4:16

I still remember the feeling I felt when I first started talking to you.

The truth of the matter is that what’s done is done. No excuses are necessary. You can’t go back and change anything, so there’s no point in being stuck in the past. Excuses never work, you’re only lying to yourself and lying to yourself never helps anything. Eventually all the lies and the excuses and the alibis fall away and you’re left here, stripped with the truth before your very eyes, whether you’re ready to accept it or not.

I find it really hard to accept that some things in life will never go back to the way it used to be, and all I can do is think about it all the time, wishing I could relive it. When I close my eyes, I think about all the good times we had, but it’s all in the past and I can never get it back. I loved those days and Imiss them so much. It hurts to know that those memories will always stay in my mind no matter what I do, but I know it’s impossible to go back.

If he leaves you babygirl, don’t chase him. Don’t beg him to stay. Don’t send him sweet texts telling him how much you love him and it doesn’t matter. Don’t tell him how he is going to miss you or stuff like that. Don’t say a word. Just walk away. He will break his head for you baby. He will think about the fact that you didn’t said a damn word and it will make him wonder what he did. If he did good and made the right decision. At first he will leave it the way it is and be like ” fuck that shit “. But at one point it will haunt him. And let me tell you this. You did good. He doesn’t even deserve a damn word. The way he broke you is just heartbreaking. Sweetie, you have to know that your Prince will come. Don’t settle for less.

Believe me when I say you changed me for the better. From now on I look at love differently. I will no longer throw the word around and I will no longer fall for it so easily. I will be careful with my heart so it doesn’t break again, for if it does it may never come back. I thank you for making me realize I have my own two feet I can stand on and I don’t need a man to make me proud of myself. I know you thought I would not take this well and crawl back to you the second I got a chance, but I’m stronger, and this is my new challenge and I will defeat it. Thanks for helping me realize I’m strong on my own.

You don’t get to choose, you just fall in love. And you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know that you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no one can explain it and the reason its so confusing is because its love. But if love didn’t have any challenges, what would be the point?

I’ve learned this past year. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. but no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that. I’ve learned to go with my gut, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.