Hi there :)

When you love someone, when you care for someone, you have to do it through the good and the bad. Not just when you’re happy and it’s easy.

Before I fall in love again 1. I want us to be friends. Which means, I want to be able to eat my favourite cheese crust pizza with you, while having cheese all over my face and even in my hair, without feeling embarrassed or concerned about it. I want to be comfortable with you, I want to be okay about being messy, irritating, embarrassing, disgusting, petty while with you. Because I will be petty when I see my ex best friend post a happy picture and I will be messy during my finals and I will be embarrassing when I meet your parents for I suck at meeting parents. I want to be okay with being the way I am and the only way to be okay is to know that you’re okay with me being things other than beautiful, graceful and composed at all times. 2. I want to be able to have long and passionate conversations with you not just about existential things but also about what went wrong in the ending of that book and how kids are affected by media and how tomato basil combination always works. I want to have conversations where we may not always have the same views but our fundamental values always fall in place. I want to talk to you about the beauty of the stars but I also want to talk to you about the disgusting mentality behind certain societal norms. 3. I want to see how consistent your actions are with your words. I don’t want to fall for love letters or poems, for sweet Instagram captions or long birthday texts, I want to fall in love with you showing up on time and keeping your promises. 4. I want to take it slow. I want our story to work out in years, not months. I want to respect time and space this time. 5. I want to make sure I am not seeking love from you for the lack of love I have for myself. I want to make sure you aren’t a void I am filling in, you are not an alternative to the things I can’t give myself. I want to make sure you are not doing the same. 6. I want to work out with my insecurities and fears from the past. I don’t want to project them on you, I don’t want to subject you to the doubts, suspicion and anger I carry from the people I have known in the past. 7. Before I fall in love again, I want to make a mattress with you. Of understanding and respect and trust. So when we fall, it doesn’t hurt.

There are rare moments in life that feel about as close to magic as you can possibly get. They are the breathtaking epiphanies surrounded by tragedy – moments of stillness and inexplicable beauty. They are the times when it suddenly dawns on us that we are exactly where we’re meant to be… That somehow, amidst the chaos and the tears we ended up in this strangely beautiful place surrounded by love. It’s the moment we realize we are exactly where we belong and that everything we went though had a reason in the end.

Don’t explain. People only hear what they want to hear.

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.

There’s nothing that can stop your goodness now

One thing I learned a long time ago is that even if you think you’re meant to be with someone, that doesn’t necessarily mean you get to be with them.

Nothing is sexier than someone who wants you as much as you want them.

Silence is the loudest thing an overthinker could ever hear—because nothing bounces off infinitely across their minds.

I’d love to, but only with you.

5 tips to a happier everyday: Tip 5 - If you can’t solve it now, the solution is meant to come later. So don’t stress yourself any further and let it go. Good things come to those who wait.. Tip 4 - Meditate. Whether it happens while you do your make up or when you clean, even while you lay in bed before you get up. In silence find wholeness, clear your mind before the day comes rushing in. Tip 3 - Drink water. You won’t notice the difference by doing this but your body will thank you for it I promise. Tip 2 - Achieve 2-3 things that you need or want to do with your day so theres fulfilment at the end of your night. Make memories with yourself. Tip 1 - Listen to music, better yet sing it. You know the songs you listen to when you’re in a good mood, make a playlist out of it and just listen. Its the best remedy for all the bad thoughts and mood swings.

1. Take a morning shower filled with loud and upbeat music. 2. Surround myself with positive people. 3. Stop degrading myself based on how others look, I’m beautiful in my own way. 4. Allow myself to be sad when I️ feel it, it’ll be okay, the sun will return soon. 5. Laugh. A lot. 6. Take bubble baths to calming music. 7. Read. 8. Open the windows and let the air in.