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Your eyes are puffy and bloodshot. Tears are running down your cheeks and your makeup is a mess. Your hair is tangled and a complete mess as well. The bedding is soaked in our sweat and your fluids from squirting.

You look at me through half closed eyes and sniffle softly. You can’t speak still, the intense scene frying your brain. There’s no way you can even move right now, but that’s ok. I broke you. I’ll put you back together.

Coming to your side, I lean down and wipe your face off carefully then kiss your puffy lips gently. You barely have the energy or presence of mind to react and I don’t mind. I take some time to carefully wipe your body down. Going back to the bathroom to rinse the rag and re-heat it.

Then I gently pick you up and carry you to the bathtub. Slowly, I kneel down and set you in the tub. The hot water burns you a bit, but you love it. Letting out a soft groan you sink into the hot water and close your eyes.

I tilt your head back and scoop some water and slowly pour it over your head so it runs down your hair. I do this three more times before I am satisfied that your hair is rinsed enough.

Going to your sink, I get the makeup wipes you have and carefully clean off your makeup. Gently wiping your face like a detailer fine touching his work. I probably use more than I needed to, but I’ll buy you more.

Grabbing the shampoo, I pour some into my hands and lather it up before washing your hair. I take my time and go slow so I don’t pull on any tangles or knot it even worse. I also spend some time massaging your scalp, my thick fingers pressing into your skull and working in gentle circles.

The whole time you just lay there. Limp and exhausted. That is fine. My girl was used hard and needs to rest. My girl earned this time, this devotion. I’ll happily spend a few hours to worshipping her for what she did for me.

I rinse your hair off again several times then get your conditioner and repeat the process. Scrubbing your hair, massaging your scalp. Working the chemicals into your hair and feeling it soften and untangle gently. I let the conditioner sit awhile before rinsing it out as well.

Then I move to your body. With your loofa, I soak it in body wash and carefully rubbing you from behind your ears, all the way down to your toes. I get every inch of your body and even in places that would normally make you feel self conscious, but you are to worn out to be bothered by that at the moment.

It takes a long time to do and I have to stop to stretch my back several times, but I never complain. My back aches are nothing compared to what I did to you. You took it all for me, so I will take it for you. As I scrub you, I work your joints gently to make sure nothing is hurt or too sore. Your right shoulder makes you wince in pain and I note to massage it and ice it after your bath.

Once your body is done, I work on your face. Washing it gently and slowly so I don’t get anything in your eyes. I rinse that off and apply that cream you like that you say rejuvenates your skin. I don’t think you need it, but what I think and feel doesn’t matter much at the moment. Right now it’s about you baby girl.

“It’ll be cold for a moment.” I warn as I unplug the dirty water and let it drain out.

Then I plug the tub and draw you another bath with fresh hot water. Normally we would shower together after a scene, but last night wasn’t just any scene. You need all the rest you can get. I could spend hours praising you for what you did for me, but right now you just need to rest.

“I’ll be back.” I say once the bath is full and I go to the bedroom.

Stripping the bed, I lay out some towels on the wet spots that soaked through and try to absorb what I can. Then I put fresh sheets and two clean towels in the dryer and bring you some ice cold water. Kneeling next to the edge of the tub, I hold the straw to your soft lips and let you sip the water. Then I wash the cream off your face before going and getting you some candy.

Then I make the bed and lay out a massage mat on the bed. Coming back to you with the warmed up towels, it’s time to get you up and moving. You need to move and stretch out a bit now or you will really be sore tomorrow no matter what I do tonight.

Helping you up, I unplug the tub and step you onto the floor mat and start drying you off. Then I wrap one large towel around you before having you sit on a chair in the bathroom. I keep the chair in there just for this and after you sit, I get the brush and start brushing your hair.

With the conditioner, your hair isn’t too tangled despite how much I grabbed and pulled it. The teeth go through your hair smoothly and once that is done, I use another brush with finer teeth and brush it again. After wards you wrap your hair in the second towel, I still haven’t gotten that part down right, and I make you drink more water and eat more candy.

Helping you to bed, I lay you on the massage mat. It is cold at first, but your body warms it up quickly. With your lotion, I begin to rub you down from head to toe. Massaging your body as best I can. Working at the knots until they loosen. Working on your right shoulder carefully and slowly before getting an ice pack to help it keep from swelling. I pulled and twisted that arm too roughly and hate myself for not showing better restraint. I’ll make it up to you baby girl.

For the next hour or so, I massage you completely. Having you lay on your stomach so I can work your back side, with some extra attention to your ass that is bruising beautifully already. Then having you roll over so I can do your front side. I apply extra ointment to the spots I bit that left marks in case the skin broke a bit. It’ll help you heal.

Once you are completely massaged, I help you up and wrap a robe around you then take you back to the bathroom so we can dry your hair. I brush it again as I blow dry it, then brush it again when I’m done. I just love brushing your hair so much.

Helping you back to bed, I tuck you in then turn on some music so I can get cleaned up. My routine is much faster and once I am clean and dry, I climb into bed with you. I hold you gently as if you are so delicate my clumsy touch will shatter you.

We cuddle together and now I whisper to you. I tell you how proud I am. I tell you how amazing you are. I tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I tell you that I would be broken without you. Just a lost angry kid. That I am nothing without you.

I kiss you softly over and over again. With all that nastiness finally gone, love and affection is all I have and I give it all to you. My perfect girl. I don’t know why I have to do those things to you, but I do and you take it for me. Every hit. Every bit. Every curse and slap. You take all of it for me like you are my own personal savior. You are the most incredible thing I have ever seen. The most amazing woman I have ever met. I can’t live without you and you will always be mine. You wont ever leave my side. You wont ever be with anyone else. It is only me and only you. Just us until the end.

My baby girl.