My House: Identity Metaphor
My house stands in a somewhat isolated spot, close to nature. Itâs not too short or tall, looks a bit wide, bulky and uneven in places. The walls are normally a very pale, off-white color, but nowadays they look a bit more tan. The roof tiles used to be really light/pale yellow, but are now more dirty. The windows are made of glass thatâs tinted blue with hints of a grayish-yellowish green. The current frames are thick, black with some blue patterns, but theyâll get changed to thinner black and silver soon. /physical appearance/
There are 3 entrances to the house. The main one out front is for close friends and family and is almost always open. If it isnât, thereâs a sign out and those who would come through there know to knock gently and ask if itâs okay to come in or if I want to talk, if itâs like that. The side entrance is for extended family, other friends and acquaintances. This oneâs usually locked and people need to knock to be let in. Sometimes the door will only open slightly or stay closed, and people will have to talk through it. /relationships/
The back door is for potential partners. Itâs a bit of a tricky one, it can be anywhere from locked, to slightly open to open wide and anything in between or even disappear completely. It can sometimes open up suddenly or slam closed out of nowhere or swing back and forth. Itâs mostly guys who are welcome to come through this door, tho occasionally it opens for girls folks outside the binary too. It also doesnât automatically close after one person has come in. Those who come through are welcome to go anywhere, save from my bedroom or the bathroom while Iâm bathing. /romantic orientation and sexuality/
My bedroom, as well as the kitchen, living room and bathroom are always there, but there are other rooms that come and go. Two of them are there most of the time: one that used to be really girly, but now has more of a mixed boyish/girly vibe and one that has a sort of eclectic vibe thatâs neither really boyish or girly. Sometimes, these two disappear and others appear, usually one at a time. /main gender labels/
Oneâs a planetarium room full of projectors that show different segments of space. Oneâs decorated to make you feel like youâre underwater. Oneâs a small meditation room. One is full of various instruments. One is sky themed. One is black with glow in the dark stars and constellations and a single bright light in the middle. One is actually just an empty forest that goes on and on. One is filled with all sorts of magic and the last one can lead to various magical/mystical spots in nature. /Xenogenders/
Those who enter this house fall under my protection and I can feel my wings spread out to shield them from harm. Inside the house, I can feel all the energy flowing through me. I keep my collections in there and protect them fiercely. I can sit by the fireplace and watch the flames dance, immerse in the pool, feel the breeze dance around and caress the stone walls. I can feel my ears be more pointed and marvel at the forest plants growing out of the walls. Sometimes I can go through the walls or swirl in the pool feeling my tail. At night I can feel the energy of the Moon and stars seeping through the walls. Sometimes I get the urge to go to the kitchen and sink my teeth into something juicy and suck it dry. /Otherkin/
Iâm not alone in my house, thereâs cats and dogs who come and go. We can rub against each other, lay in the sun, play, roll, climb, scratch, dig, meow, hiss, purr, bark, growl. And in those moments, I can feel my teeth, my claws, my ears, my tail, just happily move around. /Therian/
Thereâs other animals too, who donât come inside the house. The birds who fly above. I watch them through the windows and wish I could fly with them, but know itâs not my place. The horses running around or grazing peacefully. I sometimes go pet them or ride them if they let me, because thatâs the closest I can get to running with them. The wolves who howl at night. I smile knowing theyâre out there and doing well and in my thoughts I howl back to acknowledge Iâm still there too. The woodland creatures who come and go: deer leaping, rabbits jumping, squirrels climbing, hedgehogs and foxes trotting about. I say hi, wave or make eye contact and we all acknowledge the other. The sea creatures I spot in the nearby waters. I watch them swim around and if Iâm in the water I twirl and gently move the water around, to show that I mean no harm. /Otherhearted/
This is my house. Itâs beautiful and warm and friendly, but itâs also hard being there sometimes. I feel like I have to hide most of it from others, even tho I love every bit of it so much. Maybe one day, Iâll be able to let others see it all.
