Duende In A Dying World (Fifteen Elegies)
So deconstructed, they are eating and sleeping,
their guts untouched, the rubble beneath their feet.
Everything has been blessed by the hand of the mind called Brain,
visited by the ghost called Logic. If thin air was visible,
it would age into elegy like skin into rolling planes of the soul's wave length.
Dust would not move. Breath would leak from us
and try to fill the barren cradle, singing for itself.
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I. (Love In An Age Of Presence)
Barbed circumstance shaves your music down to particulars.
Sighing unwell the missing mass bides its time in the desert,
calls to a season of birds, which in the desert is three,
and knows that favourable winds will not find the words favourable.
To love another and be loved by another one must love oneself.
Nowhere is this more important than nowhere, wherein there is
nothing but what is conjured by reflexive sunlight inflected through worry;
the worry the Earth has and stops, right hand on left hand, left hand quivering.
The lyric motion of swinging brains and their vehicles and their ghosts
in an empty city convinced by its own naivete that it still exists,
a squirming tableau of amateur movement against a window,
the thread of white sound that stings the eyes and turns all this
into a red bead of compacted skin flying by an invisible wire.
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II. (Against The Tumourous Scrawl Of Stone Evil)
The impossibility of creation's hand shaking under a used sketchbook,
barren but for fermentation on the misdrawn face of memory,
that kind yellow light that is unhappy for no other reason than that it is.
The impossibility in its best behaviour is this light, this half-appearing
parchment over the rooftops of a wintered city hiding in the trees.
Here are Odysseys as in any other wilderness, tenderness under a moving,
stomach-churned illumination that cannot be called light because it is invisible,
the way they are who stand under it and discover more than mere planets
when the hand is lifted and the birds are only birds again in the city in the forest.
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III. (The Delusion Of Death)
In orange grasses where the sun sits on a hill and vibrates,
you are lying on your back and watching for shooting stars
through the familiar arrhythmia of summer evenings,
pointed at the sky like huge predatory violets.
You are in an iris, rehearsing death for no reason other than practicality.
A scientist will make statements about the achievements of their field
with no consideration for things like a self or that their watches may be haunted,
suggesting things that may no longer be true.
You have tried to deny that anything is haunted and have met with abject shock in the field.
The studied growing nature will be found continually
inhabiting other skins like some deep-sea shellfish that crawls
in abject black with no eyes unaware of anything but its own disembodied sensation,
and it will still find that common sanity,
that instinct at the core of instinct, pushing through all the little deaths
whose sum is less than less than nothing; is nothing in the face of found light.
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IIII. (Love In The Underground)
The widowed saints in their brown messenger caps
descend on the red glow of a High Mass turning in the guts of town,
under the blue-grey arthritic streets, stretched stone, tortured mountains
that once saw heaven, reaching now for their severed limbs
buried deep in the quarries outside the eyes-shut cities,
their many skeletons, their forgotten skin forced to vanish
in the mortar and pestle of the ground's secret factory
wherein immigrant choirs rehearse an original Genesis
with an infinite number of dusty hands sewn together at the wrists.
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V. (Red-Tide-Woman Of The Immortal Sickbed)
Your neck rises up like a yawning Gibraltar of pure ash
from the slow red tide of your dozen patchwork skirts and Indian blankets,
gathered under your muscles and limbs like loam hiding in the shadows
of great white cliffs, shaped generously by ice ages and steam-powered bodies
floating half-drowned past the islands of the world.
Red woman of the immortal sickbed, all your sense tied up in a knot above you,
body changing shape to live under a word, name changing shape
to live like a bird with a view of two separate sides of the same broken fence –
you were once a solitary cloud of light-turned-liquid, the milk in far eastern mechanisms
of jungle and the innocent passive warfare of language-on-language – a particle
in the red tide of glacial identity, a gypsy-girl of motorbikes and waterfalls.
Here you are eaten in huge grey cities whose eyes do not miss you,
cities of albino pigeons and staring suited money-men who have never seen a girl.
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VI. (Heaven Now)
Infinite undeveloped photographs sitting in a darkroom.
The firmament is a muddy wave of memory, the down-up view of great red cities
in the sun. Old fortifications haunted by Siddhartha's mugged spectre.
Heaven now is infinite and undeveloped – the raw real-estate of chaos
converted under the flapping banner of good intention
like the pagan villagers of pre-Christian Russia baptized en-mass,
scurrying through a cold grey river under the eyes of an alien priest
who waves his hands, throwing off scent of papyrus and sinister myrrh.
Heaven now is the old gods in their spinning diagrams rolling like an avalanche of tumbleweed
into the rushing crusade of a naturally occurring baptism – later a cold steel sky
shot through with black like the John Hancock of sorrow writ into the leather of an old man's neck.
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VII. (The Air Gathering Around My Home)
It is a twisted ancestry sitting over the world;
a dynasty of pure nuance; a reactive field and a passive field.
It is jointed by friction and circles itself like a pack of old wolves.
Hunger drives it out in twos and threes to stalk the dry places. Like all wolves
the smell of fear-sweat turns it bristling, salivating, opening
its ghost-eyes at you. Wherever it is, wherever you are, it is going that way.
It has blue and yellow fingers and secret ways of navigating. Flashes of predatory genius
and fits of calm. It is a parasite in the atmosphere, dragging infected winter behind it
like an emaciated goat – furious – kicking in its last fevered moment.
Someone's vision shudders across my window, flickers
foreground/background for a moment and then all the air gathers around my home.
The trees stop swaying. The groan of the bending forest disembodies itself
and stands like a column of violin-notes, whispers as through a flute,
jams itself through a crack in the glass, whistles the dark folk-songs of the forest
through a black web. The forest is old. It knows how to hide itself on the ground.
Up here I see that it is too late. The Earth is marching on the cities of man.
It left its home before we first drew breath from the unwilling sky. It felt us growing
inside of it like a tumour. It has been left to wonder, why, if everything is perfect,
this war with God's creatures? Why have I been chosen to bear these walking ghosts
through the void of Your Frustration? So the storm is born away from men,
over the oceans in great invisible disturbances. They are taught the love of earthly silence.
They are shown the great blue mirror below, the perverse nature of visibility,
the melancholy love of sleeping pale bodies drifting in outer space for the object
of their violet dreams; that rock; that green thing where a single mind grew
like an edible fungus from the first invisibility to where everything
is seen at Once.
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VIII. (Duende In A Dying World)
In winter my leg creeks under me like a hidden corner of the love
that Adrienne Rich kept forever in a room made of windowpanes
in a white house at the bottom of the ocean. Sub-tidal groans
and bending iron huffing their titanic conspiracy through busy waters
as my lover lays beside me, her colour returning to her
out of years that had been given up and now school around her cheeks
to nibble at her delusions of death. Here there is no one shape
but the minute sliding contours of renaissance paintings of fair-skinned
women fading in collections under the hot sun of enterprise, its many sons
shouldering past her, strong legs carrying them to her receding history,
a point on the horizon that can never disappear but hides behind shuddering heat
and calls like a bedroom lamp at the other end of a plane-ride or a tree in the desert.
In winter my leg creeks under me like my lover's homemade voice in corporate air.
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VIIII. (The Two Houses)
In winter's house you are a spectre that brings candlelight and desire
to illumine your white translucent face, the slanted plain of your shoulders,
your mouth a tiny black waterfall in the distance falling closer in an aura of pink sun –
holograms and negatives of the other house, the red and brown summers of paradise,
old continents of voice roaring at each other with laughter, yawning stains of yellow sound –
all moving under your half-invisibility like inductive words or insects hunting for life in the cellar.
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X. (Man The Heavenly Body; Notes For A Novel)
Man the windmill spins in cornfields and throws lightning back to heaven
through metacognitive cloud cover and flocks of death-eating birds
while the kingdom of the animals groans and reaches around him –
shows him he is not one of anything but himself.
Man the electricity addict stalks every easy side-street, every house of great
literacy, every pocket of unguarded creation to eat his ascension with bread
and waterfalls.
Man the executive power of the mind is pure observation tainted with the oil
of centuries of successful excavation.
Man the heavenly body dictates gravity from a relative sphere into the compacted centre.
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XI. (Plea To The Terrified)
Your bright muscular head of fire and the flesh of Autumn lose cohesion in eternity.
You sit like a statue of lunar stone, a holographic salad of humanity on a bed of blue waves,
a naval unwinding hidden by shivering legs and knocked knees in the ghost of the stomach.
If you are, as you say, a shadow of your brain, pretend as is your ken to stop swimming
in the green branches of hypothetical nauseas and accept the fact that pain too is shadow.
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XII. (The Hospital)
Excess white rolls like smoke from the hospital's dozen eyes.
It eats us again and again under sanguinous light, its senses full and useless,
all our bodily deaths presided over by automatic liturgies –
litanies of blood-glow from the ceilings, one vast abbreviation
of life and a retelling that fades before it hits the eye.
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XIII. (The Poor Man From The Bottom Up, Not Saying Much)
“Two thousand years of absurd colour from a single animal's misfortune,
and he the Inventor, Scientist, Magi, Buddha, giver of names and giver of shit.
Two thousand years of prismatic evidence that lines converge eventually
even when the source is pure and white and saw Detail rushing with the Urge
into Reality, from the eros a thought has into the Present. The sight of this
could be called God, but that would not be saying much.” he said.
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XIV. (Words Of The Sun To The Cold, Lit Earth)
Sun is a teacher with the room of midnight lying autochthonic
around its liquid flesh and babbling bone.
Sun opens its west wing to the cries of possibility rolling somewhere
in the field, its east wing to the study of history.
The orange cities ask their questions about men and the fairytales of outer-space.
Sun is strong and reins-in the prismatic truth to preach white wisdom
from what appears at first a trajectory, then a central fixture, and later another path.
The taut mind rests for centuries in each state, learns the diagrams,
the zazen of epektatis, and moves again – destiny from destiny – forgetting.
The orange wounds ask Sun their questions. Sun answers, “Men under will
shall know deception the way they know the darkness of their own eye.
They will pace around irregular furniture, and one will say, 'This is good!,
an act of creation!, the Truth!'” Sun turns like a smiling father
from the grave of its child to receding cries of “Wait! Tell us now of photosynthesis!
Tell us now of the prophecy that ends us! Tell us! Tell us now...!”
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XV. (Confession Of A Lonely Great Lakes Sailor)
“Madness is a viscous island on the river of ignorance,
self-sustaining and admirable like racist war veterans,
admirable because when I am on the river in my small boat
I feel eerie, as though alone despite the cormorants
and the vein-surge of the current carrying my weight,
admirable because I have thought myself holy, and have become ignorant,
and have thought myself ignorant and have stayed that way,
and have visited the quicksand madness and have thrashed there
and have become used to breathing through cracks
no bigger and no more poetic than a mustard seed.”