual name!

The concept that started it all << less and less accurate with every new update (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

I can't guarantee how much the story-telling will stick to this original timeline but those ⬆ are the basics. I will NOT be posting updates in chronological order. It'll come to me when it comes to me.

''#tmnt band au'' is the main tag b/c that's what I used in the very beginning before I decided on a name

"#BITSE song" is the tag for song lyrics or anything related specifically to one or more songs

"#beatingtheart" is the new art tag 🖍️

This au isn't fanfic specific. I'll probably do a bunch of different stuff for it, that just happens to include fanfiction because it's easier for me. None of these sections are in a specific order, just what I like to lay out in my mind. Ask whatever you want but it might take me a while to see it!!

Sunita

Two Purple Idiots

Jailbreak - storyline - Ao3

Part 1 - fic

Part 2 - fic (end)

BITSE song response - Teenage Tightrope

Kendra's P.OV. 🖍️

Kendra's apartment layout 🖍️

DIGG

Totally not a Gaga reference - storyline

Road trip to Nassau

BITSE song - Cop Car

"I can't breathe" - George Floyd

If I were you, I'd kill myself. 📌

Mariah Davidson - news transcript

I CHANGED MY MIND! We're putting a pin in this one! 📌📌📌

The Doe and Fawn Incident

Do you know what your children look like? - news transcript

BITSE song response - Heaven

Run of The Mill Rooftop

It isn't easy being green - fic - Ao3

TED talk Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie - A Single Story

The Effects of Racism on Children - Documentary

Smoking together 🖍️

The Adventures of an Orange Turtle

An Orange Point of View - Ao3

Part 1 - fic

Part 2 - fic

Part 3 - fic

Part 4 - fic

Part 5 - fic (end)

BITSE song - Fuck the Police

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CooOOO-wooo-wooo-wooo - pathetic bird man 🪶

Yes, that's actually what I named the au. Subject to change. So far it's basically just concept stuff.

"#cooOOO-wooo-wooo-wooo" is the au tag

Background info

Edwin character breakdown

I noticed while Grace is on the ship interacting with himself and Rocky he acts kinda differently than he does when he's on earth. The environment has a lot to do with it obviously but I think the reason he's a bit more secure in himself is because he doesn't remember much of the people from earth or how they treated him.

Disclaimer: this shit does NOT make sense and I AM delusional.

When Grace is working in the labs on earth he gets isolated from other scientists and is viewed as expendable and not as important as the others who are working on Project Hail Mary. He's rushed into things that he doesn't understand or doesn't want to do very often and is awkward around most of the other people he's working with. (Que the "party scene" where everyone else is doing karaoke and hooking up while Grace is sitting alone and drinking by himself.) Not to mention when he gets excited about something that he thinks did well and Stratt has to tell everyone else watching him to act excited as well almost entirely out of pity.

But when Rocky is with him and they're working together to save their suns they are working together. It's a collaboration between the two of them where he's able to brainstorm with Rocky instead of at him (like he did with Carl). He's able to get excited with Rocky and Rocky will actually be excited too. Nothing is kept from him or used against him because Rocky and Grace have not only a partnership but also friendship built on their common goal; neither of them have authority or power over the other. He's able to be more loose and fluid around Rocky because they're in almost the same exact position.

When they're in the big screen room and Grace is showing Rocky all of the beautiful scenery on earth he doesn't show Rocky much about humans or people at all; the most we see that's even man made is the fireworks. But when we're shown Grace's actual memories of earth where he's surrounded by other people he's mostly uncomfortable and doesn't see the "beauty" as much.

And throughout the movie as he gains back his memory he keeps most of that "security" because he found someone to be brave for, as Yao said earlier. When he's on earth being forced to make the difficult decision of either staying or going on the ship to save the world he basically has a mental breakdown and completely refuses. But when he has to choose between going home and going back to save Rocky he easily sends to pods of information back to earth without him and returns to help Rocky. (Not to mention that the song playing in the background when he goes back to Rocky is about going home)

Like, probably the most important thing actually

Embarrassment is such an under-explored emotion but it can define so much of who you are

Probably because they're fursonas. Furry personifications of me. That I based off of myself.

I kinda miss when your dad was running late

And I'm an asshole, I already know

But way back then you were somewhere I could go

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I miss you; miss the way that things were

I miss your punches and I miss your ugly words

So I think that I'll build a time machine

And go back to when I thought you hated me

Now I have safety; I know that I'm secure

And we still talk, but it's not banter anymore

I'll start a petty fight, but you'll actually get mad

Instead of laughing and then calling me a huge pain in the ass

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I miss when I was a villain

I miss when I was the bad guy

I miss our unhealthy dynamic

I miss all the times I almost died

You said, “this is your new beginning

So make the most of what you have”

I guess I'll make the most of cigarettes

Cause all my shit got left behind

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I kinda liked it when you really made it hurt

Your narcissistic, egotistical "justice" was preserved

And I hated you, I plotted your demise

But I knew that you were perfect, and you'd fuck me every time

Now I have safety, from you and from myself

Just not freedom, or fun, or danger, or risk, or wealth

And I still fear you, but I want you to myself

I want to love you without letting go of what I really feel

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I miss when I could just lie to you

I miss when I thought it cancelled out

Now you're honest and you're gentle

And you're so perfect that I wanna kill myself

I miss then, when I could see your flaws

But now I understand your mind

I miss when I was the bad guy

Because now I have to try

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I miss that hopeless feeling

Back then my stomach would just sink

Back when my father hated me

His only son, this useless thing

I miss that hopeless feeling

I loved it when you made me weak

And I'd forget all about them

There was no life, just you and me

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You are compassion, you resonate

And your daddy loves you but I know it's not the same

I always wanted you to find what you're looking for

But before he came you were something I wasn't scared to adore

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I miss when I was the asshole

I miss when this whole city hated me

Back when I almost damn near killed myself

Trying to get what my father wanted for me

I miss when you were a place I'd go

A place I knew I could be seen

To tell the truth, I've always loved you