baby’s got the bends

i write abt many things but mainly stranger things, marvel and eventually call of duty :)

despite her saying that she “enacted divine justice” by killing her father, i don’t think she ever really believed. i think that saying she was enacting god’s wrath was the only way she could justify her love for agnes. she didn’t do it for god or as a way to get to heaven, she did it for agnes. becka loves her so much that she did what she was taught to do when someone hurts girls; she kills. i also think that her first instinct being to murder her father is proof that the brainwashing in gilead is much more successful than we think. from such a young age these girls are so desensitized to violence and rage and hatred that they start craving it. enacting it. because this violence becomes their catharsis, they only know one end to the story. i mean, you can literally see becka shut her brain off and accept that death is just what must happen. there is no other way in gilead.