Vindicated

You're probably asking why am I here again drowning you with my blahs and whatnots. I just needed to blow off some steam. There's a lot going on in my mind right now and I am starting to get all blurry in there again. My thoughts overwhelm me, again they're getting too much for me to handle. So yeah, I think this is enough for now, maybe soon I'll talk to you again. Something's bothering me and I don't know if I will find the courage to tell you what it is but as of the moment, let me try to do something about it. 

Yet it will never be enough for comfort, verbal or written, no matter how you deliver it.

It's having yourself defeated in an argument that never started.

Coz supposedly it’s gonna be our first Christmas and New Year together but he’s going out of town and I’m gonna be left here so yeah, we’ve had our exchange of gifts and tomorrow will be the time for fireworks.

When somebody breaks their promises, swallowed the things they have said to you - the things that have hurt you. If only words can be used as something to hit someone in the face.

Does it happen to you? When you're just sitting in one corner playing your favorite video game or just reading your favorite book or indulging in your favorite dessert then all of a sudden you hear voices - not from around you but from inside your head. Its like a million people talking to you all at the same time. You try to catch some words but every time you get some, words after words come jumbling, banging in your head making the thoughts more unfathomable. They overwhelm you by their great speed making you focus all your senses into them. Sooner you will feel the heaviness it brings you, the faster you try your mind to engage to the words the slower you feel your body reacts to what you're doing. You start loosing your grip to your device or your book or your spoon, your body slows down yet your mind still chases the voices it hears. Until the dizziness intervenes and you've got nothing left to do but succumb to it. Can somebody explain why this occurs?

You don't know how nice this is, but I do. I know you baby. I know. ^_^

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