˙ ˖ ♡ // 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘦

"ara, don't you think we should turn back?" bada asks, hesitantly walking alongside the other. after introductions and instructions to walk down this strip of road for half a block, their tour guide went eerily quiet - quiet enough to put the model at ease. she's unsure if the chills she feels are from the autumn breeze or because of the spirits and ghosts lurking around.

"i heard the cafe down the street right there has a lot of good specials right now. i could go for a hot latte, couldn't you? they have pumpkin spice! i really like that flavor during the fall. something about apples too. i think i saw it on their chalkboard outside when we passed them," bada laughs awkwardly, realizing that she's rambling.

bada has always gone home for the holidays, even though the atmosphere can get a bit tense sometimes.

while her parents mean well, the topic of how their children are doing always come up. inevitably, bada winds up being compared to her brother, noeul, who has found relative success in his career path.

he was a student at a prestigious university while bada didn't even attempt to go to college. he followed in their parents' footsteps while bada was faced with adversity.

he's made them proud and she hasn't.

these thoughts flitter in and out of her mind at the dinner table, and she wonders how the elders sat in front of her really feel about her.

if they were content with the life she’s made, wouldn’t they stop nagging her?

truthfully, not even bada herself is content with it.

although her relationship with her parents is a bit awkward, bada holds a close one with her brother. there's not much of an age gap between the two of them, just a few years, allowing him to tease and embarrass her whenever he wanted.

bada doesn't know what she would do without him.

a few notifications pop up on her phone from noeul.

i spy a wild lee bada 1 attachment you didn't tell me about this? great work, as always. did they give you any spare hoodies? we can fit the same size, right? 😎

bada laughs, shaking her head. tapping on the attachment, she opens it to find a picture of one of her most recent campaigns. in it, bada is modeling some athleisure wear for a small company based in seoul.

she sends him a few texts back.

it slipped my mind, i've been busy these days forgive me? plus, i think i shot these back in february? march? it's been a long time, i'm surprised they haven't updated their ads or maybe they just got them out? i don't know how these things work, really

she pauses for a moment, fingers hovering over the keyboard.

why do you only text me for free things? don't you miss me? plus, can't you afford a new hoodie yourself? or are you struggling to make ends meet? i heard being a starving artist was 'in'

a barrage of text messages flood her screen, and bada laughs. ignoring what noeul has to say, she sends him one last thing.

bada's always been an adventurous soul. well, when it comes to the arts anyways. she loves to paint and recently took up clay sculpture for another hobby. she likes to keep busy between modeling gigs. specifically, she likes to keep her hands busy. it keeps her nerves at bay, the constant shaking stop.

she's nervous walking in, wondering if she got the right room. it's packed and bada can feel her palms starting to sweat. should she back out last minute? it's not like anyone would know.

however, she plants herself down in a seat, determined to make the most of her evening. it's not like she had anything going on, anyways. bada listens to the instructors, taking notes.

FREE! 

songwriting & composition workshop at korea national university of arts (KNUA). 

one week only. participation is limited.

the department of music would like to invite you to our songwriting and composition workshop. this intensive, weeklong course, hosted by KNUA’s own department of music composition faculty, will go over the basics of industry standard software, music theory, lyric writing, composition, and more. at the end of the session, participants will have created their own song and have the chance to record a demo.

this class takes place monday through saturday, 4:30pm-10:30pm.

did that say free? you simply can’t resist the opportunity! when else will you have an opportunity to study with industry professionals at one of the best known arts universities in the country? even if you never thought about writing a song in your life, this seems like the perfect opportunity to give it a try.

however, you quickly realize that participating in this class will be taking up a significant amount of time. time that could have been spent practicing other skills. they may get a bit rusty while they’re not being used, but it’s only a week. it’s nothing that you can’t easily build back up in the future.

you register for the class just in time. a confirmation email is sent to you, welcoming you to the program and letting you know to arrive early at 4:00 monday for a brief introduction before the class finally begins.

solo ( ‧꒰ა♡໒꒱‧ )

a crowded music festival isn't where bada thought she would spend her weekend. however, having free tickets to the event thrust into her hands from a friend changes things.

'can you believe it bada? i was looking forward to this for so long and i even bought these on pre-sale! i can't go anymore because my sister is supposed to have her baby sometime that week. she's always ruining things for me. you always share your sponsored gifts with me, so this is the perfect time to pay you back! have fun and make sure to take lots of pictures and videos for me!'

bada walks through the hordes of people next to jingren awkwardly, wondering if he was the right choice to invite. it's crowded and she's acutely aware of the sun's rays are beating down on her despite the sunglasses perched on her face. she's grateful for the fact she remembered to coat herself in sunscreen before leaving the house, finally realizing how harsh the conditions are going to be today.

reiiofsunn:

"excuse me, miss?"

bada hears someone call out to her and she turns around extremely quickly thinking that maybe she had dropped her wallet, or her phone, or she was on fire. turns out none of those reasons were why the other person tried to get her attention. no, it was for a street interview.

"nemo's dream?" she asks, trying to get the name of the program right. "i'm sorry, i've never heard of it," bada laughs sheepishly, bringing a hand up to scratch the back of her neck. she could feel her face getting hot and her mouth getting dry. what was there to be nervous about? just the three cameras focused on her every move.

"that's okay," the interviewer reassures her. "can we ask you a couple of questions anyways?"

with her eyes shifting between each lens, bada hesitantly agrees. it'd be worse if she went viral for being a bad sport about things. she can see the headlines now: washed up chid star too good to interview with web variety program. where is she now and what do her parents think.

"great! for our first question - do you think it’s possible to have physical affection before you date someone?"

"i think it's possible, yes," she tells the interviewer, thinking to herself. "there's a certain feeling you get when someone you have a crush on gives you a hug; a certain kind of butterfly in your stomach you can't experience when it's known that you both are attracted to each other."

"i think a lot of people are quite different in the way they appreciate physical affection. some are more touchy-feely than others just generally. me? not so much," bada laughs. "there's obviously lines you shouldn't cross, especially when you don't know a person well enough, but i think it's possible, yes," she repeats herself.

"speaking of dating," the interviewer grins. "what do you consider dating?"

"what do i consider dating?" bada asks, raising a brow. she thinks it's quite an easy question to answer. "well, when two people decide that they . . . want to date, i guess?" she chuckles, rubbing the back of her neck again. "i guess there's a difference between dating around and being exclusive, though. if you're getting to know someone and have only gone on one or maybe two dates, i think that's dating around. i don't consider that being exclusive. i think after a couple of dates, though, you should have a talk with that person and see where you both are, if you see the relationship becoming long term. if you're on separate pages, i think it's best to go separate ways."

"finally, how would you ask someone that you’re seeing to be your boyfriend/girlfriend?”

bada's face flushes at the question, at the mere thought. her mind drifts off to a certain someone, imagining how she would ask them to be her partner before she reels herself back in.

"i think . . . i would just be blunt about it?" her words come out more like a question than a statement. "something like; we've been going on dates for a while now, i have strong feelings for you. would you like to be my partner?" she says softly. "something like that, yeah."