Wow wow wow...I have so much to say but I'll sum it up to the best way I can.

I've made so many mistakes in this fandom I can't even count. One being that my personal life was no longer my own. How I gave so much of myself and personal business away on Wattpad/IG it was like giving ammunition to my shooters.

But I'm not here to list those mistakes. I'm here for REDEMPTION.

I let this fandom turn me into something I was not. I was never about war, I was never about drama, I just wanted to protect those who were wronged but by being someone's hero, I became a target. So my ass got ghost...I am simply a woman finding a passion in what I enjoyed doing and that's music and writing. Although I am still active as hell, I had rebuild and rebrand myself mentally in order to prevail. I no longer care what others do or say because the most important person I have to look after...is me.

The biggest accomplish was seeing my boys perform before my very eyes. That's how I knew everything was gonna be alright....

But in order to continue this journey, I had to learn how to forgive, yeeeahhh I'm still struggling with that one.

Listen I'ma Aquarius so I can be pretty stubborn most times but I can say for sure you CANNOT protect everybody and you have to let them fight their own battles. I've played the BIG SISTER role for so long and a bitch retired.

It's been years...people have moved on and gone about their daily lives. Some people stayed some others grew out of it. I'ma writer on a journey to becoming an author that's what I'm on and I've learned that silence the best teacher.