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I just watched this on twt (apparently connorâs song choice for this scene) and I actually canât stop thinking about it. I want it. I want the feeling this song creates I need to write this feeling im clawing my eyeballs out of my skull right now
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you deserve a better life as in never let the bad thoughts tell you otherwise. you deserve a better life as in thatâs not easy to acquire, but if it is ever a possibility, donât deny yourself it. you deserve a better life as in you deserve good things.

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I told someone today that they are important. It broke my heart when they told me "no one has ever told me I am important before." If no one has told you, you are important. You specifically, are important. Your existence matters. Your life matters. You are important.
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âł summary ââ heesung's got two problems: (1) he can't sleep, and (2) he's addicted to the 1AM combo of instant ramyeon and coffee milk from his favorite convenience store around the corner. the only thing more consistent than his insomnia? his nightly visits for his beloved snacks (and maybe to glare at the new night shift employee, too). &Â pstt, spoiler alert: you're the said new night shift employee. and you don't know what's worse: his weird food choices or his apparent superiority complex. either way, if you have to watch him inhale another bowl like it's his last meal ever, you might lose it. but hey, you know what they sayâthereâs a fine line between love and hate...
âł pairing ââ heeseung x f!reader
âł genre ââ idol!heeseung, e2l!au, strangers to lovers!au, convenience store worker!reader || angst hehe, crack, eventual fluff
âł âá° 15.4k (gasp, she kept it under 20k????)
âł contains ââ so much bickering and banter, reader is kinda sassy and a lil crazy, heeseung is a lil weirdo at first, CRACK (this entire fic revolves around EXTRA HELL FIRE RAMEN PLS), angst, both heeseung & reader can't communicate their feelings & are stubborn as hell, tension tension tension! , deep conversations about life choices lol, cursing
âł addie's â .á ââ IM ALIVE (barely) ! i survived a global expedition (one 12 hr flight) just to come back and face an apocalypse (i got a bug infection and a cold) but dragged myself out of my deathbed (my comfy bed) to finish editing this because i told yall i would and bc i felt bad ghosting everyone for a week LOL apologies (if anyone cares,,,pls tell me u do or i'll cry rn) anyways i hope yall enjoy this one,,,this one was fun to write, it felt very sitcom-y and was lowkey based off of backstreet rookie vibes (only bc it's set in a convenience store). i hope you all enjoy & pls let me know what you think :') thank u for the support & love always <3
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Itâs simple, really.Â
Customer service voice on, a smile plastered on your face, greet the customer, scan the item, take their money, bag said item, throw in a half-hearted âHave a good night!â
And repeat.Â
Well, most of the time.Â
Occasionally, thereâs the fun of kicking out a few drunk teenagers looking for a bathroom that you definitely donât have (yes you do). But otherwise, this graveyard shift at your local corner convenience store?Â
Total dream job.Â
You get paidâas in actual, legit moneyâto sit behind a counter, scan snacks, and feast on your personal holy trinity of microwavable cheesy ramen, peach juice, and potato chips. What could possibly go wrong?Â
At least, thatâs how the manager sold it during your interview. And by interview, you mean the three-minute conversation that went something like:Â
âCan you work nights?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
âCool, youâre hired.âÂ
No background check, no follow-up questions, not even a glance at your resume. A broke college student with insomnia and schedule flexibility? You were the perfect candidate.Â
And itâs not like youâre picky. You needed cash, and this seemed like a pretty solid deal. What can you say? College is expensive, and someoneâs gotta fund your caffeine addiction and deeply specific (and yet completely necessary, you would argue) habit of playing at every single claw machine game you stumble across.Â
So yeah. Easy work.
At least, that's what you thought.
Because on the night of your first shift, exactly at 1:09AM, the doorbell gives its friendly little ding, and in walks...something.
Someone?
Whatever it is, it's a walking shadow. Oversized hoodie. Baggy pants. A baseball cap shoved under the hood. A black face mask covering whateverâs left of his identity. You think itâs either a ninja, a celebrity in disguise, orâmore likelyâa vampire who hasnât seen sunlight since the Joseon era (youâre leaning more towards vampire).
But more than the wild theories running around in your head, something else piques your curiosity.
Because unlike the other weirdos that usually shuffle in at these ungodly hours, this one moves with true purpose. He beelines straight to the ramen aisle, snags something off the top shelf (most likely the ultra-spicy soup one because, of course, you already have the shelves memorized), and then grabs a bottle of coffee milk from the cold drinks section without even so much as glancing at it.
No hesitation. No second-guessing. Like heâs done this a thousand times before and is now on autopilot mode.
You watch, intrigued. And thenâhorrified.
Because who in the right mind pairs volcanic spicy ramen with coffee milk? Is that even legal?
Youâre barely recovering from your own appalled thoughts before heâs already at the counter, placing his borderline apocalyptic snack combination on the counter in front of you with the same eerie precision he has.
You fail to keep your poker face on when you scan his items, your face scrunching up in disgust.
âUh,â you shake it off, forcing yourself back to reality, âThatâll beââ
But before you can even finish your sentence, heâs already fishing out the exact amountâthree crisp billsâout his back pocket and holds it out for you.
Thereâs a beat of silence.
You stare down at the money in his hand for a second too long, suddenly convinced this guy practices his convenience store interactions in the mirror or something.
When you donât show any further signs of moving, he eventually gives up, placing the money on the counter with a quiet sigh, grabbing his ramen and coffee milk, and striding off to the self-service corner like he personally owns the place.
All of this. Without. A single. Thank you.
Wow. Okay. So tonightâs customer is potentially a vampire with a side gig as a professional jerk. Good to know.
You internally scoff at the entire interaction, butâunfortunately for youâyou canât look away. Because this guy? This walking shadow?
Youâre weirdly intrigued. Like when you accidentally click on a pimple-popping video and immediately regret it, but still end up watching five more.
Itâs a curse.
Out of the corner of your eye (because obviously youâre not staring, youâre justâŠhyper-aware of your surroundings), you watch him execute his ramen-and-coffee-milk routine with the precision of a man possessed.
Step one: Hot water in the ramen cup.
Step two: Ramen into the microwave.
Step three: Wait for exactly one beep before yanking the microwave door open with alarming speed, as if he's scared to even give the second beep the chance to ring.
Step four: Peel the lid back in slowlyâso painfully slow you're about to march over there and do it yourself.
Step five: Insert the straw into the coffee milkâof course, perfectly right in the center. Bullseye.
Honestly? It's all kind of impressive. Horrifying, but impressive.
And, of course, just when you think you might finally look away, because out of sight, out of mindâhe slides onto one of the bar stools by the window, right in your direct line of vision. The perfect spot for you to get a pristine view of his back, which, spoiler alert, is completely unhelpful in your personal mission in trying to see even a glimpse of what this guy looks like.
Maybe if you squint hard enough, you can make out his face in the reflection of the store window. Maybe. Just maybeâ
Nope.
All you catch is a brief glimpse of his eyesâbarely visible beneath his excessive hoodie and hat combination. Even his mask stays glued to his face and you wonder how he even plans on eating his outrageous meal.
But even so, you still canât look away. What even is that color? And why canât you look away?
Whatever. Itâs just eyes. Totally normal. Everyone has them. Not noteworthy at all.
Except it is.
Because you catch yourself still squinting, hoping the glare of the fluorescent lighting against the window hides your not so subtle mission from him. Youâre probably risking retinal damage at this point with how hard youâre trying to decode this guyâs entire identity from literally just his eyes.
You catch another short glimpse of his eyes as he shuffles in his seat and just as youâre trying to piece together why his eyes look oddly familiarâ
He looks up.
His eyes catch yours in the glaring reflection of the store's windows, and you freeze.
Abort mission. Now.
You coughâloudly, dramaticallyâand your eyes immediately dart elsewhere, your hands shuffling on the discounted candy bars displayed on the counter top, pretending to look busy and silently praying he didn't catch you looking for too long.
When enough time passes by, you risk another quick glance back at him, to see heâs now digging into his ramen, head tucked so low you canât even see his eyes anymore. Heâs gone full turtle mode.
You lift a brow.
Weirdo.
A weirdo with an ego. Slurping and sipping away at his crime-against-humanity meal as if he owns the building.
Maybe he's mute. Or a people-hater. Or a cryptid who thrives on ramen and coffee milk instead of human interaction. Maybe I'm being pranked?
You shrug it off, because no matter how hard you try to figure him out, one thing is glaringly obvious: he does not want to be bothered.
And you're not sure if that makes him more intriguing or more annoying.
Youâre in the clear. At least, you think youâre in the clear.Â
After your first weird encounter with Mr. No-Name-No-Faceâspicy ramen enthusiast and potential vampireâyouâve begrudgingly adjusted to his nightly visits.Â
He shows up at 1:09AM like clockwork, grabs his neon red Extra Spicy Hellfire Ramen (yes, thatâs the real brand name, and yes, your soul dies a little every time you even have to think about it), and parks himself in the window seat across from your counter like itâs a Michelin-star ramen barâand not your humble convenience store with a health inspection rating of B+ (donât ask).Â
By night three, youâve downgraded him from potential murderer to mildly annoying ramen connoisseur.Â
By night four, youâve decided heâs your own personal karma sent by the universe.Â
It starts off with the door chime. You donât even flinch. 1:09AM. Right on schedule.Â
You donât look up from the colorful juice pouches youâre restocking. Youâre halfway through creating a perfectly symmetrical pyramid displayâcolor-coded, of courseâbecause, clearly, youâve peaked as a human being.Â
Behind you, footsteps head straight to the ramen aisle. And sure enough, you peek over your shoulder, and there he is: drowning in black hoodie layers, hood up, mask on, the patron saint of please donât perceive me. Same old routine, same oldâ
Wait.Â
He freezes, mid-reach for his usual ramen on the top shelf, his hand hovering in the air. And then, horrifyingly, he turns.Â
And looks directly at you.Â
Your face heats upâprobably not as red as the hellfire ramen he was about to grab, but itâs close, you imagine. You find yourself clutching onto the random juice pouch in your hand as if itâs your lifeline before you clear your throat, âUhâis something wrong?âÂ
He glances from you and back to the shelf in front of him, and for the first time inâŠever, he speaks.Â
Gasp.Â
So we can cross mute off the list.Â
âTheyâre out of my flavor,â he says. His voice is deep, which isnât surprising to you, given heâs the literal human embodiment of the color black, but itâs also serious. So unnecessarily serious that you almost laugh.Â
Almost.Â
Because his tone isnât just seriousâitâs accusatory. As if you personally raided the ramen aisle and hid his favorite flavor for entertainment.Â
Excuse me?Â
Your mouth opens then closes, flopping like a fish that now deeply regrets every life choice. The fire rising in your chest is about two seconds away from erupting into a full-blown lecture on how supply chains work, but you keep it in, deciding getting fired on the fourth day probably doesnât look good on your resume.Â
Instead, you plaster on a flat, unimpressed look.Â
âUh..yeah, it looks like it,â you deadpan, inching closer to where heâs standing to investigate the shelf.Â
Leaning up on your toes, you scan the shelf for any hidden Hellfire cups, hoping some miracle will save you from continuing this interaction.Â
Nope. Itâs empty alright. Emptier than your will to entertain his dramatics.Â
âTragic,â you glance back at him, strategically avoiding eye contact, and settle on offering a shrug. âThere are plenty of other flavors. Maybe tryâŠthe regular spicy?âÂ
You grab the flavor below his usual one and hold it up as an olive branch, but he cuts you off with a tone that even convinces you that youâre deranged.Â
âNo.âÂ
You blink.Â
âNo?âÂ
âIt has to be Extra Spicy Hellfire.âÂ
You blink again.Â
You wait for the punchline.
It never comes.Â
This man is dead serious.Â
Youâre standing in the middle of a fluorescent-lit ramen aisle, at your minimal wage night-shift job, at 1:12AM on a random Tuesday, and this guy is dead serious.Â
And heâs staring at you like this is a life-or-death situation. And judging from the look in his eyes, itâs looking like youâre facing death.Â
But then, you really notice his eyes. And for a split secondâjust a split secondâyouâre derailed from your rising anger.Â
Theyâre brown. But not just any brownâthe kind of brown that makes poets write bad metaphors. Cinnamon swirls. Autumn leaves. Possibly falling in love in a Hallmark Christmas movie.Â
But then you blink again, hard, snapping yourself out of whatever ridiculous moment your sleep-deprived brain just conjured. This is not the time. Youâre literally staring at, like, three inches of this guyâs face.Â
And heâs a jerk. Get a grip, Y/N.Â
âUh, yeah,â you clear your throat, trying your best to sound professional through your disbelief. âSorry. We probably put in our shipment request late. But Iâm sure you wonât implode by going one night without it?âÂ
You tack on a small laugh and smile at the end of your sentence, hoping to lighten the mood.Â
He does not smile back.Â
Not even a flicker.Â
Instead, he continues to stare at you like you just suggested he eat plain, untoasted bread for the rest of his life.Â
You want to bury yourself into a hole. Maybe getting fired on the fourth day wonât be so bad afterall.Â
âIâm sure the regular spicy one is just as good. Whatâs the worst that could happen?â you offer weakly when he makes no sign of saying anything, and you really hope this guy doesnât explode in front of youâmainly because youâre not confident in your own ability to explain that situation to your manager.Â
âIâm not risking it,â he finally deadpans.Â
Your jaw drops slightly.Â
âYouâre not risââ you hesitate, debating whether you want to ruin your night further. But youâve come this far. âYouâre beingâŠserious?âÂ
The question lined with your clear judgement hangs in the air between you two, and no amount of fake customer service can mask the expression of disapproval on your face.Â
His eyes narrow at you as he scoffs, âYou wouldnât understand.âÂ
âOh, I understand,â you tilt your head, your annoyance slowly reaching a boiling point, throwing all professionalism out the window. All you wanted was to enjoy your juice-sorting in peace, not babysit this walking ramen manifesto. âI understand that youâre just picky.âÂ
At that, his eyes flashâsharp, unreadable. âIâm not picky.âÂ
âYou wonât eat a perfectly fine ramen just because itâs not named after the ninth circle of hell.âÂ
Silence.Â
He stares at you with the intensity of someone about to write a strongly worded online review.Â
Finally, with an exaggerated sigh, he finally mutters, âFine. Iâll take the mild one.âÂ
You blink at the flavor in your handâthe one thatâs clearly labeled in giant, blazing-red, font: Regular Spicy. Then you look back at him.Â
âYou mean regular spicy.âÂ
âRight. Whatever. Same thing.âÂ
He grabs the ramen cup from your hand and stalks off to grab his usual coffee milk, leaving you stranded in the middle of the ramen aisle, questioning every life choice that brought you here.Â
Before youâre about to mentally spiral, his voice cuts through the store.Â
âHello?âÂ
Oh. Right. Your job.Â
You scramble back to behind the register, quickly moving your hands to ring him up and get him out of here as soon as possible.Â
He hands you his three crisp bills, and before you hand him his glorified ramen and godforsaken coffee milk, you hesitate, pulling them back slightly. He freezes, his hands hanging in the air between you two.Â
âYou know,â you narrow your eyes as you look up at him, âsome people would say thank you for the recommendation.âÂ
His brow archesâor at least, you think it does. Itâs hard to completely tell under his stupid hat. Then he fires backâ
âAnd some people wouldnât forget to restock the ramen.âÂ
Your mouth falls open, your words failing you as he grabs his goods from your hands, heading to the self-serve station to continue his nightly noodle worship as if he didnât just verbally body-slam you.Â
Yeah. Itâs going to be a long night.Â
Life is unpredictable, uncontrollable, and chaotic.Â
Lee Heeseungâs life? Heeseungâs life is that times ten, with an extra sprinkle of what-is-even-happening-anymore?Â
Between back-to-back choreo sessions, recording tracks at hours that shouldnât legally exist, and navigating the emotional and physical minefield of constant shows, interviews, photoshootsâyou name itânothing about his life is consistent.Â
Howeverâ
There are two thingsâtwo sacred constantsâthat keep Heeseung from spiraling into total madness.Â
The first?Â
Insomnia.Â
Not by choice, of course. He doesnât love being awake at 3AM, staring at his ceiling and waiting for sleep to take over. But itâs a loyal companion, like a stray cat that keeps showing up at your house no matter how hard you try to shoo it away. Heeeseungâs insomnia is always there for him, night after night, ensuring he gets exactly only four hours of sleepâwith a side of existential dread.Â
And the second?Â
Extra Spicy Hellfire ramen and coffee milk.Â
Yes, itâs a weird combo.Â
No, he doesnât care.Â
This unlikely pairing is Heeseungâs personal slice of heaven he can actually control and choose in a life otherwise ruled by the rest of the world.Â
Every night, he drags himself to his favorite corner store, grabs his fiery ramen and sweet, creamy coffee milk, and plants himself in the window seat to enjoy his culinary masterpiece in peace.Â
Thenâand only thenâcan Heeseung catch a few hours of sleep, the spice-induced euphoria lulling himself into a temporary state of calm.Â
Does he have a problem? Absolutely.Â
Is he addicted? Without a doubt.Â
Does he care? Not in the slightest.Â
Because in a world that demands he change at the drop of a hat, this little routine of his is the one thing that stays consistent.Â
Well, except for last night.Â
Because last night, someone dared to disrupt the cosmic balance of his existence. Someone failed to restock his precious Extra Spicy Hellfire ramen.Â
He had stared at the empty spot on the shelf, the betrayal hitting him like a personal attack. He went home last night only a quarter satisfied from the mild spicy ramen he had settled with.Â
And the worst part?Â
He couldnât stop thinking about the someone responsible.Â
Now here he is, stepping into the corner store at 1:09AM, ready to make up for last nightâs disappointment of an outcome.Â
Heeseung steps into the brightly lit store, the familiar ding ringing behind him as he enters right on time. He continues his familiar route to the ramen aisle, but not before shooting a quick glance from below his hat toward the counter.Â
Yup, there she is.Â
You.Â
The new graveyard shift employee. The one who dared to challenge his sacred ramen ritual and stared at him like he was a walking poor life choice.Â
Youâre here again. This is five nights in a row. Heeseung wonders if you 1) are insane, 2) have no life, or 3) are purely here just to spite him.Â
But tonight, heâs prepared. His focus is razor-sharp, his mission clear: Extra Spicy Hellfire and coffee milk. Nothing will get in the way tonight.Â
Heeseung looks up, exhaling in relief when he spots the fiery red packaging of the Extra Spicy Hellfire sitting innocently on the shelf. There you are.Â
He grabs the cup (with too much excitement that it should honestly embarrass him), cradling it like a long-lost love, before he makes his way to snag his coffee milk.Â
Perfect combo. Perfect routine. Perfect night.Â
Exceptâ
Except, of course, youâre watching him. Again.Â
He doesnât even need to look up to know it. He can feel your judging eyes burning into the back of his head like you did the other nightâlike youâre seconds away from filing a report against his own taste buds.Â
He doesnât get itâwhatâs so strange about ramen and coffee milk? Itâs not like heâs dipping the noodles in it. Why youâve made it your personal mission to antagonize him, he has no idea, but itâs really throwing him off his ramen zen.Â
Heeseung sighs to himself as he steps up to the counter, making sure you hear the sheer misery in this voiceâbecause, of course, fate has cursed him with yet another encounter with you.
âSoâŠdo you actually enjoy these together, or are you just trying to destroy your stomach lining?âÂ
He freezes. Great, youâre talking. So much for a perfect night.Â
He adjusts his cap to peer at you and that same unimpressed, judgmental look sitting on your face as you lean against the counter behind you. âWhatâs wrong with my choices?âÂ
Your eyebrows shoot up, âWhat's right with them? This combo screams, âI have unresolved issues Iâm trying to boil away with spicy and sugar.ââÂ
Okay, ouch.Â
Heeseung narrows his eyes, trying to ignore the weird pinch in his chest at how quickly you read him, whether he likes to admit it or not.Â
âI like them. Thatâs all that matters,â his voice drips with a certain sharpness, hoping the edge in his tone is enough to make you back off.Â
You, however, seem entirely unfazed.
âJust trying to help,â you shrug as you scan his items, âlooking out for your poor taste buds.âÂ
For a moment, Heeseung considers firing back, but then his gaze catches yours for a millisecond too long as you take his cash and, immediately, heâs wonderingâfor the hundredth timeâif you know.Â
Do you recognize him?Â
The thought has been gnawing at him since the first time he stepped into this store and saw you sitting there five days ago. Sure, heâs got his identity pretty much concealed under his borderline clinically insane hat-mask-hoodie combo, but stillâmost people at least give him a double take, a lingering glance. Something.Â
But you? Nothing. No flash of recognition. No curiosity. Nothing to indicate you know youâre talking to Lee Heeseungâpart idol, part insomniac, 100% ramen enthusiast.Â
And for some reason, that both annoys and intrigues him.Â
âThanks for your concern,â Heeseung mumbles dryly, quickly grabbing the ramen cup and cold drink from your hands.Â
âNo problem,â you chirp just as sarcastically, an annoying smile on your face. âEnjoy yourâŠuh, gourmet meal.â
Heeseung throws you one last glare before shaking his head and stalking off to the self-serve station. He puts the cup down on the counter with a little more force than necessary and pours boiling water over the noodles, glaring into the steam as your voice rings in his head.Â
Whatâs wrong with ramen and coffee milk? He scowls. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. And I definitely donât have unresolved issues.Â
But as he steals a glance back at the check-out counter and catches you sorting bills like nothing happened, a weird unease settles in his chest.Â
He looks down at this ramen, then at the coffee milk.Â
For the first time ever, he feelsâŠself-conscious.Â
And now youâre in his head.Â
Great.Â
By night six, you donât know whether to pity the guy or stage an intervention.
The ding of the automatic doors announces his arrival, as usual, at exactly 1:09AM. You know itâs himâRamen Guy. The guy who youâre convinced single-handedly continues to keep the Extra Spicy Hellfire ramen business float.Â
You lean against the counter and subtly watch him make his usual pilgrimage to the ramen aisle, internally scoffing to yourself at the weird moment he picks up his ramen like itâs his newborn child.
Heâs so weird.Â
You wonder what kind of person he is outside this convenience store. Does he always make such objectively strange choices? Like, does he wear socks with sandals? Does he mix his cereal with orange juice instead of milk?Â
Your haunting thoughts are interrupted by the sound of his usual unholy pair of snacks hitting the counter in front of you with a soft thunk. You look down at the items before glancing back up at him with a skeptical look on your face, âYou ever think about switching it up?â
Ramen Guy, clearly expecting the snark, doesnât miss a beat, âYou ever think about minding your business?âÂ
âNot really. Boredom makes me nosy,â you shrug. âAnd at this point, youâre the only thing keeping me entertained at this hour.âÂ
He rolls his eyes so dramatically youâre mildly concerned he might sprain something.Â
âAnd Iâm starting to think you like judging me a little too much.âÂ
âWrong. I like judging everyone equally,â you scan his items, then tilt your head. âBut maybe youâre a special case. With issues.âÂ
To your surprise, he snorts. Like, an actual, out-loud laugh.Â
âSays the girl who voluntarily works the night shift.â
Your smirk falters for half a second. He catches it.
Ramen Guy raises an eyebrow, leaning casually against the counter. âWhat? Too close to home?â
You shift in your spot, âBold of you to assume I have issues.â
He shrugs, looking entirely too pleased with himself.
You shift the attention back to him. âWhat about you, then? Why do you keep showing up here, huh?â
At that, something changes. The words in the air, and for the first time, you notice a slight shift in his demeanorâthe slight awkwardness in the way he shifts his weight.Â
Then, after a brief pause, he meets your gaze and throws the question right back at you.
âWhy do you keep working the night shift?â
You freeze, putting his items back down on the counter, caught off guard by the reversal. "Touché. But I asked first."
There's hesitation again for a moment, his fingers tapping the edge of the counter impatientlyânervously?
"I like the peace and quiet,â he finally says, and for the first time tonight, he meets your eyes.
For a split second, youâre startled by the sincerity in his gaze and sudden shift in toneâitâs almost distracting. But you shake yourself out of it just as quickly.
"Nothing about Extra Spicy Hellfire and coffee milk sounds peaceful or quiet," your voice softer now but still teasing.
"Okay, Miss Graveyard Shift," he fires back, leaning a little closer over the counter. "Why are you here every night? Do you have a thing for fluorescent lighting and cleaning up after drunk customers or something?"
You don't miss the faint challenge in his voice as you narrow your eyes at him.
Then, you settle for a shrug and take a breath, answering honestly.
"It's flexible. Pays well enough," you start, before looking back at him, and add, almost as an afterthought, "...and I like the quiet too."
Itâs an honest answer, one that seems to hang in the air between you two for a beat too long. His gaze softens ever so slightly, and you swear you see something shift underneath that stupid cap of his, but before you can dwell on it, he straightens up.
He places his three bills on the counter, grabs his items, and pauses.
âSo,â he starts, his lighter tone breaking the silence, âdo you have a name, or should I just keep calling you Graveyard Shift Girl?â
You raise a brow, amused, as you start putting his bills away, âDo you have a name, or should I just keep calling you Ramen Guy?â
For a split second, you think you see something flicker in his eyesâsomething smug, something entertained. And you donât know it, but under his mask, his lips twitch, fighting back a faint smile.
âTouchĂ©,â he murmurs, echoing your earlier words before stepping back from the counter, items in hand, but lingers just a moment longer than necessaryâlike he wants to say something else.
But he doesnât. Instead, he turns towards the self-serve station, falling back into his regular routine.
And you should do the same.
You try to do the same. But as you go back to your usual tasksâwiping down the counter, restocking shelves, pretending to be productiveâyou find yourself sneaking glances out of the corner of your eye toward his window seat.
He just sits there, just like he always does, stirring his ramen absentmindedly as he stares out into the empty street. And yet, tonight, something feelsâŠdifferent.
Itâs nothing. You tell yourself itâs nothing.
Just curiosity. Natural, given how he keeps showing up every night, breaking up the monotony of your shift with his weird food choices and even weirder personality.
And yetâ
No matter how hard you try, you canât seem to stop thinking about himâthe way he looked at you earlier, the way his demeanor shifted even slightly.
Itâs nothing.
Still, your gaze flickers back at him, catching the way his fingers tap lightly against the table, lost in thought. You wonder what kind of things keep a guy like him up at night.
And maybeâjust maybeâyouâre starting to find his weird little habits endearing, too.
The faint sound of the storeâs music plays in the background, the clock ticks, and eventually, he finishes his ramen, tosses his trash, and makes his way toward the door.
And thenâhe hesitates.
Just for a second. A small pause, a barely-there moment where he stops, glances over his shoulder just slightlyâjust enough to look at you.
âSee you tomorrow, Graveyard Shift Girl.â
You blink, caught off guard, and for a moment, all you can manage is to stare at him. Then, as you fail to ignore the weird blooming feeling in your chest, your words slip out almost on instinct:
"Goodnight, Ramen Guy."
The next night, you do something completely out of character, entirely unprovoked, and maybe just a little bit unhingedâyou take your cheesy ramen, peace juice pouch, and bag of potato chips and plop yourself down right next to Ramen Guy and his usual window seat.Â
He pauses mid-slurp. Keeping his head low, he turns to you slowly. Suspiciously.
âWhatâŠare you doing?âÂ
âHaving dinner,â you say matter-of-factly, popping open your bag of chips.Â
His gaze drops to your meal, and then back to you. âItâs almost 1:30AM.âÂ
âOkay? Dinner, early breakfast, midnight snack, call it whatever you want,â you shrug, unbothered as you continue unwrapping your meal.Â
Ramen Guy exhales through his nose, shaking his head to himself like heâs just accepted his fate. Without another word, he turns back to his own meal and resumes eating.Â
A surprisingly comfortable silence followsâthe only sounds filling the empty store the quiet hum of the storeâs playlist, the buzz of the lights above you, and the synchronized slurp of two insomniacs with poor diet choices.Â
Then, without thinking, you tilt your bag of potato chips, holding it out between you two, âWant one?â
He stops mid-motion, as if heâd almost forgotten you were still here.
Almost.
A glance into your bag, a small shrug, and then, just like that, he grabs a chip and pops it into his mouth, moving so fast you barely catch a glimpse of his face without the mask.
âThanks,â he mutters before taking a sip of his coffee milk, still keeping his head low.
You hum in response, your fingers drumming against the counter before your curiosity wins the best of you, âSoâŠwhat kind of life leads you to seek peace and quiet in a convenience store?â
Itâs a question thatâs been on your mind since last nightâs conversation. What can you say? Youâre a creature of curiosity.
Ramen Guy shrugs next to you, âWhat do you mean?â
âLikeâŠyouâre here every night. Why at night? Why not during the day?â
He lets out a short chuckle. âYou want me to leave?â
âI didnât say that.â
âSure sounded like it.â
You exhale sharply, your fingers now absentmindedly swirling the noodles in your bowl. âLook, Iâm just sayingâmost people are asleep at this hour.â
He smirks. You can hear it in his voice without even looking. âYouâre here too, arenât you?â
âThatâs different, this is my job,â you scoff, amused, before pointedly gesturing at this meal before him, âUnless you want to call your weird habits a job. Which, honestly, I wouldnât be surprised if someone was paying you to subject your tastebuds to that every night.â
And he laughs. Itâs small, barely there, but you catch it. Then, with a quiet exhale, he finally answers, âItâs like I told you before, I like the quiet at this hourâŠI donât get a lot of that.â
You stop twirling your noodles, the air shifting into that same unspoken understanding from last night. Faint, but unmistakable.
Something unsaid hanging between the two of you, something that tells you this guy is more than just an insomniac with questionable food choices.
You tilt your head. âSo, what, you got a bunch of loud roommates or something?â
A small, almost knowing smile tugs at his lips. âSomething like that.â
You raise a brow at his vague answer but donât press. Instead, you nod towards his food. âAnd your criminal meals? That part of the quiet too?â
He huffs, âMaybe I just have superior taste.â
âRight, totally,â you laugh, the tone in your voice almost testing him.Â
Ramen Guy finishes up his meal, wiping his mouth quickly with a napkin before putting his mask back on and finally turning to face you fully.
He narrows his eyes at you, âYou think you have me all figured out?â
You mirror his actions, facing him fully for the first time tonight, folding your arms, âOh, I do have you all figured out, Ramen Guy.â
âOh yeah?â He leans forward slightly. âAlright, go on. Tell me who I am, Graveyard Psychic Girl.â
You roll your eyes but accept the challenge, leaning back in your seat.
âYouâre a creature of habit, clearly. You like consistency. Probably because your life is very inconsistent otherwise.â
Ramen Guy doesnât react, so you continue.
âYouâre a night owl, but not by choice. You want to sleep, but your brain wonât let you.â Your eyes flick down to the coffee milk. âSo, instead, you drink this, even though it probably makes it worse.â
Still no response.
âSo now, you just keep showing up here because itâs predictable,â you finish with a small shrug. âAnd maybeâŠâcause youâre kinda lonely.â
That makes him pause.
You immediately regret saying it. BecauseâŠwhat was that?
That was too much. Too deep. Too intrusive.
But to your surprise, he doesnât deflect. He doesnât scoff, or roll his eyes, or peer them at you the way he does a million times a night.
Instead, he tilts his head slightly, eyes glinting with something you canât quite place.
ââŠNot bad,â he says finally, reaching for another chip from the bag in your hands.
You blink. âWait, really?â
âI mean, kinda harsh, butâŠmostly true.â
âOh,â you donât know what you expected, but it wasnât that.
A beat of silence passes before Ramen Guy speaks up again, âSo basically, youâre saying weâre the same.â
You let out a snort, âNot even close.â
âWe both work weird hours. We both like the quiet. We both eat the same convenience store junk food.â He holds up the bag of potato chips before eating another one.
âYou just started eating those,â you deadpan.Â
âYeah, but Iâm still eating them, which means my taste is obviously elite.â
âYou literally eat coffee milk with nuclear ramen.â
âOkay, youâre the one who made it weird.â
A mischievous smile starts forming on your face as you snatch your bag of chips back from him, âSo you agree your food choices are weird?âÂ
His smirk falters as a small giggle rises out of you.Â
âWhatever you say, Graveyard Shift Girl.âÂ
The next night, Heeseung does something completely out of character, entirely unprovoked, and maybe just a little bit unhingedâheâs late. Itâs 1:30AM, well past his usual 1:09AM show-up time, and the store is Heeseung-less.
He blames late-night dance practice. He also blames Ni-ki for stealing his usual black hoodieâforcing him to spend an extra thirty minutes looking for another one. Not that the hoodie matters, he would argue (yes, it does).
When he finally steps through the door at 1:32AM, the familiar ding barely finishes echoing beforeâ
âWow,â you drawl from behind the counter, arms crossed. âTragic. Unbelievable. I was starting to think you found a new place to bother.â
Heeseung snorts, making a beeline for the ramen aisle, âYou wish. Wouldnât want you to get bored without me.â
You let out a dramatic gasp, âWow. Thoughtful and self-aware. Who knew you had layers?â
Heeseung tries to ignore you, moving to grab his coffee milk. But his lips twitch under his mask, and heâs glad itâs hiding the way heâs failing to fight the smile growing on his face.
When he finally reaches the counter, you push off from where you were leaning against the counter, hands settling on your hips. âOkay, be honest. Outside of this, do you have anything else going on in your life?âÂ
Heeseung raises a brow, completely caught off guard. If thereâs one thing heâs learned over the past few nights, itâs that youâre incredibly nosy. And for someone who claims to like working the night shift because of the quiet, youâre absolutely terrible at keeping things that way.Â
âExcuse me?â
âYou mentioned that you work weird hours yesterday,â you gesture vaguely at him. âSo, spill.â
His stare remains blank, debating if he can distract you by handing you his three bills of cash (he canât).
âI doâŠstuff.â
âStuff,â you repeat, âQuite riveting.â
Heeseung exhales, âWhy do you care?â
You shrug, taking his cash and putting it away. âYou must do something interesting. Youâre too weirdly confident for a guy who just bums around convenience stores at night.â
Heeseung scoffs. "Weirdly confident?"
"Yeah, likeâ" You wave around you. "You walk around like you have some big, mysterious purpose. But all I ever see you do is glare at instant noodles and sip milk like a sad Victorian child."
Heeseung shakes his head, letting out a breathy laugh. "Maybe that is my purpose."
Then, he simply shrugs. But thereâs something in his gazeâsomething unreadable, like heâs deciding exactly how much he wants to say.
"Itâs hard to explain,â he finally says. âI justâŠhave a weird work schedule.â
"Weird how?"
"Weird as in, I donât really get normal hours. Always moving, always working. Makes sleep kinda impossible."
You pause, taking in his words. Then, you shift slightly, crossing your arms. "Sounds exhausting."
Heeseung exhales a laugh, leaning against the counter. "You have no idea."
For a moment, a familiar and warm quiet fills the air as the two of you linger, as if waiting for the other to say something more.
And he doesnât know why, but his chest feels a little too tightâlike heâs let you stumble into a part of him you werenât supposed to see yet.
âWell,â you say quietly, your lips curving into a soft smile that sends a weird jolt through his body that he chooses to ignore. âIâm honored youâve chosen this fine establishment as your official sanctuary.â
He scoffs, reaching for his items. "Donât let it go to your head, Graveyard Shift Girl.â
He then turns to head to his usual corner whenâ
âY/N.â
Heeseung pauses, turning back at you like an awkward child lost in the middle of a store.
âMy name,â you clarify, casually returning to sorting the registerâs bills. âA lot easier to say than Graveyard Shift Girl.â
Heeseung gives you a slow nod, something unfamiliar and unplaceable twisting in his stomach as he turns back around.
And when he finishes his meal and leaves that night, he calls outâ
âSee you tomorrow, Y/N.â
And, this time, he doesnât fight the smile under his mask when he hears your voice, a little softer, call back out:
âGoodnight, Ramen Guy."
It happens the moment he steps inside.
Heeseung doesnât even make it past the threshold before a familiar melody drifts through the weak convenience store speakers and to his ears.
Familiar because heâs heard it a thousand times.
Familiar because itâs literally his voice singing the line.
His stomach drops.
Instead of his usual beeline to the ramen aisle, Heeseung turns towards the counter where youâre idly tapping on your phone, oblivious.
The hum of the melody continues, and Heeseung is suddenly too hyper-aware of how loud his own voice sounds in the otherwise dead-silent store.
Panic creeps up his spine.
He moves fast, crossing the store in a few long strides, slamming his hands down onto the counter that divides the two of you.
You jump in your seat.
âGeezââ you clutch your chest, wide-eyed as you take in his very sudden, very urgent presence. âWhat the hell?â
Heeseung ignores you, pointing above him, âDid you put this on?â
Your brows furrow as you put your phone down, glance up at him, then at the speakers heâs pointing at. You barely register the song before recognition flickers across your face.
âOhâthis? Nah, itâs the storeâs playlist,â you gesture towards the iPad behind the counter, currently playing a Current Hits playlist on shuffle. âItâs some groupâs new song. Pretty catchy.â
Heeseung just stares at you, mind racing.
You donât recognize it.
You donât recognize his voice.
The realization sends relief crashing over him, but he quickly snaps out of it with a brand-new problemâbecause now he has to decide what the hell to do with this information.
Does he tell you? Drop the act and lay it all out? Would you believe him? Would you even care?
âYou okay?â Now youâre staring at him, suspicious. âWhy do you look like youâve just seen a ghost?â
Heeseung clears his throat, realizing his stance is way too conspicuous, and slowly removes his hands from the counter to stand up straight, attempting to sound normal, âNo reason.âÂ
You squint at him.
Thenâ
âOh my god,â you gasp, eyes suddenly lighting up. âWait.â
His heart stops. Oh, shit. She figured it out. This is it.
âAre you a fan?â you blurt, leaning forward in your seat eagerly.
Heeseung blinks.
âŠWhat.
âOh, you totally are,â you continue, completely missing the way his soul is currently leaving his body. âYou came straight to the counter like a man on a mission. Oh my god. Are they, like, your favorite group or something?â
Heeseung has never wanted to laugh and cry at the same time more than he does in this moment.
âSomething like that,â he mutters, bringing a hand to rub this temple, because no way this is happening right now.
You beam brightly from your seat, âThatâs cute. Whoâs your bias?â
At that, Heeseung does laughâbecause this is now officially the most ridiculous thing thatâs ever happened to him.
âYou wouldnât believe me if I told you.â
âTry me.â
Thereâs a long pause.
And thenâafter a deep breath, a long and heated internal debate, and one last glance at your innocent, completely oblivious faceâhe finally exhales, looking you straight in the eye.
âThis guy,â he says as he hears his own voice ring out through the store. âBecause thatâs me. Thatâs my voice.â
Silence.
You stare at him.
You blink. Once. Twice.
Then, after what feels like an eternityâ
ââŠHuh?â
Then you tilt your head. "I'm sorryâwhat?"
Heeseung watches as your expression cycles from confusion to skepticism to outright disbelief. He braces himself.
"My name is Lee Heeseung," he repeats slowly. "From Enhypen."
Another beat of silence.
Thenâbecause youâre youâ
You burst out laughing.
"Okay, Ramen Guy," you snort, crossing your arms. "Very funny.â
Heeseung sighs, "I knew this would happen."
"Because youâre delusional?"
"Because you donât pay attention."
You roll your eyes, "Oh, Iâm sorry, but when in our thriving relationship have you ever given me a reason to believe that youâre actually a famous idol and not just some guy who has concerning dietary habits?"
Heeseung groans.
He regrets everything. He regrets this entire conversation. He could have lied. He could have said literally anything else. But noâhe had to be honest. And look where that got him.
"Iâm serious," he insists, leveling you with a look.
You stare back at him.
Then, something seems to click in your brain, because you suddenly lunge for your phone.
"Oh, weâre doing this," you mutter, fingers flying across the screen as you type in his name. "Letâs see ifâ"
You stop.
Heeseung watches as your eyes widen, scanning the images in front of you. Then you look up at him. Then back down at the phone.
Then back at him.
âTake the mask off,â you mutter quietly, slowly holding your phone up next to his face.
With an exhausted sigh, Heeseung does what heâs told and pulls it down for the first time in front of you.
You scan him. Then the phone. Then him.
"You've gotta be shitting me," you breathe.
Heeseung shrugs, "Told you."
You gape at him, your mouth opening and closing.
You donât know what shocks you moreâthe fact that a literal celebrity has been standing in front of you this whole time, or the realization that the once-random stranger you used to relentlessly tease has, somehow, always been this ridiculously good-looking all along.Â
"SoâŠyouâre famous?"
"Something like that."
"Something like that?" You shove your phone toward him, your screen now displaying the groupâs Instagram page. "You literally have fans. Like, millions of them."
Heeseung cringes, "Okay, you donât have to say it like that."
"Like what? Like youâre a superstar and Iâve been treating you like a regular guy who can't cook for himself?"
"Because thatâs exactly what I am?"
âUnbelievable,â you scoff, shaking your head. âSo you sing. You perform. Youâcommit crimes against humanity with your ramen choices each night.â
Heeseung groans. âOh my god.â
âOh my god,â you echo, standing up from your seat behind the counter. âSo youâre telling me that every night, an actual, real-life idol has been showing up here, inhaling a weekâs worth of sodium, and Iââ You pause, eyes narrowing. âWait. Are you even allowed to be eating this garbage?â
âAnd are you ever able to mind your own business?â Heeseung counters, now fully regretting this entire conversation.
âAbsolutely not, Lee Heeseung, because this is literally the plot of a drama,â you wave your hands in disbelief. âMystery insomniac convenience store guy turns out to be a world famous pop starââ
âOkay, letâs not get carried away.â
ââand I, the unsuspecting cashier, unknowingly roast him every night like heâs just some sleep-deprived college student instead of a millionaire with talent. Waitââ you then pause again, placing your hands on your hips, staring at him with a newfound judgment. ââyouâre loaded, arenât you?â
Heeseung pinches the bridge of your nose, exasperated, âWhy is that your takeaway from this?â
âYou are!â you exclaim, your smile widening as you ignore his suffering. âYouâre rich and youâre out here eating instant ramen every night!â
Heeseung groans again, dropping his head onto the counter in front of you, âOh my god.â
Grinning, you bend down to this level. âSo this whole time, youâve been lying to me?â
He lifts his head just enough to glare at you. "Itâs not lying. ItâsâŠselective honesty.â
You scoff, straightening up just as Heeseung does, meeting his gaze with an accusatory squint. âThatâs literally the definition of lying.â
âLook, itâs not like I planned to make a habit out of this,â he gestures to the store around him. âI came in one night, and then I came back, and suddenly, I had a thing going. Then you showed up and started running your mouth, andââ
âAnd you kept coming back anyways,â you finish, crossing your arms, a slow, amused smile tugging at your lips.
Heeseung freezes. His mouth opens. Then closes.
ââŠYeah.â
A silence stretches between youâcharged, almost personalâuntil you decide to cut through the tension with a smirk.
âWhat if I play your groupâs music over the speakers every night?â
The look on his face is deadly. âYou wouldnât.â
Your grin grows, âWouldnât I, though?â
âThis is the worst night of my life,â Heeseung drags a hand down his face and turns towards the ramen aisle. âIâm leaving.â
âAww, câmon,â you tease, calling out after him and delighting in his suffering. âAlso can we talk about how you literally just said youâre your own bias?â
âShut up.â
Youâre still laughing when he returns to the counter thirty seconds laterâExtra Spicy Hellfire and coffee milk in hand, cheeks tinged pink.
âAlright, serious question,â you say, leaning in slightly from your seat at the window barstools. âIf you had to give up either Extra Spicy Hellfire or coffee milk for the rest of your life, which would you choose?â
Heeseung immediately stops chewing, his chopsticks frozen midair as he turns to you with a look that says you just personally offended him.
âThatâs straight evil.â
âYou must choose, Ramen Guy.â
Heeseung groans, throwing his head back dramatically. âYou canât just throw life-altering hypotheticals at me like that.â
âChoose.â
He stares at his ramen. Then at this coffee milk. Then back at you.
Then back at his ramen.
Then back at you.
âI hate you, you know that?â
âAw,â you flash him your sweetest, most infuriating smile. âThatâs the nicest thing youâve said to me. Like, ever.â
Heeseung shoots a glare at you, âI hope your regular spicy ramen tastes like disappointment.â
âOh, it totally does,â you look down at your own ramen in front of you and take an exaggerated slurp, âItâs just so awful.â
Heeseungâs lips perk up into a smile at your weirdly endearing antics before shaking his head, âYouâre a lost cause.â
You giggle to yourself, taking a sip of your own juice when you hear Heeseung, barely audible, suddenly mutter:
ââŠIâd give up coffee milk.â
Itâs quiet. Itâs barely there.
Your jaw drops.
âI know, okay?â He rubs his temples as if the decision is actually hurting him. âItâs like choosing between two children. But at the end of the day, ramen is ramen.â
You nod along, pretending you understand the gravity of his heavy decision (you donât). But still, you smileâbecause you were the one who got him to betray his beloved coffee milk.
Heeseung takes a sip of it anyway, groaning as he swirls the bottle in his hand. âI hate that you made me think about this.â
âYou should be thanking me. Yâknow, character growth and all that.â
âMore like character damage.â
You grin, victorious, and he just rolls his eyes before pausing for a second to think, thenâhe nudges his ramen cup toward you.
âHere. Try some.â
You recoil immediately and look up at him with a look that tells him heâs absolutely psychotic.
âAbsolutely not.â
He raises an eyebrow. âWhy? You scared?â
âNo, Heeseung, I just have these things called taste buds.â
He scoffs, shoving the bowl between you two closer. âJust one bite. Câmon, Graveyard Shift Girl, live a little. For me.â
You hold his gaze, suspicious but faltering, becauseâdamn itâheâs looking at you like that. All smug and teasing, head tilted slightly, and it affects you.
And then he moves.Â
He picks up his chopsticks, twirls them in the bowl, and catches a perfect bundle of noodles before leaning forward, holding them up between you two. He waits.
Your breath hitches. Your eyes flicker to the steam curling from the noodles, twisting in the air between your faces, fragile and fleeting.
Heeseung doesnât move.
Neither do you.
Itâs ridiculous, really. I mean, itâs ramen. But the way the space between you suddenly feels thin, the way his grip on the chopsticks stays steady, his fingers just inches from your lips, the way his dark eyes stay locked onto yours, watching you with something unreadable flickering beneath the usual teasing glintâit feels like time slows down.
You blink rapidly, clearing your throat. Itâs fine. Itâs cool. Youâre overthinking.
Heeseung tilts his head slightly, watching. Waiting.
You let out an exaggerated sigh and slowly lean in to take the bite.
Your lips brush the chopsticks as you close your mouth around the noodles, and for a split secondâone charged, unspoken, split secondâneither of you move.
Heeseung is so close.
So close.
You can see the soft curve of his mouth, the way his gaze flickers over your face, the way his breath catches slightly like he just realized something.
Youâre suddenly painfully aware of the close proximity and it sends a rush of heat to your cheeks. Panicked, you pull back quickly and settle into your seat like nothing happened.
But then you start chewing.
And thatâs when you realizeâ
No, wait. Wait. That heat in your cheeks?
Oh.
Oh no.
Yeah. Itâs definitely not because of Heeseung (well, maybe a part of it is).Â
Because the second you swallow down the bundle of noodlesâthe embodiment of heat, pain, and suffering all slams into your mouth instantly.
You freeze.
Your brain short-circuits.
And thenâ
âOh my GODââ you choke, slamming your hands onto the counter, your body shaking as the spice courses through your veins.
Your throat ignites, your sinuses clear, and you swear you can hear colors.
Heeseung? Heeseung loses it.
His laugh bursts out of himâloud, unguarded, and completely delightful. He clutches his stomach, nearly hiccuping from how hard heâs laughing, his eyes crinkling at the corners, dimples deep in his cheeks.
If you werenât literally physically dying in this current moment, youâd probably be absolutely too flustered to function at the sight.
âNo wayââ he wheezes through his laughter,ââare you actually struggling right now?â
âWHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE, HEESEUNG?!â you glare at him through the tears forming in your eyes as you desperately flail your arms around, searching for your juice pouch. âYou eat this voluntarily?!â
âEvery night, baby.â
âYouâre sick.â
âAnd youâre dramatic.â
Your hands finally find your drink and you gulp it down as if itâs your lifeline, eyes still watery, throat still burning, lungs barely breathing. But somewhere in the middle of your suffering, you catch yourself staring.
At Heeseung.
At the way heâs still smiling, like he just had the best meal of his life. At the way his eyes sparkle when he laughs, his dimples peeking out like his own hidden secrets, the way his nose scrunches slightly when heâs amusedâ
Weird.
You blink the thoughts (and your tears) away, shaking it off, and blame the spice, the delirium, and sheer trauma of what just happened.
You clear your throat, sitting back with a desperate huff.
âI hope,â you catch your breath, gesturing to his bowl, âthat when you come in tomorrow, weâre all out of this horrid flavor.â
Heeseung smirks, leaning back in his chair as he gives you a knowing look.
âYouâd still restock it for me, though.â
Damn it.
Your shoulders slump, and both of you know youâre defeated.
He knows you know youâre defeated.Â
Heeseung just grins, then, without a word, slides his coffee milk toward you in a silent truce.
You stare at it. Then at him.
His smile grows.
And you accept it.
Begrudgingly.
Itâs 1:20AM when you find yourself behind the counter, surrounded by half-unpacked boxes of instant noodles and bottled drinks. The store hums with its usual white noiseâlights buzzing above, soft music humming overhead, the low whirr of the coolers.Â
And Heeseung?Â
Heeseung is across the counter, perched on a barstool he dragged from across the store, doing absolutely nothing to help.Â
For the nth time tonight, he flips a soda bottle into the air.Â
And for the nth time tonight, he fails to land it upright, the bottle clattering onto the counter.
âYouâre supposed to be helping me restock,â you remind him, tossing a pack of chips at him.Â
âI am helping,â he argues, dodging the bag in time and letting it fall flat onto the ground. Great.Â
You cross your arms, scoffing, âOh yeah? What category does sitting there and flipping Diet Coke fall under?âÂ
Heeseung finally puts the bottle down on the counter and hums, tapping his fingers against the counter like heâs deep in thought. Then, he flashes you a meek smile, âMoral support?âÂ
You roll your eyes playfully, turning back to unbox another package from the pile stacked in front of you.Â
Another silence falls between you and Heeseung watches as you go back to your job before he breaks itâ
âHow do you do this every night? Does it not getâŠI donât know, tedious? Boring?âÂ
You freeze in your spot, caught by surprise at the question.
âHm,â you turn to him, head tilted as you think.
Heeseung glances up at you, intrigued. The way your lips purse slightly, how your fingers fidget absentmindedly with the torn edge of a cardboard box.Â
You exhale, leaning back against the counter, âYeah, the hours suck, pay isâŠalright. AndââÂ
You hesitate. Your gaze drifts toward the floor, fixating on a dent near the register, ââand I think, at some point, I thought I felt stuck.âÂ
Something in Heeseungâs expression shifts.Â
âI mean, Iâm a college student, for godâs sake,â you continue, a small, humorless laugh escaping you. âAnd I spend my nights serving cigarettes to barely legal teens and cleaning up after ramen spills. It kind of felt like I was justâŠwatching life pass me by, you know?â
Your voice quiets and itâs just the soft hum of the store again. You pick at the box without thinking, fingers grazing over the worn edges, and Heeseung watches you.
Because he gets it.Â
He gets it in a way that makes his chest ache a little.
Because despite the differences in your livesâdespite how heâs constantly moving while you feel stuckâyou both know the feeling of watching life slip between your fingers, of wondering if youâre ever going to feel like you belong in it.
Heeseung holds the soda bottle between his hands, rolling it back and forth, murmuring, âYeah, I get that.âÂ
You glance up at him, making eye contact, but you donât push.Â
âBut then,â you say quietly, âI started seeing this place differently. Instead of somewhere I was stuck, it became more of aâŠbreak. An escape from everything. A breath of fresh air from expectations and routine.âÂ
And thatâthat makes Heeseung look up.Â
Because deep down, thatâs exactly what all of this has become for him too.Â
He doesnât know when it happenedâif maybe it was the first night he found the store, maybe whenever you showed up, maybe all the sarcastic exchanges, or somewhere in between all of thatâbut these late-night visits, these stolen moments in a world that demands from him, have become something steady. Something his.Â
And he wonders if maybeâŠmaybe youâre the reason for that.Â
Maybe youâve been keeping him grounded in a life that never stops moving.Â
And maybe heâs been keeping you from feeling stuck.Â
Just maybe.
Itâs late. Way later than usual. And Heeseung is still here.Â
And you donât know how, but youâve both abandoned your usual spotsâhis self-proclaimed window seat and your stool behind the register.
Instead, youâre both sitting cross-legged on the floor behind the register counter, backs pressed against the shelf of over-the-counter medications that you just re-organized, with a laptop and plenty of empty snack wrappers sitting between the two of you.
âSee this is exactly my problem with this movie,â you point at your laptop screen, your voice slightly muffled by the gummy bears in your mouth. âOne idiot makes one bad decision, and suddenly everyoneâs dead! Like, be so for real.â
Heeseung scoffs, leaning back on his hands, âItâs a movie, Y/N. It doesnât have to be realistic.â
âAnd I donât have to pretend this isnât garbage,â you shoot back as the credits roll, unimpressed. âThis is objectively the worst thing Iâve seen.â
âI think I just have an acquired superior taste,â Heeseung quips, his eyes teasing. âJust like with my food choices.âÂ
âRight,â your voice drags out. âSuperior delusion, maybe.â
Heeseung shoves your shoulder with his own, and you laugh, the sound natural, unfiltered, and totally at his expense.
As you shut your laptop and start gathering the remains of your late-night snack feast, the conversation quiets for a moment into an easy, warm silence. Itâs the kind of quiet that feels good, the kind thatâs been happening more latelyâsomething you never wouldâve expected that first night you ever saw him enter the store.Â
Then, Heeseung exhales, stretching his legs out in front of him as he leans back against the shelf, âYou know, this might be the longest Iâve sat and relaxed in months.âÂ
You glance up at him, brows raised, âWhat, you donât get to laze around on the floor surrounded by junk food with your favorite convenience store worker on a regular basis?â
âUnfortunately, no,â he huffs a laugh. âBut I thought a lot about what you said the other night. And sometimes itâs likeâŠâ
He pauses and tilts his head back, his eyes following the way the light fixture above him flickers in and out, âLike Iâm moving so fast I forget what itâs like to justâŠbe.â
Something in his voice makes you pause in your actions, your hands putting down the miscellaneous wrappers between you.
âIs it hard?â you ask quietly.
He lets out a breathy chuckle from beside you, âItâsâŠa lot. Youâre always being watched, always expected to be on. And even during breaks Iâm already thinking about the next thing. The next schedule, next performance, next practice.â
You watch him for a moment, watch the way his fingers tap absentmindedly against his knee, something youâve started to notice over time whenever heâs lost in thought.Â
âBut there are moments that make it worth it,â he continues, a small smile playing on his lips. âThe music, how fun it is to be on stage, the fans. The feeling of performing and knowing people are there because they love what you do. Itâs unreal.â
Your own smile unconsciously appears as you listen to him reflect, taking in his words. You never stopped to really think about his life in-depth beforeâand it does sound like a lot. Like something people dream of but donât realize the weight of until theyâre carrying it themselves.Â
You nudge his knee lightly with yours, âFor what itâs worth, I think you deserve to just exist sometimes, too.âÂ
Heeseung turns to look at you, and for a moment, his expression is unreadable.
âYeah?â
âYeah,â you say, reaching into the closest bag of gummy bears to you and tossing one to him. He catches it easily, popping it into his mouth with a grin.
âSee, this is why I keep coming back,â he says, chewing. âGourmet snacks and free therapy.â
You roll your eyes. âUnbelievable. I take it back. Suffer.â
Heeseung laughs, popping another gummy bear into his mouth, before his fingers start tapping his knee again. Then, after a beatâ
âYou know, Iâve been thinking.â
When you look up at him, heâs already looking at you with a newâŠsomething. A newfound sincerity, maybe. Or uncertainty. Or both.
Your eyes meet, and suddenly, he visibly hesitatesâshifting almost awkwardly in his spot, as if he both rehearsed what heâs about to say and yet has absolutely no idea what heâs doing. He clears his throat, breaking eye contact.
âIâum,â he swallows hard. âIâm sorry? For, yâknow, being kind of a jerk when we first met. I think I was prettyâŠâ He trails off awkwardly. âJerk-ish.âÂ
You donât move for a second. Slowly, one brow arches.
Heeseung thinks he regrets everything.
Then, a smileâslow and sweetâcurls at your lips.
And suddenly, Heeseung realizes he doesnât regret a damn thing.
âOh, absolutely,â you say, nodding along dramatically. âYou were a menace. Like, an insufferable, grumpy, little menace.â
Heeseung lets out a noise that lands somewhere between a groan and a laugh. âOkay, I get it.â
âBut,â you continue, locking eyes with him again, âI guess I should apologize too.â
Heeseung perks up, now his brow lifting, âFor what? Finally admitting I was right aboutââ
âFor judging you and your stillâŠvery questionable choices.â
âAh, there it is.â
You giggle, nudging him with your elbow before pausing.Â
âBut seriouslyâŠyouâre, likeâŠâ you dramatically draw out the moment as if the words physically pain you to say.
Heeseung smirks, leaning in slightly, waiting for you.
ââŠpretty cool, I guess.â
A slow, satisfied smile spreads across his face, âIâll take it.â
âDonât let it get to your head,â you scoff. âYouâre still a ramen-addicted jerk.â
Heeseung hums, still smiling, âMight be too late.â
Then, he tacks on, without thinking twice, âYouâre pretty cool, too, I guess.â
You laugh at the hesitancy in his voice, âOkay, that sounded almost sincere.â
He rolls his eyes, but his smile softens, âNo, but seriously, itâsâŠnice. Having someone I could talk to outside ofâŠyou know, my whole chaotic life.â
The sudden shift in the air quiets you for a moment as you look at Heeseung, noticing the slight drop in his shoulders, the way his fingers continue to drum against his leg. When you donât say anything, he continues.
âI donâtâŠreally talk to people like this,â he quietly says, as if admitting something to himself more so to you. Then, after a pause, he glances back up, eyes searching your own. âNow like how I do with you. LikeâŠI could tell you anything and everything, really.â
Your breath catches, but you keep your expression neutral, âOh?â
Heeseung shifts, looking down at his hands before exhaling a quiet laugh, âSorry. Too serious?â
You find yourself quickly shaking your head. Because although, yes, most of your interactions with Heeseung are filled with jokes and teasing, the serious conversations or shared warm silences in between recentlyâhave started to mean something more. Theyâve become an outlet, a quiet escape from reality. Itâs like the moment he steps through the storeâs doors, the door rings, the outside world fades, and for a few hours, itâs just the two of you in this shared space.
A space that feels safe, untouched by expectations, where both of you can just be.
âNo,â you say, softer this time. âNot at all.â
You hesitate for a beat before adding, âIâŠreally like talking to you too. Itâsââ you let out a small laugh, âalmost unnaturally easy, actually.â
Heeseung doesnât respond right away. He just nods, and then looks up at you from the ground and his eyes are seriousâno teasing, no usual smugness, just somethingâŠreal. Vulnerable.
Something that makes your heart beat a little too fast.
You should say something. Something light, or something sarcastic, or something normal.
But you donât.
Because youâre too busy looking at his face.
Then, without thinking, his lips.
And heâs looking at yours.
You donât know who leans in first, but suddenly, youâre close. Heâs close. Too close. Close enough to hear his quiet inhale. To see the way his lashes flutter. To feel the space between you two thinning into something dangerously nonexistent.
You should move. You should break the moment before it turns into something neither of you can take back.
But you donât.
And he doesnât.
And thenâ
Ding.
The sound of the automatic doors sliding open shatters the moment.
You both jolt apart like a pair of teenagers caught guilty, and your heart is practically breaking out of your ribcage as you scramble to your feet, wiping your sweaty palms on your pants, your face burning as you appear from behind the counter to greet the customer that was blissfully unaware of whatever was definitely not about to happen behind the counter.Â
You clear your throat as you look down at Heeseung, whoâs still frozen in his spot and trying his very best not to lose his mind, âI shouldâum. Go back to work.â
Then, suddenly, Heeseung stands too, nodding quickly as he runs a hand through his hair, his face slightly pink, very much not looking at you, âRight. Yeah. Work.â
Right when you turn back to the counter, the customer is there, waiting for you to ring them up. You plaster the most normal smile you can muster, scan their snack, take their cash, and hand them their changeâall while pretending you donât feel Heeseungâs presence still lingering behind you.
You donât turn around, and he doesnât move.
And despite the complete lack of physical contact, you still feel his warmth. The same amount of warmth as when he was only mere inches away from your own face.
The door chimes as the customer leaves.
Then, finallyâHeeseung clears his throat.
Hesitantly, you turn around, bracing yourself.
Rubbing the back of his neck, he shifts his weight from one foot to the other, avoiding your gaze before forcing out, in the most casual voice he can manageâ
âSo, uhâsame time tomorrow?â
You blink.
Then, finally, you let out a small laugh, âYouâre so weird.â
The tension in the air cracks just enough, and Heeseung exhales a quiet laugh, âAnd yet, youâd miss me if I didnât show up, wouldnât you?â
You open your mouth, ready to argue, exceptânothing comes out.
Because, unfortunately, you know heâs right.
And he knows heâs right.
So, naturally, instead of admitting defeat, you suddenly grab a rag from behind the counter and start aggressively scrubbing at a perfectly clean surface.
âGo home, Ramen Guy.â
Heeseung just grins, shoving his hands into his pockets as steps out from behind the counter and backs away. âNight, Graveyard Shift Girl.â
When heâs finally gone, youâre left standing there, staring at where he just was before you.
And finally, when the reality of what just happened fully settles inâ
You groan, dropping your head against the counter.
Because now he's in your head.
Great.
The clock above you ticks, a sound that usually fades into the background and becomes a part of the storeâs white noise. But tonight?Â
Tonight, itâs your biggest freaking nuisance.Â
You think if you have to hear it tick one more time, youâre taking the ladder from the backroom, climbing up there, yanking that thing off the wall, and tossing it right into the dumpster.Â
Why?Â
Because, itâs 2:21AM.Â
2:21AM, and youâre alone. Stuck in this sad, empty convenience store with nothing but your own annoying thoughts and the snacks laid out in front of you with no one to share them with.Â
Same time tomorrow, my ass, you think bitterly, aggressively straightening a stack of receipts near the register that donât even need straightening.Â
Heeseungâs voice from a few days ago still rings in your headâcompletely, and unfortunately, uninvited.
You donât even know why theyâre stuck in there, his words looping around, constantly taunting you.
The worst part?
His words had been entirely untrue.
Because itâs been three days.
Three full days since Heeseung has walked through those automatic doors, plopped down in his usual seat, and proceeded to either a) annoy you, b) argue with you over his food-related crimes, or c) make you laugh against your will.
And you donât know why itâs bothering you so much.
Frustrated? Yeah, youâre frustrated. But the real question isâat what, exactly?
Frustrated that he just disappeared without so much as a heads-up? No warning?
Or maybe youâre frustrated at the very fact that youâre even thinking about this at all.
Itâs not like he owes you an explanation. Itâs not like he belongs to this storeâŠor to you.
So why does it feel like somethingâs missing every time you glance at the entrance, half-expecting to hear the ding of the doors and see him stroll in with his stupid hoodie and even stupider smirk?
You shake your head, trying your best to snap yourself out of it.
Itâs fine. Youâre fine.
You donât care.
You donât care so much that, for some reason unbeknownst to you, your brainâyour traitorous, overthinking, hardworking brainâitches with a thought.
A stupid, ridiculous, subconscious thought.
And before you can fully even process what youâre doing, your fingers are already unlocking your phone, your thumbs moving on autopilot as you do something you swore you wouldnât.
You search up his name.
Itâs pathetic. Itâs sad. Even youâre disappointed in yourself.Â
You told yourself you wouldnât associate Heeseung with his job, with the persona that everyone else sees. Because to you, Heeseung is justâŠHeeseungâthe insomniac who bickers with you every night, who somehow turns every conversation into an argument he has to win, who sits cross-legged with you behind the register eating spicy noodles and giving objectively bad movie recommendations.
And to him?Â
Well. You thought that to him, you were just you. Just some convenience store worker he happened to befriend. Someone outside of his world, outside of the blinding lights. Someone he didnât have to be anyone around.Â
His words echo in your mind as you thinkâjust a person he could tell anything and everything to.Â
You push the thought along with their feelings down as you continue scrollingâquick, desperate, your fingers flying over your screen, swiping through posts, comments, anything that could explain his sudden absenceâ
And then.Â
You see it.
A tweet.Â
Tagging his group, followed by a message. Itâs short. Sweet. Simple.Â
Yet entirely soul-crushing.Â
âCanât believe theyâre leaving for tour already tomorrow! So excited to see them in a few days!!âÂ
Your breath catches.Â
Your eyes flicker over the words again.
And again.
Leaving. For tour.
Tomorrow.
Your stomach twists violently as you scan for more confirmation, your hands gripping your phone with a newfound frustration as you tap through articles, fan accountsâanything to tell you this isnât real. That thereâs some mistake. That you didnât just foolishly spend three days waiting for someone who was never going to show up.
But there it is. Everywhere. Right in front of you.
Confirmed dates. Cities. Posters.
Heeseung is leaving. Tomorrow.
And he didnât say a word.
You donât know how long you sit there, staring at your screen. The words all blur together, but the sinking feeling in your chest is sharp, clear, and undeniable.
And you hate it.
You hate that you feel like this. You hate that your first instinct wasnât to be happy for him, or proud, or even remotely understanding.
Instead, youâre angry. Upset. Hurt.
And what you hate the most?
You know exactly why you feel this way.
And just as that realization settles inâjust as the blur of your feelings finally sharpens into something unmistakable, something you can no longer ignoreâthe familiar ding of the automatic doors cuts through the quiet store and the screaming thoughts in your head.
You almost donât look up.
Almost.
But then you do, and your stomach drops.
Because there he is.
You blink, because at first you think maybe youâve been drowning in your thoughts for so long that youâve started hallucinating himâmanifesting his presence out of sheer frustration towards him.
But, no.
Heeseung stands there, at the entrance, hands shoved into his hoodie pockets, looking at you like nothingâs changed.
Like he hasnât been gone for days, like he hasnât left you suffering with your own emotionsâlike he hasnât been the only thing on your mind even when you really, really, didnât want him to be.
âHey,â Heeseung nods at you casually, walking over to his usual stupid aisle, grabbing his usual stupid Extra Spicy Hellfire, then reaching for his usual stupid coffee milkâall like clockwork, all like he never left.
You donât respond.
Instead, you busy yourselfâwiping the spotless corner of your counter, smoothing out a crumpled receipt, pretending youâre looking for something in the shelves beneath you.
Anything to keep yourself from looking at him.
And you might actually lose it.
Because if you have to stand here and pretend like youâre fine, that these past few days havenât felt like an eternity for youâyou might actually lose it.
Heeseung finally walks up to the counter, places his things between you, then pauses before repeating, tilting his head, âHey?âÂ
He shifts slightly, waiting for you to acknowledge him.
You donât.
A beat passes. Then another.
âYou mad at me or something?â he asks, his head still tilted, his voice light, hesitant.
You inhale, your fingers subconsciously tightening around the edge of the counter.
Then, you let out a quiet laughâan empty, humorless scoff.
âShould I be?â
Heeseung frowns, clearly confused, âWhat?â
You finally look at him. And you think it was a mistake. Because the second you meet his gazeâuncertain, searching, so annoyingly familiarâyou feel your throat close up.
He looks the same. Same stupid hoodie. Same messy hair. Same tired eyes that youâve somehow come to find comfort in.
And that makes you hate this even more.
âIs this because I havenât been showing up?â Heeseung tries again, a small, teasing smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. âDamn, I didnât realize youâd miss me that much. Sorry, Graveyard Shift Giââ
âWhen were you going to tell me?â
Your voice is quiet, but he doesnât miss it.
And he stills.
There it is.
He shifts in his spot again, his eyes now darting down to where his fingers are tapping against the counter.
âWhat?â he says again, but this time, itâs different. Careful.
You swallow, forcing down the lump forming in your throat, forcing yourself to look at him.
âWhen were you going to tell me you were leaving?â
Itâs soft. Barely above a whisper. But lined with something raw, something vulnerable, something hurting.
And Heeseung hears all of it. He feels all of it.
He doesnât answer. He just stares at you, lips pressing into a thin line.
Somewhere in the background, the clock continues ticking, the lights overhead buzzing, a song from the speakers humming.
And Heeseung stays silent.
âYou werenât,â you murmur, the words caught in your throat. âWere you?â
Heeseung exhales sharply, dragging a hand through his hair, âIââÂ
He stops. Starts again.Â
âItâs notâit wasnâtââ
You cross your arms tightly, more so to ground yourself more than anything.
He lets out a quiet, frustrated laugh, shaking his head.
âLook,â he gestures vaguely, between you, at the store, at the shelves, at the space youâve unknowingly carved out for him here. âThisâthis is the only thing thatâs felt normal for me in a long time.â
Your stomach twists.
âEverything elseâmy whole life, itâs allâŠchaos. But this?â He swallows, his eyes finally looking up to meet your gaze, his voice quieter now. âYou?â
His eyes flash with something new, something softer, something that lingers in the way he looks at you. The same way he has over late-night snack feasts, whispered movie nights, conversations that blended into the early mornings.Â
âYouâre the closest thing to normal Iâve had.â
And somehow, that makes it worse.
Because you get it. You know him, so you understand.
But it doesnât change the fact that he was going to leave without telling you.
You inhale slowly, your heavy gaze holding his.
âSo what?â your voice is still quiet, but now edged with a new sharpness. âYou thought if you didnât say anything, it wouldnât have to be real?â
Heeseung presses his lips together. âI thought maybe if I didnât say it, I wouldnât have to lose this yet.â
Your breath catches.
You want to laugh. You want to cry.
Heeseung didnât tell you because he didnât want to ruin this.
Whatever this is.
Whatever the two of you had built over the weeks between instant noodles and snacks, between arguments over food choices, between all the unspoken moments that made you feel like maybe, maybe, this was something more.
You let out a wavering breath, shaking your head, âThatâs not fair, Heeseung.â
âI know,â his voice is rough now, like heâs tired of saying it. Like heâs already told himself a million times and accepted it. Like he wants you to just accept it and move on.
But you canât.
âThen why didnât you just tell me?â
âBecause I didnât know how!â His voice rises in frustration, an exasperated sigh slipping out. âBecause youâthisâwhatever this is, it started feeling real. Too real. And I just didnât want to fuck it up, alright?â
The words knock the air out of your lungs.
Because suddenly, everything youâve been trying so hard to ignore, every feeling youâve been trying to convince yourself wasnât there, is suddenly painfully undeniable.
And worse than realizing how real this is?
Knowing that Heeseung knows it, feels it, too.Â
But heavier than that realization is the anger.
Not just at the situation.
Now, at Heeseung.
âSo you thought itâd be better to just disappear instead?â Your voice shakes, biting down on the thick emotion rising in your throat. âYou didnât even think to tell me.â
Heeseung steps closer, and for the first time tonight, you see itâhis own frustration bubbling beneath his surface, the barely restrained emotion.
âWhat does it matter, Y/N?â his sharp voice cuts through the heavy air lingering between you. âWhat difference would itâwould youâhave made? Itâs not like this was ever going to change anything.â
Your heart stops.
At that, you falter, and Heeseung sees it.
He sees the way your eyes move away from his. He sees the way your posture suddenly deflates, as if his words physically hurt you.
Because they do.
Because you know what heâs saying.
Heâs leaving. And youâre staying.
And no matter what, no matter the amount of realness, no matter what either of you feelâthat was always going to be the reality.
âRight,â you finally say, your voice dangerously close to giving out. âBecause itâs not like any of this really meant anything, right? At least not enough for you to acknowledge.â
Now your words hurt.
Heeseung winces. His jaw tightens. His fists clench.
Then finallyâ
ââŠI donât know,â he mutters.
The final crack.
You let in a sharp inhale, nodding once, your lips pressed into a straight line. âGot it.â
Heeseung clenches his jaw, like he wants to take the words back, like he wants to fix whatever just broke between you.
Instead, he exhales, stepping back from the counter, âI should go.â
This time, you donât stop him.
You donât say anything at all.
Heeseung hesitates for a half second, like maybeâjust maybeâheâs waiting for you to say something.
But you donât.Â
Not when you feel so utterly lost in everything youâre feeling that you canât even begin to put into words.Â
So he nods once, shoving his hands back into his pockets, turning away.
The automatic doors slide open.
The ding rings, taunting you.
Cold air rushes in.
And thenâheâs gone.
And you?
Youâre left at the counter, staring at his abandoned cup of ramen, untouched coffee milk, and the ghost of something that never got the chance to be.
Heeseung doesnât think.Â
He wasnât thinking four days ago, when the space between you two had grown impossibly smallâwhen he was this close to you, when the air felt thick with something unspoken, yet undeniable, something that made his pulse race and his breath hitch.Â
He wasnât thinking when he let fear creep in, when the weight of him realizing his own feelings sent him running, keeping him from stepping foot into the store at all. For three days.Â
He wasnât thinking when he looked you in the eye last night and told you this didnât matter. That none of it ever did.Â
He wasnât thinking when he walked out of the store, leaving you to think that you didnât matter to him. That you never did.Â
And he definitely isnât thinking now, when heâs supposed to be leaving for the airport in an hour, but insteadâhis feet pound against the pavement, tearing through the empty, quiet streets like a man possessed, like maybe if he runs fast enough, he can outrun the regret clawing in his chest.Â
The cold air stings against his face, streetlights flicker overhead, and the city hums all around himâbut none of it matters. None of it even registers.Â
Because all Heeseung knows, all he cares about, is getting to you.
Because Heeseung?
He can go months on tour without his Extra Spicy Hellfire ramen.
He can go months on tour without his coffee milk.
He can go months on tour without those, even if it means braving his insomnia.
But what he canât go without?
Heeseung canâtâhe wonâtâgo months on tour knowing you think you meant nothing to him. That you didnât bring him relief after the longest days, laughter when he forgot how to find it, comfort in a world that never slowed down for him.
That you werenât the one thing that felt real in a life that so often didnât.
And if thereâs even the smallest chance to fix thisâto make sure you knowâthen nothing else matters.
The neon glow of the convenience store sign comes into view, and Heeseungâs heart lurches in his chest as he approaches, his staggered breathing visible in the cold air in front of him, his hands clammy.
He stumbles through the sliding doors, the familiar ding barely registering in his mind as his eyes dart aroundâonly for his stomach to drop.
The counter is empty. The soft sound of your absentminded humming, the teasing lilt of your voice, the annoyed glare in your eyesâitâs all missing.
And all wrong. Too quiet, too empty, tooâŠnot you.
Instead, some guy heâs never seen before glances up from behind the register, staring at the way Heeseung just lingers frozen near the entrance.
âUh,â Heeseung swallows thickly, his voice strained from his sprint. âThe girl who usually works nights. Is she here?â
âOh, Y/N?â the worker raises an eyebrow. âYeah, she called off tonight.â
Heeseung stills.
Youâre not here.
Youâre not here.
And itâs his fault.
Because last night, you were hereâwaiting, hoping, and he walked out on you.
âOh,â is all Heeseung can manage before he feels the words getting caught in his throat.
His jaw clenches, his stomach twists. The weight of regret settles deep, heavy and unrelenting.
âRight. Okay. Thanks,â he mutters, nodding absently, then turns towards the door.
The automatic doors slide open.
The ding rings, taunting him.
Cold air rushes in.
And just as Heeseung steps outâ
He sees you.
You.
Right there, walking towards the store, hands shoved into the pockets of your coat, face buried into your scarf.
You stop.
He stops.
For a moment, neither of you move. Neither of you breathe.
The neon glow of the storeâs sign reflects off your face, casting a shadow over your widened eyes. A car honks in the distance. A gust of wind blows past.
âYouâre not supposed to be here,â Heeseung says without thinking, almost breathless.
A small laugh escapes your lips, airy and uncertain, âYeah, wellâŠneither are you.â
Youâre right.
He should be on his way to the airport. Bags packed, schedule set, moving on.
But instead? Instead, heâs here, standing in front of the only person who has ever made him hesitate.
Heeseung takes one step forward, âI was looking for you.â
You tilt your head, your lips pressed together like youâre weighing something in your mind.
Then you take a small step forward.
âAnd now youâve found me.â
Silence.
âIâm sorry.â
It comes out all at once and rushed, but utterly honest. Honest and heavy, the way itâs been aching in his chestâand he canât hold it in anymore.
You blink, unmoving.
âIâm so sorry,â Heeseung says again, stepping closer. His voice is steady, gentle, but nervous, scared you wonât believe him. âFor everything. For not telling you. For leaving like that. For being a completely fucking idiot aboutââ
He stops. The look in his eyes is vulnerable, genuine. Longing.
âAbout this. Us.â
You donât say anything right away, just watching him carefully.
Heeseung runs a hand through his hair, letting out a dry laugh as he realizes heâs about to lay everything out bare.
âI think I was scared,â he admits. âOf what it all meant. Of what you meant to me. I kept telling myself none of it was real, that it didnât matter. But then I walked out yesterday and, I realizedââ
He swallows hard, looking at you and the way your eyes soften with something unreadable.
âIt does. You do. So, so much, Y/N.â
Another pause.
Then, you let out a soft exhale, shaking your head, as if somethingâs finally clicking into place, âIâm sorry too.â
Heeseungâs eyebrows burrow in confusion.
âFor notâ,â you sigh, your hands now fidgeting with the ends of your scarf. âFor not saying something sooner. Because the truth is, Iâve been denying it too. I didnât even realize how much Iâhow much you meant to me until I saw you last night andâŠâ
You trail off, your cheeks warming. Then, with a deep inhale, you take another step closer, meeting his gaze from an armâs length away.
âI was just so angry and upset, but I thinkâŠI realized itâs only because I like you, Heeseung. So much.â
Heeseung swears his heart stops. It feels like his whole world has just shifted, and all his thoughts are tangled up in the way youâre looking up at him now.
âAndâŠI shouldâve been more understanding,â you add softly. âI shouldnât have held it against you like you owed me something. I was just hurt, and I didnât know how to handle it, honestly.â
Heeseung doesnât say anything right away, not when his thoughts are running wild and his heart is beating like itâs about to fully grow legs and escape.
Then, he exhales a breath of relief.
And lets out a quiet laugh to himself.
You blink at him.
âWeâre both idiots,â he says finally, shaking his head softly.Â
A small, knowing smile dances on your lips, your eyes locking onto his, âYeah. Looks like it.â
The tension eases. Just a little.
Heeseung takes a small step closer, close enough that he can feel the warmth radiating off of you, despite the cold air surrounding you both.Â
âSo now what?â
You tilt your head as you look up at him, eyes searching his, âArenât you supposed to be catching a flight soon?â
Heeseungâs breath hitches.
Because he knows he should say yes.
Thatâs whatâs been planned all along. Thatâs the reality.
But, for the first timeâ
He hesitates.
âMaybe."
Your eyes narrow slightly, a playful glare sparking in them, "Maybe?"
Heeseung exhales a quiet laugh, running a hand through his hair, his fingers lingering at the nape of his neck. "Yeah. Maybe."
The warmth in his chest spreads when he sees the way you bite back a smile, the way your weight shifts just the tiniest bit closerâlike you're testing the space between you.
Then, you reach into the tote bag slung around your shoulder and pull something out.Â
âHere.â
You press a small bottle of coffee milk into his hands.
Heeseung stares at it in his hands.
Then at you.
And youâre looking at him with something gentleâsomething that makes his chest tighten in the best way possible, something that makes the world feel just a tiny bit warmer.
âJust in case you need a reminder,â you say, your voice light and grounding. âOf whatâs normal.â
Heeseung stares at you for a moment, and suddenlyâeverything makes sense.Â
The missing piece clicks into place as the static in his mind all fades away, leaving only thisâonly you.Â
You, standing here in front of him, looking at him with that small, steady smile, and Heeseung knows.Â
He's never been more sure of anything in his life.
A laugh escapes him before he even realizes it, soft and breathless, bubbling up from somewhere deep in his chest, where warmth curls all around it, wrapping around his own heart like a quiet, undeniable truth. His heart races and his fingers tighten around the bottle in his handsâslightly trembling, not from nerves, but from the realization of something so much bigger. Something so much realer.Â
And then, without even thinking, he steps forward like itâs the most natural thing in the world, and closes the small space between you before wrapping his arms around you. He pulls you in, slow but certain, with a gentleness that catches you by surprise.Â
You freeze, breath catching, but only for a second. Because thenâlike a reflex, you melt into him, your own arms tightening around him.
Holding onto him just as much as heâs holding onto you.
Neither of you say anything.
Thereâs a quiet calm between you twoâno need for words, just the rhythm of your heart beating against his own. Steady, calming, like itâs syncing with his, like theyâve always known each otherâs pace.
Like theyâve been moving in tandem all along, even when neither of you realized it.Â
And in a way, maybe thatâs just how itâs always been with you twoâbalancing on the fine line between pushing and pulling, between sharp words and lingering glances, between pretending you didnât care, yet feeling everything all at once.Â
So easy to cross, so easy to blur, so easy to mistake for something else.Â
Maybe you spent all this time thinking you were standing on opposite sides, only to realize you were always moving toward the same place.
And now, as one of his arms moves across your back, the other threading gently through your hair, holding the back of your head against his chest like he never wants to let you go, his heartbeat still steady against yours, you know for certainâ
You were never meant to stay on one side.Â
You were always meant to cross it.Â
Life is unpredictable, uncontrollable, and chaotic.
Lee Heeseungâs life? Heeseungâs life is that times ten, with an extra sprinkle of what-is-even-happening-anymore?
Howeverâ
There are three thingsâthree sacred constantsâthat keep Heeseung from spiraling into total madness.
The first?
Insomnia.
Not by choice, of course.
The second?
Extra Spicy Hellfire ramen and coffee milk.
Yes, itâs a weird combo. And no, he still doesnât care.
And the third?
You.
And honestly?
Youâre the only one he really needs.
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the end! if you made it to the end, i'll ship u some extra spicy hellfire ramen & coffee milk rn ! <3 luv u mwahmwahmwah !
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reblogging again bc I think about this fic every day
hehehe fineline!heeseung oh how i miss u



