Honestly, suicide might be a little too appealing but I'm scared to leave everyone I love behind. I just can't kill myself if that implies hurting everyone, but it gets so hard to keep living like this. It gets harder trying to get better or, even trying to be positive about your life, everything here is about surviving, when will it be my turn for living?
I just wish I could be normal for once, not have those thoughts, not force myself to sleep because if I don't, I know I will do something to myself I will regret it if I live to experience it.
I'm such a selfish person, and even a worse person.













