+thoughts of the faded+

“‘What are you afraid of?’ A question that is often asked as a light question. People expect an answer like snakes or heights, something simple, something unimportant actually. But the truth is I’m not afraid of spiders and I have absolutely no problem taking the elevator. I’m afraid of time, how everything goes by way too soon, how I might run out of time before I even start living. I’m afraid of making mistakes, being at the wrong place at the wrong time and completely messing up my happiness. I’m afraid of choosing the wrong person to build a life with, not knowing what love really is, not knowing there is more. But those are subjects far too heavy for small-talk and I’ll just get weird looks from the people who asked me. So I’ll be polite, I’ll say I’m afraid of sharks, ducks, or big dogs. But our real fears, are those unspoken.”