-Lexi-

Not sure how much more I can take, don't want to hurt anyone but I really can't see myself doing this much longer. I've begged and asked for help for years and was just pushed to be put on pills to make me better I don't want to live like this.

Why does jealousy control me so much, it hurts and it makes me feel sick and selfish. Nothing in my life feels fair, my sister makes me feel it the most and it makes me sad I compare every aspect of our lives and wonder how she got so lucky. It's hurts more because I know her life isn't perfect and I know she struggles but daum I would still do anything for what she has. My birthday always makes it worse as hers come just a month after, it makes me realize how alone I am and how loved she is.