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beach episode cancelled again.. jeff the killing myself soon

i think my beach episode is going to be cancelled but no one in this group ever fucking communicates so i don't actually know.. i'm genuinely so done with all of them at this point

don't really want to be here anymore

i'm very used to spending all summer at home alone but i think the reason it's really upsetting to do that this year because i actually have friends now they just don't talk to me anymore and i'm too scared to reach out

i don't really want to go too into the water tomorrow and the fact that i'm lying in bed genuinely terrified that my friends are going to literally throw me into the sea is probably not a good sign

i don't think i like my friends anymore

dude actually has to stop being such a bitch honestly. idk what the fuck has him in such a pissy mood it's not my fault i'm not a fucking instagram connoisseur because i fucking hate the god damn app. i'm sorry i didn't know hidden message requests existed mark but that's no fucking reason to be so rude and snappy to me. i just wanted to update him on what i found out about what's happening tomorrow and he already knew but i didn't know he knew and i had no way to know he already knew and he was genuinely being so rude about it. he could've nicely said about how he already knew but instead he was being so mean and telling me "we know this already" and to check a gc that he could very easily tell i wasn't in at that point. then when i told him i wasn't in the gc he told me "to figure it out" like yeah i'll just add myself to a gc because that's how it works. fuck you.

my mum just told me sister is threating to attack me if i "talk to her like that again" referring to when i yelled at her even though she was the one that started screaming at me when i was just trying to talk to her calmly and she knows that if she shouts at me i'm going to shout back because otherwise she'll get a fucking complex where she thinks she has authority over me more so than she already does and i'm fucking sick of her acting like she can tell me what to do and talk down to me and then expect me to just take it

beach episode tomorrow and i'm trying to figure out what the fuck to bring with me!! besides the obvious, i've packed plasters, card games, notebook to draw or smth, and plenty of cds

i genuinely hate my sister so much, i tried to say one sentence to her and she fucking screams at me before i even get three words out.. she's such a dick honestly she's just the worst but she always paints me as the villain to her friends so they all hate me and she's always done this so there's always been a group of people 2-4 years older than me that just despise me because she's fucking evil