#beatingtheart

Kendra's point of view watching Donatello get arrested. Sort of.

My brother called me a furry today anyway here's another one!

Same as last time, I don't really like how it turned out BUT this one took even longer so I'm just throwing it out here anyway

It took me forever to figure out how to draw the smoke (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

Goes along with this

Hey, I'm Eddie! Any pronouns work for me and I don't mind answering questions. My posting schedule is shit so bear with me on the actual media. I will live forever through my art and I love to live.

Archive of Our Own

Neocities

Donate to Gaza

PARIS IS BURNING and other related pieces of queer black history (yes, I'm still adding media to this masterpost)

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Beauty in the Serpent's Eden (BITSE) - TMNT band au

THAT'S RIGHT! The au is finally official AND has an actual name!

The concept that started it all << less and less accurate with every new update (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

I can't guarantee how much the story-telling will stick to this original timeline but those ⬆ are the basics. I will NOT be posting updates in chronological order. It'll come to me when it comes to me.

''#tmnt band au'' is the main tag b/c that's what I used in the very beginning before I decided on a name

"#BITSE song" is the tag for song lyrics or anything related specifically to one or more songs

"#beatingtheart" is the new art tag 🖍️

This au isn't fanfic specific. I'll probably do a bunch of different stuff for it, that just happens to include fanfiction because it's easier for me. None of these sections are in a specific order, just what I like to lay out in my mind. Ask whatever you want but it might take me a while to see it!!

Sunita

Two Purple Idiots

Jailbreak - storyline - Ao3

Part 1 - fic

Part 2 - fic (end)

BITSE song response - Teenage Tightrope

Kendra's P.OV. 🖍️

Kendra's apartment layout 🖍️

DIGG

Totally not a Gaga reference - storyline

Road trip to Nassau

BITSE song - Cop Car

"I can't breathe" - George Floyd

If I were you, I'd kill myself. 📌

Mariah Davidson - news transcript

I CHANGED MY MIND! We're putting a pin in this one! 📌📌📌

The Doe and Fawn Incident

Do you know what your children look like? - news transcript

BITSE song response - Heaven

Run of The Mill Rooftop

It isn't easy being green - fic - Ao3

TED talk Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie - A Single Story

The Effects of Racism on Children - Documentary

Smoking together 🖍️

The Adventures of an Orange Turtle

An Orange Point of View - Ao3

Part 1 - fic

Part 2 - fic

Part 3 - fic

Part 4 - fic

Part 5 - fic (end)

BITSE song - Fuck the Police

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CooOOO-wooo-wooo-wooo - pathetic bird man 🪶

Yes, that's actually what I named the au. Subject to change. So far it's basically just concept stuff.

"#cooOOO-wooo-wooo-wooo" is the au tag

Background info

Edwin character breakdown

I kinda miss when your dad was running late

And I'm an asshole, I already know

But way back then you were somewhere I could go

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I miss you; miss the way that things were

I miss your punches and I miss your ugly words

So I think that I'll build a time machine

And go back to when I thought you hated me

Now I have safety; I know that I'm secure

And we still talk, but it's not banter anymore

I'll start a petty fight, but you'll actually get mad

Instead of laughing and then calling me a huge pain in the ass

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I miss when I was a villain

I miss when I was the bad guy

I miss our unhealthy dynamic

I miss all the times I almost died

You said, “this is your new beginning

So make the most of what you have”

I guess I'll make the most of cigarettes

Cause all my shit got left behind

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I kinda liked it when you really made it hurt

Your narcissistic, egotistical "justice" was preserved

And I hated you, I plotted your demise

But I knew that you were perfect, and you'd fuck me every time

Now I have safety, from you and from myself

Just not freedom, or fun, or danger, or risk, or wealth

And I still fear you, but I want you to myself

I want to love you without letting go of what I really feel

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I miss when I could just lie to you

I miss when I thought it cancelled out

Now you're honest and you're gentle

And you're so perfect that I wanna kill myself

I miss then, when I could see your flaws

But now I understand your mind

I miss when I was the bad guy

Because now I have to try

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I miss that hopeless feeling

Back then my stomach would just sink

Back when my father hated me

His only son, this useless thing

I miss that hopeless feeling

I loved it when you made me weak

And I'd forget all about them

There was no life, just you and me

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You are compassion, you resonate

And your daddy loves you but I know it's not the same

I always wanted you to find what you're looking for

But before he came you were something I wasn't scared to adore

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I miss when I was the asshole

I miss when this whole city hated me

Back when I almost damn near killed myself

Trying to get what my father wanted for me

I miss when you were a place I'd go

A place I knew I could be seen

To tell the truth, I've always loved you

Would you call your mom or knock at my door?

Is that selfish to ask? I really don't anymore.

I want your time. I want you saying “I

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“I want you to notice the things I never do

The things that I do for you

The things that I wish I could undo”

And if you wanna fight me, then let's go and kick around

Leave it all on the table, unsaid

But I don't really care long as you're around

Oh, this isn't good for me

But when have I been good for anything?

I guess I'm good at pissing you off

And I'm good at making you angry

And your mother's a darling

I don't know how she raised such a raging bitch

But I guess if you're good around kin

Then nobody else could be worth it

I wanna be your kin

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If I thought the worst of myself, would you disagree?

Would you throw it back in my face or pretend not to care?

Is that stupid to ask? I think I'm just delusional

I still want your time. I want your ugly mind

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I want you to notice all the things I used to do

The things I think are new

All of the things I try to undo

And if you say you hate me then I'd say I have to agree

Leave it all of the table, it's been said

But I don't care long as you're with me

And I probably sound stupid

But what the hell do I know anyway?

I guess how to get on your nerves

But I still know how to make you stay

So what about forever?

Is that going a bit too far?

I wouldn't marry you

But I can't be living where you aren't

I wanna be with you

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So if it was your last day on earth, who would you spend it with?

Am I even in the top ten? Or am I acting stupid?

Is that selfish to ask? I couldn't care less anymore

That's my baby bro