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I would love to, but the moment I do anything all I can think about is how much of an untalented useless pointless fucking chud waste of space I am. I become overwhelmed with people's opinions of me and what they could possibly be thinking about me and it's too much. I can't stand being around so many people all I can think about is how they judge me and pick me apart and sneer at me and how stupid I am and how dumb everything I do is and how I should just show them mercy from having to look at me and kill myself. My siblings are so talented and have such clear wants and purposes in life and I'm just some fucking screw up in art school who isn't good at anything. I have passions and things I like to do but I'm barely good at those things. I just wish I could disappear and be a ghost. Everything would be so much less painful

This is why I hate summer break; if I'm far away from my friends for too long without being affirmed that they still actually like me then the thoughts™️ will get to me