ok ramblers, let's get rambling.

The Vampire Lestat 3x02, Toledo

“When our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert — hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because it’s constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilya’s extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because it’s usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we “should” be in our heads, and when we don’t live up to that we assume it’s because we’re a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.” — Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.

ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY ONE FAVORITE MOMENT ↪ ilya working overtime to “shhh” high shane at the hospital so he doesn’t hard-launch their relationship (they succeed) 😂💕

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Connor Storrie as Ilya Rozanov Heated Rivalry, S01E01

# flirting 101 by ilya rozanov

Ilya's fluttery hands when he's overwhelmed by Shane (insp by @gloryhollanovjah)

apologies if anyone has already pointed this out but i just realized ilya chose to wear a turtleneck to his father's funeral therefore his mother's necklace is not visible......

but of course the moment when he's alone in moscow in ep 5 after his father has passed and he's speaking to shane, it's out. the details of this show will make me go insane

It fucking better.

Like are you FUCKING KIDDING ME???? Anyways I don’t care. Whatever Jacob Tierney I literally don’t care leave me alone…..