Avree’s Kinda Dramatic

There has been so much going on to update here to be silent for so long😭

Andddd the mid-term season has officially started!

I have exams in 18 days and I HAVE TO ace them. Yes, you can say my life almost depends on these. Hence I begin by writing one important point from each subject each day until the exam so that I will have 18 important aspects of each subject covered just by my whiteboard.

What a day, honestly.

Simple. Busy.

Rough. Tiring.

And right now, it’s just confusing.

It’s that kind of day I end up remembering forever, because it is that kind of day where I always end up making a mess of myself. These days have given me endless embarrassments to make me kick my pillows in the middle of the night and countless moments I wished I vanished into thin air.

But today.

Anchored the inter-school debate competition with fumbled introductions, low volume mics and a messed up sequence of events. Forgot my tablet in the hall in a hurry to fetch the perfume I forgot in my drawer yesterday and in this process… my lip balm was lost.

What a messy day, honestly.

After lunch we went for the student council parade practice and were made to stand straight for about two hours in the process. And we still have no idea when our investiture ceremony will take place. Came home to see washed laundry scattered inside almost my whole house since it was raining previously and now I had to go and hang it outside.

What a weary day, honestly.

But why am I not pulling my hair right now?

Because the fumble was neglected and the competition gained flavour through our actually nice Principal, my tablet was picked up by a super sweet classmate and handed over to me. My girly pop friend was equally concerned for my lost lip balm because it smelled amazing. Coconut-ish.

And the highlight of my day.

After the event, I congratulated the winning team from another school and paused. Thought. And then didn’t think at all. Spoke.

“I remember you from media fest!”

“Yes! I was also wondering where I’ve seen you before.”

And after a 15 minutes long interaction, we shared our Instagram and officially became friends.

I have never been more proud of such a simple action. The me from last year’s August didn’t have a life outside class, home and doomscrolling, and now people from across the city know me.

It’s officially August today and I was thinking a little in depth about the rapidly changing months last night and felt somewhat anxious about this year ending too soon.

My finals will be in February and all my mom wants from is to get stellar grades in those. Literally just that– nothing else.

And guess what? I find myself in school to see everyone dressed in winter uniforms. All the people around me had their heads sunk in textbooks. It was February, the month I really dread.

My friend told me I missed classes for months, telling me it’s my fault. It was all my fault.

The worst part was that it was all happening very realistically. Usually, I realise that I am dreaming and from that point, I am in charge of what happens in my imagination. That wasn’t the case with this one, though.

However, when I woke up, I was super grateful for this month and all the time it’s going to give me.

Love you, August.