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i forgot that you existed

“ you did me wrong. ” “ i couldn’t get away. ” “ something happened one magical night. ” “ i forgot that you existed. ” “ i thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t. ” “ it isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference. ”

cruel summer

“ i’m always waiting for you. ” “ devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes. ” “ what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more. ” “ it’s new, the shape of your body. ” “ it’s a cruel summer with you. ” “ we’ll just screw it up in these trying times. ” “ if i bleed, you’ll be the last to know. ” “ said i’m fine, but it wasn’t true. ” “ i don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you. ” “ i love you– ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard? ” “ i screamed, for whatever it’s worth. ”

lover

“ we could leave the christmas lights up till january. ” “ this is our place, we make the rules. ” “ there’s a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you. ” “ have i known you twenty seconds, or twenty years? ” “ can i go where you go? ” “ can we always be this close? ” “ i’m highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you. ” “ i’ve love you three summers now, honey, but i want ‘em all. ” “ i take this magnetic force of a man/women/etc. ” “ my heart’s been borrowed, and yours had been blue. ” “ all’s well that ends well to end up with you. ” “ save all your dirtiest jokes for me. ” “ at every table, i’ll save you a seat. ” “ darling you’re my lover. ”

the man

“ i played the field before i found someone to commit to. ” “ i’m so sick of running as fast as i can. ” “ wondering i’d get there quicker is i was a man. ” “ i’m so sick of them coming at me. ” “ coz if i was a man, then i’d be the man. ” “ they’d say i hustled, put in the work. ” “ they wouldn’t shake their heads and questions how much of this i deserve. ” “ it’s okay that i’m mad. ”

the archer

“ i’m ready for combat. ” “ i don’t want that. ” “ cruelty wins in the movies. ” “ i’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches i almost said to you. ” “ easy they come, easy they go. ” “ i never grew up. ” “ help me hold on to you. ” “ i’ve been the archer, i’ve been the prey. ” “ who could ever leave me, darling? ” “ but who could stay? ” “ who could ever leave me, darling, but who could stay? ” “ i search for your dark side. ” “ what if i’m all right, right here? ” “ i hate my reflection for years and years. ” “ i pace like a ghost. ” “ all of my heroes die all alone. ” “ i see right through me. ” “ can you see right through me? ” “ all the king’s horses, all the king’s men couldn’t put me together again. ” “ all of my enemies started out friends. ”

i think he knows

“ his/her/their hands already a cold glass make me wanna know that body like it’s mine. ” “ got that boyish look i like in a man. ” “ i’m an architect, i’m drawing up the plans. ” “ nobody understands. ” “ he/she/they got my heartbeat skipping down 16th avenue. ” “ wanna see what’s under that attitude. ” “ i want you. ” “ i think he knows. ” “ i’ll make myself at home and he’ll/she’ll/they’ll/you’ll want me to stay. ” “ hand on my thigh, we can follow the sparks. ”

miss americana & the heartbreak prince

“ you know i adore you. ” “ i’m crazier for you than i was at 16. ” “ now i’m feeling hopeless. ” “ i counted the days, i counted the miles. ” “ it’s been a long time coming. ” “ it’s you and me, that’s my whole world. ” “ you play stupid games, you win stupid prizes. ” “ voted most likely to run away with you. ” “ i see the high fives between the bad guys. ” “ you are the only one who seems to care. ” “ i’m feeling helpless, the damsels are depressed. ” “ darling, i’m scared. ” “ no cameras catch my muffled cries. ” “ i counted the miles to see you there. ”

#MEME.

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@has-opinions (mabel) telegramed: [ COOL ] for the sender to place a cold cloth on the receiver’s forehead!

it had only been a matter of time, charles suspects, as he felt terrible after lunch yesterday afternoon. he excuses himself and went back to his flat. . . and when he woke on the sofa instead of his bed, he realizes that the spanish flu had finally come for him. it does not feel so terrible that he cannot walk; no, he does not need to fill hospital room. he dresses down into his robe and wets a towel, placing it on his forehead. he finds himself back down on the sofa; the bedroom seems so far away. . .

he wakes again when he hears the phone ringing. charles feels flushed, like his lungs are on fire. he coughs a few times, covering his mouth with a fist as he rises. he grips the sofa for a moment, realizing that maybe, maybe, he should not be alone. he can see the papers now: young government agent with promising career ahead of him also succumbs to the spanish flu. it wouldn’t be a headline, no. . . a small blurb at best. maybe bigger considering his position, but -- -- wow, the phone is so loud, RINGING incessantly. charles finally makes his way to it, grabbing the receiver. “hello?” he answers, and it sounds like something is constricting his throat. charles half-expects evelyn on the other side of the line, considering they had only just been together. . . “charles?” his brows furrow when he hears MABEL’S voice.

he and mabel are good friends, having met as truly young adults just before the war. he wrote letters to her along with tony when the two were in the navy. oh, miss mabel lane fox was such a firecracker, and he loved her. they were great friends. but he’d noticed how tony seemed to be attached to her, so he kept his distance enough. he finds that he is good at charming, but romancing is not exactly his strong suit. he is too blunt for his own good sometimes. “charles, you sound horrid.” she says in the receiver, and he barks a laugh that turns into a cough. “you -- as always -- have excellent bedside manner, mabel.” he responds, resting his head against the wall beside his phone table. charles closes his eyes. “i am fine. no need to worry.”

“i wasn’t,” she responds quickly, but she adds: “i ran into evelyn as he was headed back to the office, and he’d mentioned you went home. i was just. . . curious to your state.”

“curious to my state.” charles ask, smirking to himself, even as he closes his eyes. his head is pounding. “that sounds like worry.”

“well, you know tony is back in kent, tending to his mother. she sounds like she’s been hit with the worst of it, and i only. . .” she sounds frustrated somewhat. “are you alone?”

“i’m FINE, mabel.” charles insists, though as he takes the towel off his head, it is warm. he doesn’t realize how heavy he’s breathing into the phone. “i just need to sleep it off, and i’ll be fine in the morning.”

“i’m not leaving you alone.” and then she hangs up.

charles sighs loudly and hangs up his own phone. . . and he finds himself sinking to the floor. he rubs his hands over his sweaty face. he feels like all the water has drained out of his body. perhaps he should get a glass of water. a dizziness consumes him as he tries to stand, so he just makes his way to the kitchen on his fours. he is determined to be fine by himself. he pulls himself up to get a glass of water and rests there against the counter, pressing the cool glass to his head. he is just as stubborn as mabel. he remains there, just slowly drinking water, trying to keep himself upright. . . but as time passes, the worse he feels.

there is a buzz at his door, and he momentarily panics because he does not know if he can make it to the door. charles places the glass down and urges his body to move forward, even as the aching sets in his bones. one foot forward, charles. how could this be any worse than the war? it couldn’t. he tries to catch his breath as he stands in the foyer. finally, he gets the door open, and he can tell by the look on mabel’s face that he is not fine.

charles doesn’t really remember how he got into bed, but now he is wheezing as his chest tightens. he opens his glassy eyes, looking up at her in a feverish daze as he feels the COLD COMPRESS press against his head. “you -- shouldn’t be -- so close,” he gasps out. he won’t forgive himself if he gives this dreadful thing to her. “mabel. . . i. . .” and then he mouths something, but the words don’t come out. he’s frustrated, squeezing his eyes shut, before he opens them again, trying to stay alert.

#long post cw #sickness cw #spanish flu cw #MAYBE WE COULD.#hasopinions #has-opinions

stlowens

“For I must get back my soul from you; I am killing my flesh without it.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

#me rubbing my hands down my face #how does mary do this to every man she meets #MARY.#MUSINGS.#goODBYE YOUR HONOR #this is charles' swan song before he leaves for poland

has-opinions:

“Quite right.” She settled in her seat a bit more at Charles’ reassurance, though her eyes still held their sharpness as she lowered her glass onto the table. Mabel never did shy away from making a scene with her entries and exits, but even she had her limits. And right now, she very much wanted not to be the center of this party. In fact, for the first time, she wouldn’t have minded being altogether invisible. For her defenses were higher than the Tower of London at present, guarding a heart that had been burned. And whether it be Charles, or the wine, she had found a small place at the edge of a steep drop for her to stick out her toe and hold on. “Rebellious,” she scoffed. “A rebellious fool. How Tony could go from head over heels in love to a cold, unfeeling bastard is utter madness.” Realising the clip in her voice, she picked up her glass again, indulging in another sip. “Where would I be without your plans, Charles?” she then added, a bit more cooly, lest her only friend start to think her mad. “And just what good things shall you tell him, pray?”

charles watches her carefully, lips pursing together with concern. he could smack tony. mary crawley comes into his life as a widow, and he loses all sense of reason. he won’t deny there is something about mary that is appealing, but the daughter of the earl could hardly hold a candle to mabel. besides, they might not even keep downton. alas, charles turns his thoughts back to mabel, taking note of her hands. “absolute madness,” he agrees. “though, i don’t believe he’s thinking with his mind.” he comments, and he takes a big swig of his whiskey, looking away from her. charles clears his throat. he grins, just a bit, eye catching hers as they meet gazes once more. “well,” and he places his hand on the chair she sits, turning toward her. “i’ll remind him all of those times you and he snuck off to the side of a dance floor. . . i’ll remind him just how lovely your eyes are. . . how you always shine with radiance. . . how your mind is the sharpest in all of london. shall i continue? anything to add?”

#hasopinions #has-opinions #you're honor they're cute #MAIN.

britishdetectives

“And once again you’re stuck with a body in the library.”

“It was in the museum.”

Foyle’s War: All Clear (2008)

#Charles misses his father #PICTURES.

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stlowens

Sylvia Plath, from “Poppies in July.”

#UGHHHH #MUSINGS.#MARY.

taggedmemes

ACTIONS MEME ⟶ PLATONIC & ROMANTIC TOUCHES! PART ONE always feel free to tweak to fit your muse, or put them the other way around!

[ ELBOW ] for the sender to elbow the receiver in the ribs!

[ STAMP ] for the sender to stamp on the receiver’s foot!

[ SHAKE ] for the sender to shake the receiver awake!

[ BITE ] for the sender to bite the receiver for whatever reason!

[ CHANGE ] for the sender to help the receiver on/off with an item of clothing!

[ WARM ] for the sender to cover the receiver with a blanket!

[ HELP ] for the sender to help the receiver clasp/buckle a necklace/watch!

[ WIPE ] for the sender to help the receiver clean themselves up after an injury!

[ COOL ] for the sender to place a cold cloth on the receiver’s forehead!

[ STEADY ] for the sender to help the receiver stay upright!

[ KISS ] for the sender to kiss the receiver on the back of the neck!

[ SNIP ] for the sender to cut the receiver’s hair!

[ WASH ] for the sender to help wash the receiver’s hair!

[ PRESS ] for the sender to massage an area that hurts on the receiver!

[ REST ] for the sender to rest their head on the receiver’s chest!

[ SWIPE ] for the sender to (subtly or obviously) take something from the receiver!

[ CALM ] for the sender to lay a reassuring hand on the sender’s arm/knee/back!

[ POKE ] for the sender to prod the receiver while making a point!

[ LEAN ] for the sender to lean heavily against the receiver!

[ LIFT ] for the sender to lift the receiver up!

[ FEED ] for the sender to put a snack into the receiver’s mouth while their hands are busy!

[ CLIP ] for the sender to smack the receiver (gently) upside the head!

[ DROP ] for the sender to drop/fail to lift the receiver!

[ MOVE ] for the sender to reposition the receiver when they’re too drunk/tired/injured to do it alone!

[ PAINT ] for the sender to paint the receiver’s nails!

[ STAB ] for the sender to help the receiver with an injection/stitches/similar!

[ DRAG ] for the sender to drag the receiver somewhere by the hand!

[ STRETCH ] for the sender to help the receiver stretch after a long day!

[ STEP ] for the sender to give the receiver a hand out of a car/train or similar!

[ GUIDE ] for the sender to guide the receiver’s hand while showing them how to do something!

[ TAPE ] for the sender to help the receiver measure themselves for a ring/suit/helmet or similar!

[ GRAB ] for the sender to stop the receiver from falling!

[ TRACE ] for the sender to admire one of the receiver’s tattoo’s!

[ TOUCH ] for the sender to incidentally touch a scarred part of the receiver!

[ STOP ] for the sender to stop just short of actually touching the receiver!

#MEME.

blackcatrph

** sour sentence starters.

brutal.

“ i think that i’ll die before i drink. ”

“ i’m so caught up in the news of who likes me and who hates you. ”

“ i’m so tired that I might quit my job, start a new life. ”

“ they’d all be so disappointed because who am I if not exploited? ”

“ where’s my fuckin’ teenage dream? ”

“ if someone tells me one more time “enjoy your youth,” I’m gonna cry. ”

“ i’m anxious and nothing can help. ”

“ i wish I’d done this before. ”

“ i wish people liked me more. ”

“ all I did was try my best. ”

“ this the kind of thanks I get? ”

“ they say these are the golden years. ”

“ i wish I could disappear. ”

“ god, it’s brutal out here. ”

“ i feel like no one wants me. ”

“ i only have two real friends. ”

“ lately I’m a nervous wreck. ”

“ i love people I don’t like. ”

“ i hate every song I write. ”

“ i’m not cool, and I’m not smart. ”

“ i can’t even parallel park. ”

“ got a broken ego, broken heart. ”

“ i don’t even know where to start. ”

traitor.

“ brown guilty eyes and little white lies. ”

“ i played dumb but I always knew. ”

“ i kept quiet so I could keep you. ”

“ ain’t it funny how you ran to her the second that we called it quits? ”

“ ain’t it funny how you said you were friends? ”

“ it sure as hell don’t look like it. ”

“ you betrayed me. ”

“ i know that you’ll never feel sorry for the way I hurt. ”

“ loved you at your worst but that didn’t matter. ”

“ guess you didn’t cheat, but you’re still a traitor. ”

“ there’s no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly. ”

“ ain’t it funny, all the twisted games, all the questions you used to avoid? ”

“ remember I brought her up and you told me I was paranoid? ”

“ i wish that you had thought this through before I went and fell in love with you. ”

“ you gave me your word but that didn’t matter. ”

drivers license.

“ i got my driver’s license last week. ”

“ just like we always talked about. ”

“ today I drove through the suburbs crying ‘cause you weren’t around. ”

“ you’re probably with that blonde girl. ”

“ she’s so much older than me. ”

“ she’s everything I’m insecure about. ”

“ how could I ever love someone else? “

“ i know we weren’t perfect but I’ve never felt this way for no one. ”

“ i just can’t imagine how you could be so okay now that I’m gone. ”

“ guess you didn’t mean what you wrote in that song about me. ”

“ all my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you. ”

“ I kinda feel sorry for them because they’ll never know you the way that I do. ”

“ i still see your face in the white cars, front yards. ”

“ can’t drive past the places we used to go to because I still fuckin’ love you. ”

Keep reading

#MEME.

weirdlypersonalrpmemes

sentence starters: lyrics that make my inner romantic go brrrr. tw: drowning, religious references

❝ every thought i have turns the language blue. ❞

❝ in just one dance, i’ll make your dreams come true. ❞

❝ i’d have you, you’d have me. ❞

❝ all my stumbling phrases never amounted to anything worth this feeling. ❞

❝ if we hold onto each other, we’ll be better than before. ❞

❝ i never leave it unsaid. why can’t i leave it unsaid? ❞

❝ honey, come put your lips on mine and shut me up. ❞

❝ oh my love, please tell me were you real or just a dream? ❞

❝ if you stay, we can stand at the edge of forever. ❞

❝ tell me what’s broken and i’ll try to fix it. ❞

❝ this isn’t the ending that you deserve. ❞

❝ run away with me. ❞

❝ if i start to look like i’m sweating, well… it’s ‘cause i am. ❞

❝ let me be the place where you hide. ❞

❝ i should be over all the butterflies, but i’m into you. ❞

❝ in your eyes, i see the dawn of brighter days again. ❞

❝ i like you, and i hope you like me too. ❞

❝ please don’t be in love with someone else. ❞

❝ everything i need is right here by my side. ❞

❝ i’m indecisive, but this time i know for sure. ❞

❝ i miss you more than anything. ❞

❝ i’m pretty sure this isn’t how our story ends. ❞

❝ i can’t not be with you or be just your friend. ❞

❝ and in the end, i’ll be with you. ❞

❝ now just please, love, let me take it on my shoulders. ❞

❝ i love you, and that’s all i know. ❞

❝ you’re the love of my life, you know that i’ll never leave your side. ❞

❝ i don’t know why i tremble when you reach for my hand. ❞

❝ please don’t stand so close to me, i’m having trouble breathing. ❞

❝ you put your arms around me and i’m home. ❞

❝ you burn my ears with your magic voice. ❞

❝ did i make your voice shake? ❞

❝ i think we’ve loved a thousand lives, i try to find you every time. ❞

❝ i could drown myself in someone like you. ❞

❝ this is how it feels to fall in love. ❞

❝ was it me you wanted when you said you wanted something more than what you knew? ❞

❝ all my life’s been a whisper without you. ❞

❝ i’ve been alone in a million places and i’ve seen god in some dirty faces, and all that i could think about was you. ❞

❝ oh, what if you are the only one for me? ❞

❝ but what if this time means something more? ❞

#MEME.

lizziecrawleyuk

Charles and Rose’s faces in all this scene are so much fun :))

#that second one omfg #they can and will judge you #charles would have fit so well into the family #PICTURES.#ROSE.

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amourmemes

❥ glass animals , an aesthetic meme .

either answer as dialogue spoken, or as an aesthetic to prose off the imagery of.

eyes killer cold and black and bare. i wanna go back, i wanna go back. i wanna take to my guns and break you. i’m so so cold in the marrow of my bones. i was in full bloom until i met you. dance with me and shake your bones. paperback dreams in my deep doze. take your throne, pump your veins with gushing gold. shake my little soul for you now. i’m a fool of many tricks and tools and joy, with a battery of guilt on which to poise. mind my wicked words and tipsy topsy slurs. i can’t take this place, i just wanna go where i can get some space. i take your gloom, i curl it up and puff it into plumes. how can i believe you, how can i be nice, tripping around the tree stumps in your summer smile? face so lost, petrified, timid twitch in your wide eyes. you’re so juiced, you said you’d kick the booze. don’t you cry, don’t you drain those big blue eyes. i fake my breaking smile. i’m a twisted fool, my hands are twisted too. don’t spin me a lie, i’m crooked but upright. all i ever want, is just a little love. all i ever want, is breaking me apart. makes my nerves clench close and my bones go cold when i see that room. your smile so super quiet. you won’t make it back this time. you know, you know the way that i hide. why don’t you dance like you’re sick in your mind? you know the way that i hide for you. can’t you feel your dirty face? don’t it leave that filthy taste? you can’t breathe without me.

daddy was dumb, said that i’d be something special. brought up tough but i was a gentle human. said that he loved each of my two million freckles. i sit in the car and i listen to static. you were clearly meant for more than a life lost in the war. i know you’ll feel the ghost of the memory so warm. my body’s in tatters, in an ordinary fashion. maybe, i wish i could remold you to vertical and golden. it hurts to say it’s hopeless and we ain’t gonna make it. sometimes it makes me laugh, sometimes it makes me sad. why can’t we laugh now like we did then? how come i see you and ache instead? how come you only look pleased in bed? i want you for the world, i want you all the time. i won’t forget how you looked at me then. why don’t i say it then? i want you all the time. my heart strings broke and it was me, i pull they stretch infinitely. in the summer silence i was getting violent. i’ll be dreaming in my paper pale skin. burn through my love just like your drugs. everything you didn’t know you were looking for. i wish you could see the wicked truth, caught up in a rush it’s killing you. i settle for a ghost i never knew. i miss him, don’t you blame me. i feel so fucking numb. gonna fuck my way through college. i’m gonna sleep ‘cos you live in my daydreams. i am a true romantic, free falling love addict. pulled me through the door and stuck her teeth in deep. all your days are gone, sitting on the floor in your underwear, begging me for more. why don’t you light that cigarette and calm down, now stop and breathe a second. go back to the very beginning. can’t you see what was different then? your head is so numb. that nervous breath you try to hide, between the motions that trembling tender little sigh. i want to hold you like you’re mine. you’re gone but you’re on my mind. i’m lost but i don’t know why.

#MEME.

@has-opinions

His response was genuine--- that much she knew. But it did not stop her from turning sharply, tightly wound curls framing a gaze as deadly as a knife. A striking woman, she was, both in beauty and in temperament. "If he expects me to wallow, then he shall go through life dreadfully disappointed." The words slipped from the greatest heiress of the season in a matter-of-fact coolness that could easily conceal layers of resentment from the unknowing eye. "And I shall not be pitied by you either, Charles." A gloved hand cradled the sparkling glass with care as she took a sip. Only as she withdrew the glass from her lips did Mabel return her gaze to him. "Though it seems my words mean little." She had known his looks just about as well as he did hers. "What plan are you concocting?"

“pity is not the word i would use,” charles comments; he’s known mabel for years, he knows how to deal with her. and pitying her would be a grave offense. no, he still feels horrid about it. leave it to tony to get cold feet the moment another pretty face comes into his life. he and mabel were suited for each other. he leans into his chair a bit, looking at his glass, gazing to the rest of the people roaming the party. london is a different behemoth than the countryside, there are always things to do, people to see. even if and when he gets his title, he will most likely spend his time here. “i am sorry for it, though. it is a pity dear old tony must be so undecided. perhaps the war has made him. . .” he trails off, tasting his whiskey, eyes wandering back to his drinking companion. “rebellious. i’ll have a good chat with him. see where his head’s gone. and remind him of the good things he has.”

#MAIN.#has-opinions #hasopinions #MABEL CHARLES FRIENDSHIP SUPREMACY

mrcharlesblake

#THE PIGS!!!#gallant hero #PICTURES.

foooolintherain

#god i love them your honor #MARY.#PICTURES.

4thesubtext

#i just think they’re neat your honor #MARY.#FACE.

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