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“you’re so sweet!” thank you i have abandonment issues

Manifesting a nap date soon.

u dumb if you let me go

If you’ve had a period of basically dissociating from a hard time of your life, you’ll know that doing even the littlest thing that has an effect in the real world vs on a screen can be so profound. Something as little as you doing a favor for someone, or someone noticing something about you that you didn’t think anyone would even pick up on bc your brain is all messed up about being perceived. Your living footprint is all muddied and murky. It takes a lot to even feel like you’re inhibiting your body. So consequences that come as a direct result of you just living, whether big or small, blow you away on an inexplicable level

if you've ever lived an isolated life, knowing that you're making a mark in the "real world" can feel so wonderful and strange. you mean i exist, outside of this weird liminal space i inhabit? i get so hungry for that validation. you know my favorite color!!? you think i have a sweet voice?!! you remember that thing i said ages ago!!? because of these seemingly inane things, i get to affirm, again & again, i exist, i exist, i exist. im a real person!! i do things that have consequences!! i won't disappear off the face of the earth if you remember me in these big & small ways.

The big sad got me tonight.

yeah you cute but can you handle me when im having a mental break down

*trust issues and psychopathic vibe

i :) can’t :) do :) this :) anymore :) but :) i’m :) doing :) it :) anyway :))))))

you know what’s really hot.. healthy communication and reassurance