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You all hate me, and I hate myself Woke up this morning, fuckin' waste of pills Haven't seen myself in over seven years, 'cause I hate my face So I avoid the mirrors (already smashed them up) The glass it cuts. I'm like a sinking ship its hard to swim when I'm all alone and I ain't got no one here to depend on Cemented feet dragged through the street, everyone's fuckin' lookin' The anger thickens I can feel depression as its cooking No emotion on my face 'cause I conceal the pain Standing outside in the storm so I can feel the rain Pouring down on my face, I pretend they're tears You know, 'cause I've tried, but I haven't cried in many years I hate myself I loathe myself I should off myself Why not? I'm broken! God- God lost His way Made a mistake when He made me They say I'm lost, and I agree. I'm fuckin' (Broken!) I-I-I-I don't wanna be alive. I just wanna die (Broken!) I-I-I-I don't wanna be alive. I just wanna die You wanna kill me. That's okay, 'cause I agree with you My arms have many cuts. You see the ones I'm bleedin' through Step off this chair and shut the windpipe that I'm breathin' through They say always believe, but fuck them. Believe in who? I don't belong, I know. I snort the strongest blow That shit is wrong, but so, I don't have fuckin' long to go Every night I dream I'm gonna die; I hope it's real I found a bag of pills. I hope it's dope so I can feel I'm straight-up suicidal. The fuckin' rudest I know I hope somebody feels my pain through this crude recital It's only Judas I know. Buddhists and Jews are psycho Why am I broken inside? Livin' this broken life We agree that I'm hated I'm broke-e-e-e-e-en! I feel so sad and alone Pain grows right through my bones My whole life is wasted I'm broke-e-e-e-e-en! I walk crooked, arms full of cuts and pus-y holes Same pair of Converse, three years, dusty soles Every week another black and dire busted nose I fucked a dope man, back seat of his rusty Olds My entire life is shit, toilet bowl So much depression that my brain looks like a piece of coal I'm lacking all composure, no patience, no self-control Drive off a cliff, throw me my keys and let's roll

Can I please just fucking die. Because honestly i don't feel safe in this world..... To be honest, I don't feel like I belong here... I don't wanna live. My girlfriend is the only thing really keeping me here. If Lose her than I lose my life