(Birthday special ) im 19
So you can play the golden boy
"I'd love to be your girlfriend"
The first time Y/N met him, she understood the obsession immediately. He had the smile that made people feel chosen, the laugh that filled every room, and the kind of confidence that never seemed arrogant because he wore it so effortlessly.
People gravitated toward him.
There was a trail of destruction
And Chris knew exactly how to make every person around him feel special.
You're such a good actor, I guess you had me fooled
For months, she felt like she was the exception.
Guess I was convenient When I was around
While everyone else only got pieces of him, she got the real version.
'Cause you love attention,
Or at least she thought she did.
Their relationship wasn’t official. It lived in late-night phone calls, secret drives through the city, stolen kisses when nobody was watching, and promises whispered when the world felt quiet.
I'm on the other side now
Chris always had an explanation.
While you'd just tear me down
And Y/N believed every single word.
Because when he looked at her, it felt impossible not to.
He knew exactly what to say.
Exactly what she wanted to hear.
Exactly how to make her stay.
Even when something felt wrong.
Even when girls would comment on his posts with hearts and flirty messages.
Even when rumors started floating around.
Even when friends pulled her aside and carefully asked if she was sure about him.
So you can play the golden boy
And lose yourself in all the noise of
"You're kind, and you're so perfect"
"I'd love to be your girlfriend"
How's life living on the surface?
Y/N defended him every time.
“You don’t know him like I do.”
“Chris would never do that.”
Looking back, she wished she could shake herself.
The signs had always been there.
She had simply refused to see them.
Because loving Chris felt like standing in sunlight.
You didn’t notice the burn until it was too late.
The truth arrived slowly.
While you're both still asleep
Like pieces of broken glass.
Until she could no longer pretend everything was fine.
She discovered conversations he’d hidden.
Promises he’d made to multiple girls.
The same words he once made her believe were unique.
He had simply memorized the role.
Chris wasn’t just good at being loved.
He was good at making people love him.
When Y/N confronted him, she expected guilt.
Instead, he looked annoyed.
Like she had interrupted his day.
“You’re overthinking this.”
That sentence shattered something inside her.
Because after everything, after every sleepless night, after every tear she’d cried trying to understand him…
He still found a way to make her feel crazy.
Like she was the problem.
Like she was imagining it all.
And for one horrible moment…
She almost believed him again.
'Cause you love attention
While you'd just tear me down
The breakup wasn’t dramatic.
The kind where two people stop fighting because one of them has finally run out of reasons to stay.
I'm on the other side now
That hurt more than she expected.
Because deep down, some foolish part of her thought he’d chase her.
As if she had never mattered.
So you can play the golden boy
And lose yourself in all the noise of
And everywhere she looked, Chris was still Chris.
People posted about how sweet he was.
Girls continued falling for him.
The comments never stopped.
“You’re so lucky if you’re dating him.”
“I wish I had a boyfriend like Chris.”
Y/N would read them and laugh bitterly.
Not because they were wrong.
Because they didn’t know.
They only knew the version he showed them.
The one who never made mistakes.
The one who somehow walked away untouched while everyone else cleaned up the damage.
Sometimes she’d see photos of him online.
Smiling like nothing had happened.
Like hearts weren’t breaking in his wake.
Like there wasn’t a trail of people who once believed they were special.
For a while, it made her angry.
"You're kind, and you're so perfect"
"I'd love to be your girlfriend"
How could someone hurt people so easily and still be loved?
How could someone leave destruction behind and never have to face it?
How's life living on the surface?
But healing does strange things.
One day, she realized she hadn’t checked his page in weeks.
One day, she heard his name and didn’t feel sick.
Another day, she looked at an old photo and felt nothing at all.
And somehow that felt like freedom.
Because she finally understood something.
He spent his life chasing admiration.
He needed people to love him because he didn’t know how to exist without it.
And Y/N no longer needed any of those things.
She had survived losing him.
Survived the disappointment of discovering that the person she thought he was never truly existed.
That made her stronger than he’d ever know.
While you're both still asleep
A year later, they ran into each other.
The kind of place that once would’ve made her nervous.
His eyes widened slightly.
For a moment, neither of them moved.
The one that used to make her heart race.
The one that once had so much power over her.
Just two people standing in the same room.
Chris looked at her carefully.
Almost like he expected something.
Maybe proof that she still cared.
I'm on the other side now
Instead, she simply smiled politely.
Because she didn’t belong to his story anymore.
And he didn’t belong to hers.
After a few moments, they said goodbye.
Not because she needed distance.
But because she had somewhere better to be.
For the first time in a long time, Y/N wasn’t living in Chris Sturniolo’s shadow.
So you can play the golden boy
And lose yourself in all the noise of
"You're kind, and you're so perfect"
"I'd love to be your girlfriend"
How's life living on the surface?
She wasn’t another girl hoping to be chosen.
Wasn’t another name on a list.
Wasn’t another heart trying to earn love from someone incapable of giving it fully.
She was finally choosing herself.
You can really play the part
While you stay breaking all these hearts
Oh "what's it like to be his girlfriend"
Looks good but it's a burden
Have fun living on the surface
And as she disappeared into the crowd, Chris watched her leave.
For once, the golden boy wasn’t the center of someone’s world.
And somehow, that was the one thing he could never learn how to be okay with.
You're no longer wasting my time
I know that it's much better
No I'm not alone being left in your mess
It should bring me closure, or something I guess
But all that I'm left with are unproven words
That everyone heard, and what makes it worse
Is you just play the golden boy
And got so lost in all the noise of
"You're kind, and you're so perfect"
"I'd love to be your girlfriend"
How's life living on the surface?
You can really play the part
While you stay breaking all these hearts
Oh "what's it like to be his girlfriend"
Looks good but it's a burden
Have fun living on the surface