— ココロ

“ if  you  can’t  dazzle  them  with  brilliance ,  baffle  them  with  bullshit ! ”

“ i’m  not  totally  useless.  i  can  be  mused  as  a  bad  example ! ”

“ you  were  dead.  yet ,  here  you  are. ”

“ don’t  tell  me  to  smile. ”

“ you  tricked  me ! ”

“ i  don’t  know  who  i  am. ”

“ no  one  is  free  when  others  are  oppressed. ”

“ the  best  revenge  is  living  at  all. ”

“ that  kid  is  never  coming  back. ”

“ the  only  me  is  me.  are  you  sure  the  only  you  is  you ? ”

“ is  freedom  therapeutic ? ”

“ it  was  you ,  wasn’t  it ? ”

“ didn’t  get  caught ! ”

“ please :  don’t  let  the  cops  in ,  or  the  cats out ! ”

“ abuse  of  power  comes  as  no  surprise. ”

“ leave  them  at  the  bottom  of  the  grave  they  dug  for  you. ”

“ police  are  just  horrid ,  so  there ! ”

“ i  killed  god ,  and  all  i  got  was  this  stupid  t - shirt ! ”

“ my  anger  is  mine. ”

“ what  if  your  impression  of  me  is  wrong ? ”

“ don’t  let  the  bastards  get  you  down ! ”

“ health  hints !  running  from  cops  exercises  the  leg  muscles. ”

“ i’m  filled  with  rage ,  but  i’m  empty  at  the  same  time. ”

“ i’m  going  to  hell  on  a  full  scholarship. ”

I’m taking a break. A long one.

With my depression worsening and a forming of a toxic mindset, it’s really not healthy for me to stick around here right now. I’m anxious, insecure and jealous at almost every little thing right now and I’ve already got too much on my plate to worry about as it is.

I’m don’t write this for sympathy, I write this as a reminder why I’m taking this hiatus: I had a breakdown about the status of this blog, my place in the community and the anxiety that’s come with not being able to produce much content for it.

I’m very burnt out.

My only apology is asking to start stuff with mutuals without being able to deliver on it. I know I shouldn’t but I also shouldn’t have pretended everything was alright and ignore this slow boiling feelings that recently came out.

So until my mental health improves, I’m not going to be on tumblr at all. Period. No ifs and buts about it. I absolutely can’t be here if I want to get better. With that being said, my mutuals are welcomed to ask for my discord if you’d like to pop in and say hi.