I miss you. I remember everything. From when we were best friends to our first kiss to when we broke up. I remember everything and I regret fucking up, but it is what it is. I just wish we could fix what went wrong, because we were perfect for each other. I really want you back in my life, even if we were just friends, it would satisfy me.

Just as I thought I was getting over her, I wasn't. I guess glancing over at her in choir a few too many times, I thought about her too much. I dreamt about her, and yes, I know we stopped talking and all, but "her" in my dreams, was just as I knew her a few years ago. EXACTLY the person I knew a few years ago and that made me realised how much I miss her and how much I really do love her. I honestly don't know what to do any more..

I'm still here, thinking of you as I talk to her. She's pretty. She has a cute personality and maybe her eyes do shine, but she isn't you. You are just beautiful and so amazing I don't even know what to think. I can just sit and stare at you all day and I'll believe I am feeling what happiness is. Your eyes shine like the stars at night in the midst of daylight. The sun may shine but your eyes shine brighter, they are the light to my world. This is why I cannot get over you. I'm trying hard, really, and this first month and a half of high school I have met so many amazing people, and there are so many pretty girls, but the only one that stands out is you.

Just as I was over her, for months. Oh how I thought I was. Watch a fucking movie and how it fucking goes reminds me of her and here I am again. Like what the fuck? I freaking love her. Yeah. I fucked up bad and there is no way in hell we will happen. Get the fuck over it. But yet I can't. But no, no girl ever works. They just come and go but she is just the perfect one. Fuck me, I'm being silly. Just gotta get the fuck out and go meet some new people, right? High schools around the corner and if its been a year, I can keep going.