I don't have the strength to fight depression.
I just had a fight with my own mother. She was and remains a terrible person. And the worst thing is that I still love her, and I had to end this relationship before I gave in again and succumbed to her manipulations.
I ended this relationship roughly and abruptly, as if I had broken a rope. And the stupidest thing is, I'm ashamed of it. I know that I did the right thing, I know that I will always be an unworthy daughter to her, but the abuse that went on for years does not make me feel that this decision was the right one.
I'm in a lot of pain, I'm at the very bottom and I don't see a way out.













