LITTLE BAD GIRL

Having friends must be so nice. Forever feeling alone, for once I’d just like to have a true friend but maybe that’s just not meant to happen for me

Imagine having real friends who care about you and treat you like an actual friend. Sick of making an effort for everyone else when its never returned

Trying to hide everything behind false smiles and laughter... not working too well for me rn.

Feel like I’ve finally lost it....

Why am I building walls again? I feel so shit that I’m embarrassed to let my boyfriend see any part of me, to see me upset, to know what’s going on in my head. I’m so fucked up. Maybe I’m just meant to be alone

Imagine being so self conscious and hating yourself that much that you feel like your partner thinks the same... I’m disgusting so I wouldn’t blame him...

Imagine loving somebody so much that you’ve convinced yourself they’re better off without you. That you’ll just ruin them if you stick around. That they’ll grow to hate and resent you... Yeah, it sucks.

That horrible feeling of wanting to hurt yourself to just be in control of the pain you’re feeling.