my boyfriend broke up with me yesterday. he told me there were “certain things” he couldn’t overlook. he looked me in the eye and told me, “i’m just not attracted to you. you are an amazing, intelligent girl and i thought i could get over it but i just can’t. i don’t enjoy the sex.” but then i also found out he was in love with his best friend’s girlfriend—they are now together. when i asked if we could’ve worked if circumstances were different, he said, “this is going to sound mean but i wasn’t lying when i told you i’m not attracted to you. if you were a little bit thinner, maybe.”
the funny thing is — and i even laughed about it several times — i’m not even ugly and i look fine the way that i am. it hurt so much to hear that from someone i cared about however. i felt humiliated—i am embarrassed about all the pictures i sent him, thinking he looked at them and thought i was beautiful…
but, you know, i sent them bc i am beautiful and fuck him for thinking and saying otherwise.