op loves to eat pussy

realised i have not posted anything here in months.... oh the developments and updates i have

feel like i need to dump the 30+ posts i have about him from my drafts into a post under a read more, get some perspective and insight, and then DELETE that bitch

about to drop the most tragic group of pictures ever on yall but its taking me a while to build up to it

straight guy work bestie is back from his holiday so now its time to update him on every piece of gay drama ive had in my life in the past two and a half weeks

posting this so i can look back in a few weeks and reevaluate the situation but. either there has been a massive shift inside me, or im manic. cannot make a realistic assessment yet but im sure my future self will be able to reflect and conclude accordingly.

i hate sitting at home alone because it takes maybe four hours before im spiralling because my brain just BOMBARDS me with the worst thoughts and feelings ever

in other life news im starting a new job in like two weeks! getting that sweet swedish salary

i hate being aware of my issues and i think it makes them worse actually. at least when the thoughts i had about being unloveable were subconscious i was still getting some. now i am painfully aware of why i feel unloveable and have to sit with that knowledge while my hymen grows back. tragique.

god i wish i wasnt so fucking suicidal right now because i know im not going to do anything about it but with that comes knowing that im just going to feel like this until i dont anymore. wanting to kill yourself and knowing you wont HORRIBLE combination would not wish it on anybody