to be continued

You are allowed to have whatever emotions you want. No one can control your emotions. Emotions are healthy responses to things.

You are not allowed to have behaviors that are harmful just because you have certain emotions. Your behaviors are what you can control, and they are far easier to control than your emotions.

You can be jealous about someone or their talents until you turn green, but it is harmful to yourself and to that person if you try to sabotage them because of it. You can be so angry you can literally feel your temperature rise, but this does not give you permission to rage at others.

you just…feel it. in your being, can’t let go of it, they’re upset but won’t tell you and are going to leave you

but you know, logically, that there is a really good chance you’re misreading the situation and they’re not upset with you at all

so…you either sit with the feelings and let those color your interactions with them forever, always in fear of saying it because if you say it it’ll come true and they’ll realize you’re terrible and leave you

or bring it up when you feel it and they’re like “wtf no i wasn’t mad” and you feel stupid for being so paranoid and fear your worrying about them being mad will push them away