to be used

i either get raped or i get someone being nice so they can touch me. idk what i prefer

he seemed like he cared. when i started shaking he held me. felt gentle. he held me and waited a few nights to touch me. and he missed having me in his fucking bed

love how im the kind of survivor who relates more with curly than anya. and cant even bring myself to say what ive survived. i survived something and i took every opportunity to minimize everything. even the 1 time i tried to disclose anything she dgaf. i am that disposable. she dgaf and i said something

just realized im fronting because traumaversaries are coming up. yippee

holy shit i did not realize how close together me getting the shit beat out of me and kicked out and staying with someone who ended up sexually assaulting (????) me was to the whole fallout with my ex. oh my god. 3 years but that still fucks me up