the times when the wolves are silent

“He'd come to the Foxhole Court every inch a lie, but his friends made him into someone real.”

I’m not gonna lie it’s borderline embarrassing how long I’ve worked on this that I’ve spend 2 days tryna figure out how to caption it to make it less embarrassing but oh well. It also made me realise the banner says exy ncaa instead of ncaa exy but at this point that’s none of my business

Short of being inside Nora’s head here is a (mostly) (I think) biblically accurate and to scale model of the Foxhole Court and Nora I have a several questions.

Also rendered so many images of this I had like 50 cameras in the scene would y’all care if I just did a photo dump.

God I have so many things to say about working on this I had to restart like 8 times it was a mess but if I start I won't be able to stop Imao though if anyone's interested in a breakdown of all the sections and materials I would be more than happy to make a post yapping about it.

Viewport renders below

On one hand, I fucking hate/cant physically stand people touching me, especially if its unexpected/unwanted. People touching me feels like an invasion , its makes me physically withdraw from the world info myself and not want to come out.

But on the other hand, there’s time i deeply crave getting a strong hug from someone, particularly a best friend or my boyfriend, or to hold someones hand, not nessesarily romantically but just in a comforting way, or to just lean against someone when we hang out.

I want to be comforted with physical contact sometimes, but it’s so hard to accept it somedays unless I’m the one to initiate it, or to even accept it at all.

I made tag yourself for autistic people!! I’m between Sunny and AAAAAA

talking too fast, too slow, too loudly, or too quietly (we literally cannot control the speed of which we speak or volume of how we speak without an intense conscious effort, and when we are happy or excited we especially talk faster or louder)

infodumping when a certain subject comes up (we are invested in our interests and especially our special interests and are rarely given the opportunity to talk about it, so when we get it we jump on it)

talking about their personal experience / their own story when someone else is talking about theirs (it’s one of the ways we try to engage in discussion and empathize, it is not an act of being self-centered or only caring about ourselves)

not being able to stay still or look directly at you (we stim, we fidget, we struggle with eye contact, etc. and sometimes it can be PAINFUL to force ourselves to stop)

panicking, speaking abruptly in a distressed manner / loudly, having a meltdown (everyone feels distress and experiences it in their own way, and many of us experience that distress amplified) 

I am so sick of people saying they are allies and that they wouldn’t pick on autistic people or find autistic people annoying, but then judging and picking on people for symptoms of autism. you are not an ally if you think it’s okay to pick on people for having autistic traits if they don’t directly say “the reason I am this way is because I have autism.”