( characteristic, )

"Of  all  people...  it  had  to  be  you."

“I  like  you  the  way  you  are”

"We  were  never  supposed  to  end  up  here."

"This  shouldn’t  make  sense  but  it  does."

“I  fear  to  admit  that  I  have  thought  of  you  often.” 

"I  was  supposed  to  hate  you."

"You’re  everything  I  swore  I’d  never  want."

“This  was  never  part  of  the  plan.”

"You're  the  wrong  choice,  but  I  keep  choosing  you."

"How  did  you  end  up  under  my  skin?"

“You  were  supposed  to  be  the  enemy.”

"You  could  ruin  everything...  but  I  still  want  you."

"I  don’t  trust  you.  That’s  the  problem."

"We  shouldn’t  even  be  talking."

"You  and  me?  This  is  a  bad  idea."

“If  anyone  found  out...”

“This  is  reckless.  Say  we’re  not  doing  this.”

"You’re  supposed  to  be  off-limits."

"We  can’t  undo  what  just  happened."

"I  don’t  want  to  feel  this  with  you."

"Why  do  you  look  at  me  like  that?"

"You're  the  one  person  I  can’t  afford  to  want."

"I  tried  not  to  like  you,  you  know."

"Don’t  act  like  this  is  easy  for  me."

“I  shouldn't  be  here,  not  with  you.”

"We're  not  meant  to  last,  are  we?"

"Tell  me  you  regret  it.  Lie  to  me."

"What  happens  when  this  falls  apart?"

"I’m  not  supposed  to  feel  safe  with  you."

"You  crossed  every  line  I  drew...  and  I  let  you."

“We  couldn’t  be  more  different.”

“I  never  thought  I’d  crave  someone  like  you.”

"I  keep  finding  reasons  to  stay  away.  None  of  them  work."

“You  don’t  fit  in  my  world.”

“Everyone  warned  me  about  you.”

"I  don’t  know  how  to  do  this  with  you."

"You’re  the  risk  I  swore  I  wouldn’t  take  again."

"This  wasn’t  supposed  to  mean  anything."

𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐂𝐎𝐃𝐘 a study in biting the hand that feeds. toxic pack mentality. unending depths of self esteem issues. untreated mental illness. accidental trauma bonding. and the mommy issues to end all mommy issues. barely controlled by 𝙰𝙴𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁 they / them 30+ EST. medium to low activity. DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT.

IT'S ALL A BIT TRAGIC, ISN'T IT?

a ghost story. written & loved by Jack.

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“ I never asked you to save me - I asked you to stay. ”

“ You keep saying you’re fine, but I can still see the blood on your hands. ”

“ Don’t touch me. Everyone I love ends up broken. ”

“ I forgave you the first three times. There won’t be a fourth. ”

“ You weren’t there when I needed you most, so why are you here now? ”

“ I stopped counting the days since you left - turns out forever is shorter than I thought. ”

“ All those promises you made sound like lies when I say them out loud. ”

“ I kept your side of the bed empty for a year. It’s time to admit you’re not coming back. ”

“ You look at me like I’m a ghost, but you’re the one who killed us. ”

“ I would have burned the world down for you. You wouldn’t even cross the street. ”

“ Say it. Say you never loved me so I can finally stop hoping. ”

“ The worst part isn’t that you lied - it’s that I still believed you. ”

“ I practiced smiling in the mirror so you wouldn’t notice I’m falling apart. ”

“ You taught me how to trust again. Thanks for the lesson. ”

“ Every time you walk away, a piece of me goes with you. ”

“ I didn’t lose you. You threw me away the moment someone better came along. ”

“ Stop apologizing. The damage is already done. ”

“ I still reach for you in my sleep and wake up colder than before. ”

“ You said ‘forever’ like it was easy. ”

“ I keep replaying the last time you said my name, trying to hear love in it. ”

“ The silence after you left is louder than any fight we ever had. ”

“ I was ready to die for you. You weren’t even willing to live for me. ”

“ Tell me where it hurts, so I know where to stop touching. ”

“ You moved on so fast I didn’t even get the chance to miss you properly. ”

“ I built my whole world around you, and you just walked out the door without looking back. ”

“ The worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves to survive loving you. ”

“ I finally deleted your number. My phone still autocorrects ‘I’m sorry’ to your name. ”

“ You weren’t the villain - you were just cruel with good intentions. ”

“ I hate that I still check if you’re okay when I’m the one bleeding. ”

“ We didn’t break up. We slowly tore each other apart until there was nothing left to save. ”

“ You said you’d never make me cry. Look at me now. ”

“ I keep the voicemail you left the night everything fell apart. I’ve listened to it so many times I know your pauses by heart. ”

“ Loving you feels like drowning in slow motion while you stand on the shore. ”

“ I wasn’t enough to make you stay, but I was enough to make you feel guilty about leaving. ”

“ You came back like nothing happened, but I’m still picking up pieces you don’t even see. ”

“ I stopped leaving the porch light on. You never noticed anyway. ”

“ The saddest part is I still defend you when people ask why I’m not over it. ”

“ You didn’t just break my heart - you broke my ability to believe anyone else. ”

“ I finally understand why you always said ‘don’t get attached.’ You never planned on staying. ”

“ Every happy memory we had now feels like evidence in a crime scene. ”

“ I wish I could hate you. It would hurt less than this. ”

“ You keep asking what you can do to fix this. Start by going back in time. ”

“ I smiled in all the photos so no one would know you were destroying me behind them. ”

“ The hardest part of letting go is realizing you let go first. ”

“ I still flinch when someone says your name like it’s a curse. ”

“ You weren’t a chapter - you were the whole book, and now it’s on fire. ”

“ I didn’t lose feelings. They were murdered, slowly, every time you chose not to choose me. ”

“ I hope one day you look for me in a crowded room and feel what I feel every single day. ”

“ You walked away like it was easy, but I’m still here trying to remember how to breathe without you. ”

get on the stage.

i call her by her first name.

i tried to stay away.

but i always meet you back in this place.

you give me everything.

i feel no pain.

i break down, get up, and do it all again.

it's never enough.

you make me feel loved.

i can come here and scream as loud as i want.

here, i don't have to be quiet. i don't have to be kind.

look at me run myself ragged.

how can i leave you when you're screaming my name?

i will come for you in the evening.

i'll make you sing for me.

i can take up the whole of the sky.

aren't you so glad i came?

protect me from evil.

what has it done to me?

i crawled up from under the earth.

with each bedraggled breath, i knew i came back from the dead.

i'll show you how it's done.

i'll show you what it takes.

to conquer and to crucify, to become one of the greats.

i keep a scream inside of my chest.

i've killed everyone i ever kissed.

each name is a stain upon my lips.

that song is not about you.

got everything i thought i wanted.

did i get it right?

do i win the prize?

do you regret bringing me back to life?

i did my best.

my childhood dream made flesh.

it's so like a woman to profit from her madness.

why did you dig me up for this?

you'll say it's all pretend.

but i've really done it this time.

you could have me if you weren't so afraid of me.

it's funny how men don't find power very sexy.

do i drive you crazy?

i lied down with death.

show me the way this feeling leads.

can i keep all this beauty forever inside?

i tore off my nightgown and ran naked through the town.

i ran to the ancestral plane, but they all showed up drunk and insane.

which way should i go?

child, how would we know?

a stranger came to my door.

i have many, many miles yet to cross.

we've been waiting to meet you.

it's only a matter of time.

i can feel something deeper down.

after all, there's nobody more monstrous than me.

memory fails me.

am i so different?

i do not recognize my face.

i do not find worthiness a virtue.

i no longer try to be good.

it didn't keep me safe like you told me that it would.

come on, i can take it.

give me everything you got.

the seasons change, the world turns.

i'm trying to live, but i feel so damaged.

all shall be well.

miracles are often inconvienent.

a prayer is a spell.

i am changing and becoming something else.

i wanna call you on the telephone.

my resolve is sinking like a stone.

i guess it's just something that never goes away.

i'm stupid and i'm damaged, and you're a disaster.

when you walk into the room, none of it matters.

baby, i just buckle.

i know it won't work.

make it ache, make it hurt.

i'm still hanging off the buckle on your belt.

you closed the door and left me screaming on the floor.

i let you walk all over me, honey.

you make me think my therapy is a waste of money.

oh, god, i thought i was too old for this.

i should be over this.

i'm not better than this.

show me what i'm worth.

sometimes my body seems so alien to me.

i grow restless and hungry.

you're so good looking, it's obscene.

some things, it seems, are catching up with me.

my love, i have to tell you.

i kissed them all and let them drown.

creature from the deep, do i haunt you in your sleep?

you said i would be nothing, but look, i'm really something.

you've seen through the pain.

have you changed?

do i terrify?

it's the old religion humming in your veins.

you wonder why we're hungry for some kind of release.

i'm so tired of being careful.

give me something i can crush, something i can kill.

i'm afraid, don't let it find me.

but you can't outrun yourself, you see.

i'm powerless, don't remind me.

i went to find the hidden folk.

they gave me gowns and riches.

no, i did not sleep.

what i thought was a night was a thousand years.

it was made from me.

all the love that came my way, i found a way to push away.

i don't want to be afraid anymore.

i don't want to run from love like i have before.

you have a bigger ego than you think you do.

let it be us.

i know how to fall in love.

i thought i was kind.

i tried to do something that i thought was real life.

it's so much harder than it looks.

i just got bored.

let there be love, let there be light.

running back to the only love i could ever control.

call in a vision of my daughter.

i used to think i knew what sadness was.

i was wrong.

am i a woman now?

the air smells of fruit and smoke.

i try and control what i can.

you can have it all.

when the wind blows, you can hear it.

love was not what i thought it was.

it crept up on me despite myself.