DREAMERS DISEASE

Been tagged in the six selfie thing a lot. Here’s a few years of progress pics. 140lb - 193lb progression.

*brb going to go on a little rant*

As most of you know, at the beginning of this year I decided to talk a step back from fitness and the intensity that I was approaching it with to find a more balanced lifestyle. Why? Because every single day of my life was a mental battle. I HAD to avoid certain foods because they wouldn’t fit my macros, and I’d spend hours thinking about it. I HAD to get in my lifts and do cardio, 5-6x a week, which often meant skipping classes because I could not physically fit in everything with my schedule (yay for paying $40k a year to skip classes for a lift). I found myself having anxiety when hanging out with friends because things weren’t in my control.

A lot of you called me dedicated, determined, willing to give it my all, and at the time I thought that’s what it was, but being dedicated and being disordered look very similar when you’re balls deep in an obsession. Holla at having an extremely addictive personality.

My point is this: not everyone is like me and gets obsessed with things, but if you are, step back and really think it through. Are you putting your entire life on hold just for a physique? If so, why? It’s important to find BALANCE between being a freaking human being and doing fun human things and being an athlete. My goal has never been to be a professional athlete, so there’s no sense in putting your life on hold to go do some damn deadlifts.

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjlhEwIBNTQ)

I wasn’t wearing the right shoes and my feet were sliding when I was wearing just socks so I said yolo and took them off.

Only for squats and deadlifts because I’m trying to work on strength and I have more power barefoot.

Everything else I wear shoes.

*brb going to go on a little rant*

As most of you know, at the beginning of this year I decided to talk a step back from fitness and the intensity that I was approaching it with to find a more balanced lifestyle. Why? Because every single day of my life was a mental battle. I HAD to avoid certain foods because they wouldn’t fit my macros, and I’d spend hours thinking about it. I HAD to get in my lifts and do cardio, 5-6x a week, which often meant skipping classes because I could not physically fit in everything with my schedule (yay for paying $40k a year to skip classes for a lift). I found myself having anxiety when hanging out with friends because things weren’t in my control.

A lot of you called me dedicated, determined, willing to give it my all, and at the time I thought that’s what it was, but being dedicated and being disordered look very similar when you’re balls deep in an obsession. Holla at having an extremely addictive personality.

My point is this: not everyone is like me and gets obsessed with things, but if you are, step back and really think it through. Are you putting your entire life on hold just for a physique? If so, why? It’s important to find BALANCE between being a freaking human being and doing fun human things and being an athlete. My goal has never been to be a professional athlete, so there’s no sense in putting your life on hold to go do some damn deadlifts.

Is that a @bbbenwilliamson I see?

Just a WIP - more soon!

My birthday is Wednesday and all I want from my fellow Crushers is for you to get up and GO!

I don’t care HOW or WHAT you are doing but I want to see you making movement!

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