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{Fragments of us have been immortalized in my soul, soaked in venom - an imperfect vaccine working in tandem; ripping me open and searing me shut, again and again...this strange pain is persevering.}

I was fluid - poetry in motion. I came as a powerful notion, nourished by leftover magic inside of black oceans.

You met me - urgently - the taste of fate swallowed as a sacramental branding; you were allergic to the catalyst of two worlds expanding.

I dreamt in crimson and woke up tasting pomegranate, right before you vanished - when you briefly lured me away from my Jovian planet.

You dreamt in sequences of fours right before I washed ashore {we’ve both been here before}, Destiny insists that she will not be ignored - you broke two hearts when you broke yours - you made the first strike in this ancient war.

This golden cord is the bondage of fate - souls smoldered together by ichor - I can not yet get it to abate.

I try to bite back thunder as I weather this storm - I refuse to be the only one transformed.

We dove into a cyclone that felt dense and decided. Inevitability was incensed once we were divided.

I chew the air into fire; poetry married to truth will never expire. My arrows - dipped in the molten ruins of us and what will no longer transpire - will transcend this hellfire.

We were trying, but we're trying no more

It's cold on the floor, cold on the floor

This house has never been the same as before

It's never felt warm, never felt warm

There's something moving through the windows and walls

I've seen it before, seen it before

You left me living with a lingering soul

How little you know, how little you know

We were standing at the foot of a path

I had to go back, had to go back

I chose to travel as a lonely man

So much that I lacked, so much that I lacked

I'm always wishing I was walking that road

It's something I hold, something I hold

I take it with me all the places I go

How little you know, how little you know

I only eat to fill me up

I only sleep to rest

I need a love just like you gave

I haven't found it yet, found it yet

See where I am is where I'm wanting to be

I know what I need, know what I need

And there are many different places to see

I know how to dream, know how to dream

Still there's a wound and I'm moving slow

Though it don't show, though it don't show

I've got a hole where nothing grows

How little you know little you know

I only eat to fill me up

I only sleep to rest

I need a love just like you gave

I haven't found it yet, found it yet

Maybe we'd marry and we'd work it out fine

In some other time, some other time

And we are happy when I'm walking that line

It's all in my mind, all in my mind

I paint the ceiling so that nobody knows

I cover it slow, cover it slow

It's like you've never even met me before

[from Thought Catalog, by Kirsten Corley]

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they are the type you meet when you’re young only to regret when you’re older. If you mess it up they are the ones that haunt you with what if. They are the lost love songs that suddenly start making sense. The what if that kill you late at night. The mistake you wish you could undo but you also learned so much from them.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they’ll teach you about putting others first. Their needs come second to everyone else around them. They care maybe a little too much for everyone. And if they can make someone else’s life better they will do everything in their power to make that happen.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they teach you about quality over quantity. They might not have many friends but the ones they do have are really stand up people. You’ll look at them and realize why they are the way they are.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they will love you so hard you don’t even know where it comes from or when it ends. If they trust you enough to give you their heart, they will give you all of it holding nothing back. They will be the type that walks into a room and your entire day will change just seeing them.

You’ll look at yourself in the mirror and just wonder what you ever did right to deserve them. But you’ll count your blessings that someone like them exists.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they overthink everything. They will notice the smallest details and body language and tone changes. If ever anything goes wrong they will blame themselves. They always blame themselves for things even when the fault isn’t theirs to keep.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because you’ll compliment them and they have trouble with that. They don’t think they are anything that special. But all you see when you look at them is someone close to perfection. They will never own that title with pride because all they see when they look at themselves are the things they can improve on.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they are painfully guarded and strong. They don’t like showing vulnerability and weakness. They seem like the strongest people you’ll ever meet but under that is someone who is so afraid to get hurt.

They’ve learned a lot about life the hard way and they’ve always had to be the strong one. In playing the role they didn’t ask to, they learned to be their own best friend, they learned to love themselves first. They learned to be other people’s strength and when they felt like falling apart they carried others.

Don’t fall in love with a Sagittarius because they might be nice to you but if ever you cross them they don’t forget and they don’t forgive you that easy.

[from Thought Catalog, by Kirsten Corley]

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they will ruin you in the best way possible.

They’ll teach you people aren’t what they seem. They play two very different roles in their life. They can be the life of every party they walk into that social butterfly but when the party ends they can also be someone very deep and emotional. They can be a lone wolf and often need their own time to think and reflect on things.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they will love you simply for being you. They don’t fall often but when they do it’s always a quality person who has a lot going for them. It’s more about mental attraction than anything. They need someone in their life to motive them and push them to be better because that’s exactly what they’ll do for you.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they’ll forgive you. No matter how bad it is, whatever you might have done, they have this ability to see things from a perspective that isn’t their own. Before acting and reacting every move they make and every word they say is carefully chosen.

They take other people’s feelings into consideration. You’ll look at them and be overcome with guilt because even if they forgive you, you struggle to forgive yourself.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they will really take the time to get to know you. And they’ll try their best to be what you need for a person.

They’ll learn about every sharp edge you have and they won’t be afraid of it. They’ll learn about every mistake you made in your past and you they won’t think much of who you used to be. They will think about who you are now.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini unless you understand they need space. They won’t be talking to you every minute of every day, they won’t be thinking of you every second. But they’ll fit you into their life the best way they can and they’ll love you.

Understand Gemini’s are natural born leaders. Everything they get themselves involved in they will come out leading the pact. Along with that they are workaholics always striving for success. What they need in a partner is support and understanding and a long leash. Someone who doesn’t slow down either.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because you’ll change loving them. They make you the best version of yourself and when you look in the mirror it’s them you’ll see looking back at you. From sayings, you pick up and how you say it, to mannerisms, you’ll see them in parts of you and you’ll be happy about it.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they will give you their heart so carelessly they’ll teach you how love was supposed to be easy this whole time and you’ll wonder why you ever settled for anything complicated.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because they are hopeless romantics and they will sweep you off your feet. They’ll ruin all your favorite songs and favorite places.

They say little things they don’t think much of and you’ll just look at them and realize here is this person who is more than you could have ever wanted in a person. They set a new level of standards you didn’t even know someone could obtain.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because despite how strong they might appear they struggle in trusting people and they have a tough time letting people close. They know what they have to offer is someone of quality but in the past, a lot of people have taken them for granted. But if you work at them and show them, you are someone they can trust, you’ll have their loyalty forever.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because suddenly you’ll find yourself really protective of them. Anyone who hurts them or uses them or makes them question themselves you’ll hate. Even if you are not the type to hate people you’ll fall so hard for this person their well being will matter more than yourself. They’ll teach you the definition of unconditional love.

Don’t fall in love with a Gemini because their honesty will make you never want to lie again.

You’ll find yourself fearfully whispering I love you and when they say it back you’ll realize you’re the lucky one.

[from Though Catalog, by Kirsten Cooley]

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus because they are the toughest signs to be in a relationship with. But with them, the juice is completely worth the squeeze.

They aren’t hopeless romantics, in fact even if they love you they will struggle in clearly conveying how they feel. They put up a tough front, hiding their emotions but they really do care deeply about people.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus unless you’re willing to be as loyal as they will be. They don’t just date for sport, they choose quality people that they respect. You can trust them on a night out because they know how good they have it.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus because to them actions will always speak louder than words and while they struggle in telling you how they feel they will always show you through gestures of doing little things for you.

They are the most honest of signs and they can tell when someone is lying. You will never catch them in a lie because they are the types who would rather hurt you with the truth then tell you what you want to hear.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus because while they have a tough front, they think carefully about everything. Because they struggle in clearly articulating things, they think deeply and don’t say much because they don’t know how. So when they do talk and try and open up to you listen carefully.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus unless you can be with someone who might wake you in the night worrying. They struggle sleeping because their mind is always racing.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus unless you’re willing to be the type of person who is a little passive. Their strong personality is only compatible with someone who doesn’t challenge them but does push them to be a better person.

Don’t fall in love with a Taurus unless you are the type who can understand someone’s bark is worse than their bite. Someone who does mean well.

[From Thought Catalog, written by Kristen Corely]

It takes a rare type of person to love an Aries.

Someone who can meet their hot head with calmness.

Someone who can understand how opinioned they are and not take it personally.

Someone who knows how to talk them down when they get going.

Someone who can meet their impatience with teaching them to slow down.

Someone who can understand their cockiness is really an act.

Don’t fall in with an Aries because they will teach you no one is what they seem. And you’ll learn while they might have a tough exterior if you can get through that you’ll see a side to them most people don’t.

Don’t fall in love with an Aries because they will teach you a thing or two about trust. While it might take them a while to trust you in doing so you’ll learn about patience and you’ll learn some people are worth getting through the tough obstacles they put in front of you.

Don’t fall love with an Aries because they will always be the strong one in a relationship. They will be someone you can rely on completely and they won’t let you down. You’ll admire them for being the type of person who carries others even if they have things in their own life going on.

They can handle a lot both physically and emotionally and that will be something you admire most about them.

While they might seem like they are tough and have it all together there will be a moment where their walls completely come down and you see a side of them very few people get to. You’ll see them vulnerable and breaking down and they consider it weak. But you look at them and you realize there isn’t anyone more beautiful.

While Aries might be tough they are also tough to get over if ever you’re lucky enough to fall in love with one of them.

“I’m not sad, but the boys who are looking for sad girls always find me. I’m not a girl anymore and I’m not sad anymore. You want me to be a tragic backdrop so that you can appear to be illuminated, so that people can say ‘Wow, isn't he so terribly brave to love a girl who is so obviously sad?’ You think I’ll be the dark sky so you can be the star? I’ll swallow you whole.” - Warsan Shire

“Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I’ve walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, and above.” (From the movie Gia)