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“i mean, i believe in love it’s just that i also believe it falls apart. it’s just that in this house, love is an apology more often than a declaration. it’s that my parents haven’t shared a bed in months, that they were supposed to outlast the rest, that this was never supposed to happen. i mean, i believe in love it’s just that more often than not, my sister comes home from her boyfriend’s with mascara streaks and a dent in her tongue from biting it. it’s that love is so often angry and bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. i mean, i believe in love it’s just that the closest i’ve ever come to love wasn’t really love at all, that i don’t want to be forty-six and screaming over dirty dishes, making all the mistakes our parents did but this is the path i’m on and i can’t get off it. i mean, i believe in love just only kind of.”

“You were a soulmate with no soul, a lover with no heart. I gave you everything and you gave me nothing.”