Bambi Killer Chronicle

I can't stop watching Season 1 of Reaper. I don't know why it's got me. Season 2? Ehhh. But season 1 - non stop. All day.

Me during an interview last weekend:

"the beginning of the year was pretty slow plus I canceled bookings cause I was recovering from surgery, but I came back stronger and.....you know what, that's a lie. I actually came back with weight on me and feeling slower, plus I got a gnarly infection from surgery. Everyone always says they come back stronger, I didn't."

It took me a few months to recover from first surgery then getting rear ended by a semi. Things got rough physically and mentally and the raging infection from surgery, then whiplash from the accident all within 2 months. I was a mess inside but I kept grabbing the pieces and pulling them back into me to hold it together.

Soon I'll write all this out. It's a shit tale of making it through. Thinking about it now is bringing me to tears but I feel like coming out about these maladies is the cathartic exercise I need.

In the past month and a half I have:

- gotten evacuated from the Thomas Fire

- had a friend of over 10 years who I completely trusted try to date rape me

- got diagnosed with a low grade cancerous tumor

- had surgery to remove said tumor

- had a promoter try to "casting couch" book me

- got rear ended by a semi

Scored a spot as lead female for a music video. Band?....idk. Some band from Australia. Yes, gonna be wrestling. Also, need to figure a way to unmask in an empowering feministic way. Not sure I can do that which if we cant, then it's fine. The casting director already pretty much told them no since that's a sign of shame traditionally. But if we can think of something...