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Im feelin grief, for everything that he s had to go through. I feel like a child cuz i cant word this in a way that doesnt boil down to "its unfair"

I was stationed around 48/49kg which was acceptable but i finally breached the 50s which means i gotta get back to work

I woke up from hunger. Im out of practice

Havin to watch all your loved ones go through hell over and over and over and unable to do shit about it is kinda startin to get to me not gonna lie

Lol

Its not that im 2 different people, its that i have 2 very distinct ways i feel and act, enough to make me feel the difference

I have razor blades but not a razor so for the first time ever i used these blades as intended 💯

How Would i react if my mom died. I seem to be anxious about it, about her health and everythin. But idk. I feel like i should be more distressed at the possibility. Maybe i just dont feel it bcs it seems not probable. Idk.

This has been my bimonthly post spam see you in 3 weeks

Btw at this rate my moms gonna fuck up her health enough that she ll die way sooner so idk maybe suicide is back on the table 👀

Btw at this rate my moms gonna fuck up her health enough that she ll die way sooner so idk maybe suicide is back on the table 👀