tides change with the moon

A few things:

It felt nice to move

I could’ve gone harder, but I’m glad I eased into it.

It will take me a little bit to get in the groove

My form needs a little tweaking

I’ll definitely feel it tomorrow

My abs forgot they existed till today

I floated the river yesterday with adventure man. It was so lovely. We shared a paddle board so I got relax and be a passenger for some of it (most of it)

Took a 💨 today and played with paint markers today.

After setting up my work out equipment I had a light bulb moment to reach out to an old friend that I’d met through a work out class. She was the instructor and I nicknamed her “The Punisher”. Anyways I asked her if she would make me a workout circuit with the equipment I had on hand. She was so down! So I’ve got 4 weeks of a HIIT workout that progressively loads weight on. She told me not to pay her, but she is saving me money and I think it’s only fair that she gets paid for her time. I’m excited. I start this Friday.

Tomorrow night I’m taking a class/seminar on the behavioral cognitive psychology or some fancy word for quitting smoking. I want to quit. It doesn’t fit and I’m hoping I learn some cool things.

I stubbed toe is feeling better but I noticed I’ve got bruising on the joint connecting to my foot. I definitely smacked it good.

I set up my work out equipment in the basement and got sidetracked with old photos.

I just reached it.

Therapy was good toady. I felt like I just rambled and bitched and was negative. But she pointed out that I wasn’t being negative I was just reflecting. She also said it sounds like I’m a bit burnt out. It ended with a plan to move forward in small ways, so I don’t get overwhelmed and do nothing.

I made yummy meal prep after. Lunched will be bomb.

My boss will be gone for two weeks and asked if I’d like to split the time with a co worker being the “lead” for the dept. It doesn’t entail too much and I’ve handled most of the things that could arise. I get 10% overload pay for the week. Fingers crossed it’s smooth sailing while he is gone.

Adventure man gets back Saturday for his week off. It’ll be three weeks since we saw each other last. He has had his hands full this round with a brand new guide so we haven’t talked or texted much. I thought it would be hard, and while it’s not easy, I’ve found that I enjoy my space and have learned that I don’t have to be all up under someone. I am excited to see him and squeeze his body up against mine though.

I spent 4hours on yard work and I’m washing my bed sheets.

I showered.

This clip is from the park yesterday.

These past few weeks I haven’t wanted to do ANYTHING besides hide in the house and disassociate.

Disassociating doesn’t help in the long run. It just adds to the depressy feelings.

I don’t want to talk to anyone, don’t want to see anyone.

So cross that off the list. Now on to a spine specialist. Seeing the chiropractor weekly, PT weekly and massage once a month. I’m thankful for insurance and my veba account cause damn.

I bought new undies since I started to get holes in all of my old ones. They are cute and most importantly comfortable! However I tried them on and had a quick look at my ass, and damn I need to do some squats.

I guess now that I’m 41, I’ll have to work out so that my body continues to work well for me. My therapist suggested I look into perimenopause since I’m getting up there. Have any of you read the Menopause Manifesto by Dr. J Kruger? I think that’s her name. Anyway I’ve heard good things about it and I liked her content she posted on IG.

I’ve got work out equipment at home so I need to set it up and get a routine down. I’m also thinking about taking a Tai Chi class. Hanging out with old ladies in a park moving sounds lovely.

I was looking at my unofficial transcripts to see if my “exception” classes got accepted. Great news, they did! Not so great news my math class I took wasn’t accepted.

Which means I’m 5 credits short of graduating.

On all of my previous transcripts it showed as taken and earned but apparently once I applied for graduation it didn’t count.

So I’m not done with school. I’m meeting with my teacher next week to figure out a path forward.

Last nights food was a party in my mouth. I didn’t get photos of the first four plates. I was so full by the time I took these pics.

I will be eating the leftovers for breakfast. Very excited.

It was a cool experience and fun to spend time with friends.

I’ve had a number of massages but haven’t had a deep tissue massage before.

I went to a new person this week. He didn’t explain what he was doing so I’m not even sure I got a deep tissue massage, but it was definitely different from others I had. It felt like he was getting into my muscles and I definitely felt some pain while he was working on me. It was good pain though.

Anyway I know after you get a massage you should drink lots of water. Again he barely said a few words to me during the session and didn’t mention that I should be sore or to take it easy or even to drink water.

By the end of the day I was getting hot and cold flashes and I was super nauseous. Not to the point of mouth sweats but I was afraid to burp thinking I would vomit. I drank a bunch of water all day.

By the time I got home I felt terrible! I thought maybe my lunch was the culprit, maybe I got food poisoning? Maybe because of the fight, adrenaline, and lack of sleep messed me up?

I looked up to see if a massage could make you sick and yep all my symptoms matched. Anyway I still feel off. I was finally able to eat more than a few bites at breakfast.

I’ve got the day off and plan to relax and read for the day. A friend invited me to be her plus one at a closed chef’s dinner thing tonight. I hope my stomach feels better by then.