bucky space

When I try to think of gray as a concept a lot can come to mind if I think hard enough. Ash is usually the first thing, and there's a lot to it. But none of it really affects me.

I thought for awhile that I could get the same effect as gray if I had found a different color that had no implications. And that was a fun idea, it's easy to find a color that you can't really place anywhere mentally. A lot of colors don't relate to your memories, that's okay because there's a lot of colors. I found that most colors ended up feeling unique instead of like nothing.

Of course I love the common colors too. Not because they feel like nothing but because they are everything. They are the posters in the classroom. At a time where all the walls were painted yellow. White was reserved for the nurses office and light switches. Even then there was a little tint of humanity in it. A pure infantile tangibleness that you could feel in the air.

What I really miss, past the classrooms, beyond the halls are the spaces for those who aren't growing up anymore. The storage room in the gym, the office, the room with the copier and printer. Where the whimsy that builds the school remains, but isn't the focus. Maybe there are baby blue walls but that's not the point, the point is the beautifully off-white/tan technology that's barely working because it's from the 90s and no one has the money to replace them.

Should you ask me to grovel, I shall grovel

This movie is going to mean so much to me, I just watched the trailer and between hulk, punisher, scorpion, and Spiderman this is going to be insane.

This will be my first Spiderman movie as an adult, I've always kinda loved tom hollands spiderman because he was always my age. And that's still the case, spiderman isn't in highschool anymore. He's an adult living on his own for the first time. Just like me

I love the punisher, I watched that show when going through the worst breakup of my life, seeing Frank Castle in a movie would make me the happiest

Hulk is evil again!!!!! Hulk isnt a bad guy, he's a impressionable man with anger issues. Seeing him vs Parker is going to be insane