atla/tlok (mostly atla) blog

you guys don’t actually know me apart from the content i make, reblog and my bio so here’s a little introduction

i live in the netherlands i’m mixed dutch, surinamese and antillean (from the dutch antilles above venezuela etc) i’m a something year old neurogirl, cuddle-gender, attached-gender, stimgender, avatargender, loadgender and xumgender (made a few of them up just now bc it describes me) and i use she/her pronouns (they/them is fine too but they’re just not my pronouns)

i’m on the ace and aro spectrum, i resonate with many of the sexualities on the spectrum but especially nebulasexual, myrsexual, oriented aroace i’m hetero-aesthetic and heteroromantic (hetero as in meaning the “opposite” or 1 gender, it might change though) i’ve had phases with different sexualities and genders over the years (btw not in the way like “you’ll get over your delusions” or “your swinging between labels is invalid” phases, just that my identities have varied a lot) i'm kinda insecure about some of them and don't really like talking about my past

i’m autistic (neurological disability), i have a cleft palate (birth defect but still disabling) (look it up), i have hearing loss (physical disability as named by wikipedia), speech and language processing disorder (physical disability as named by wikipedia), i have ocd (mental disorder) (which i use medication for) and i’m probably hypermobile !

living with these disabilities and disorders is literally impossible even if you remove all and leave autism and ocd, it’s still impossible. it is disabling in everyday life

my voice is a bit nasal (i’ve had surgeries but still), i’ve had hearing aids but they suck (for the explanation just ask) the speech and language processing disorder is hard to explain though but you can ask. being autistic makes me overstimulated etc, but some things are bc of neurotypical things which aren’t even logical for everyday life and other things like clothes or fabrics that feel which is more personal and ocd (obsessive compulsive disorder) is the most disabling actually (look up the word compulsive). i have a hard time getting things done bc some things have to be exactly a certain way

some characteristics/traits overlap too

i want to change my name legally but i have to wait patiently for the right moment to do so. i do think i know what my names are going to be but i don't want to share it yet

now you’ve learnt more about me, have fun on my blog

bye :)